yesterday...

I finally CUT my hair!!!

a new hair cut!! look refreshing!

Saw some antique cars exhibition at IMM..

cool antique cars...

Met up with JC classmate for dinner (dessert?) seek. jars. unda. elaine. jialin. i love u all!!!

After chatting with them at bugis breko for almost 3 hours. i headed to Club Momo for the NTU sports bash. met up with sec school friends.!! kaijiedaddy. lixianmummy. yiwei ge. christopher. taiyuan. his gf (wooo. reminds me of some korean drama female lead).yingyu. karheng. jasmineho. yiping. the club's too dark so never take too many photos.

Nothing is better than a meetup with old friends. and good food!!

Today..
almost couldn't wake up for my bike prac this afternoon!! anyways. SP sux! alright. it didn't.. the bike did. i will remember. "no. 2" never take it again in my life!!

went for my first road lesson!! riding had never been so exciting! but i'm really scared of the van car bus and lorries..!! was riding suddenly check my blind spot den got this red van from no where just come beside me..!! i know the lane is wide... but Mr Van. u scared the hell out of me..! heng i only wanted to move to the side of the lane. not make a turn. if not i think i will really die..!!!

that's this stretch of long road where we can go up to 70kmh. it was really shiok lah!! i was like at hmm 65kmh. wah. can't wait to ride 90 on the expressways!!! hmm.. i'm suppose to be the road hog leh.. now seem like i'm going to spd.. wahaha

but in the end. due to the countless mistake i made. i failed and have to go back again. the worse thing is.. nobody in my class passed. i think. is must take 2 time de. haha.

i can't study. i'm already in holiday mood..!! only 2 days! 2 DAYS!!!

how to finish at least reading thru all the notes?? 60 MCQ openbook doesn't mean i wun screw the damn paper. shit..! only read 1 chapter since morning..!!!

did everyother thing besides studying..

weixian (TH one) mention something about me being slim last time and look pretty nice in bikinis.. now.. who the hell told him that..!?!?!?!?! even.. possible suspects. TY. Maxiao. (maybe JiaJie..) weird..

but den. that induced me to dig out my desktop from inside my cabinet and got the old pictures.. hmm. i must diet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! although i'm not that motivated also. fan zheng mei ren yao. anyhow also nevermind lah! Too bored hence decided to post some old times pictures..


uniform seduction..!!!! (alright. not seducive..) from right top.. last day in SAJC.trying out pinafole (or however u spell it..).. last day in NHSS.. days in first 3 mths..

me and my different hairstyles.. from top right.. super short and spikey hair! rebonded hair.. short and dyed hair.. black tied up hair..

when i was healthy and tanned and slim..!!!! june 2004...

i was still healthy and tanned and slim.. sep 2004..

fat already liao!!! top - dec 2004.. bottom may and june 2005

Argh...!!! StUDy StUDy StUDy!!!!

I was sooo tired from work over the weekend that i sleep until 2pm today!! bought lunch from fongseng tok cock abit den went to watch harry potter with jian wen.

we went to the new marina square and guess what.. i got lost! damn.. its quite big lah.. that's why.. harry potter is like 2.5 hrs and its quite nice! although got ppl died den i dun like.. sadded.. i dun like shows where ppl dies!!!!!! especially since that SPL thingy..

we went for dinner at carls jrs for the first time.. here's what i ate...

the burger is very big leh!!!!!!!!!! and the fries is not nice also.. but their onion rings tasted damn nice..

walked around before we headed home.. that's my day......

last paper in 3 days!!! zZz

alison woke me up at 11:15am.. thank god i have them. if not i think i sure overslept for my paper today.
i didn't blank out at the paper. the paper blank out on me. i wrote completely wrong information on my paper. showing my bimbo-ness. moreover.. i couldn't answer some parts of the paper. damn sian.
really feel damn upset with myself. sort of feeling very lethargic and didn't want to go for movies le. but..
anyway. we reached cineleisure and i saw....

chicken little!!!!!!

wanted to watch skyhigh but cineleisure wasn't showing. so we were deciding between a hongkong show - SPL and just like heaven. maybe i look very sian. den we took damn long to decide which show to watch. when we finally decide for just like heaven.. we only left with 2 front rows to choose from. so in the end we watched SPL.

erm. its a quite bloody show. and i dun really understand it. its basically just revenge and killings. reminds me of kill bill (but abit more story line lah..) and happy tree friends. whatever it is, its just violence. and i didn't kind the ending cause my favourite character died..

Both of us were starving after the show. and we went to eat...

delicious billy bombers' burgers... *drool*

discovered this new pub outside heeren. they practically build the whole place themselves lah!! its like out of no where.. One part of the pub that i find damn romantic.. wondering if it can take my weight..

new chill out place outside heeren --- "balcony"...

Walked along orchard to go home.. the beautiful xmas decor were all lighted up.. and the place look very nice. but i feel so feelingless.. no holiday mood whatsoever.. i can't even pull a proper smile. tell anyone that my last paper is 7 days later and i sorta end my exams already i think they also wun believe...

orchard road beaming with xmas mood.

we walked to around wheelock place area and there's...

somebody's photo exhibition..

The exhibition was titled "from top of the world"

The pictures was all taken from the top view of things. The pictures shows something.. the polluted environment. agricultural beauty..

its really a loooong stretch of photos.. i was feeling very tired when i was done seeing them all.

xian send me back to hall. hope i didn't spoil his day by being so moody..

sidetrack: my good friend Dexi anyhow gave my number to his friend alvin. and his friend. msg me as if i know him for 1000 years. i didn't reply the first sms (quite long ago) cause i really have no idea who the hell is he. (he didn't even intro. i think he said something like asking me out..). yesterday he sms me again, saying that he's alvin, am i stacy? i said yes and ask if he is the starhub alvin. cause too many alvins lah. he didn't answer my questions and instead ask if he could call me. i tot he's the starhub alvin. but cause i was heading for my CM1111 paper. so i say i will tok to him later.

after my papers. i ask him if he's working for the expo roadshow this weekend. den he start clarifying that he's not that alvin but another alvin that i never met before in my life! (damn dexi.. u anyhow give number and never even bother to tell me..!!).. anyway. my phone was flat and i didn't sms back. got back to him when i was back in hall. den anyhow say i was going to sleep so ignore him loh. den today i sms dexi ask him to give the alvin my msn den we chat online loh. den dexi say he doesn't have. so i reply saying that "huh. he say he have leh.. why u intro weird friends to me?" dexi never reply and i didn't really bother.

halfway thru the show with xian.. he sms me demanding a reason for why i didn't reply his msg since yesterday.. (i was like. huh? i'm ur wife arh?).. after that he started telling me that i shouldn't have went to bother dexi since we already know each other. (so now is the agency and the client lah..) thereafter he ask me why i dun want to chat with him on the phone. and only willing to sms (damn u. i'm having exams and how long u think i know u? what makes you think that i should fucking entertain u?) so i reply. why u so fierce? den he says that he seem fierce on sms but actually not so fierce in person.. den he continue he's "can i call u" thing. and i said i was in a movie. and he reply this "At where? N until wat time?" i was damn pissed already and i say why u like interrogating me like that. damn irritated. den he say cause he wants to chat with me den i keep saying tml tml.. den i was really going to fume already and i blurt out... "friends only mah! dun need so aggressive lah!!!

how come got this kind of people de..!!?!?!?!?!?!

P.S. i think i missed the timing. or maybe somethings are just not meant to be..

feeling a mixed of feeling now.

sad. regretful. guilty. pissed. frustrated. numbed

to think the CM1111 paper today was sooo easy.
how i regret not studying harder in the evening.
how i regret not even trying to memorise the period table.
how i regret not going for lectures.
how i regret not turning up for the final test.
how i regret not drinking that chicken essence that will help me improve my memory.
how.. how..
the exact same question came out in the paper as what i read from my tut 10 mins before i enter that dreadful mpsh 5. and i forgot the answer. damn.

i promise i will study hard and consistently next sem.

went to do manicure. how can i still have the mood to relax?
hope i will feel better after my SS paper.
hope seeing xian can cheer me up?
hope.. hope..

working this weekend at expo. that's damn far lah!!!!!!! can i dun go? damn. if i know at expo i will not go already lah! but start 9:30am.. if they end at 9:30 den i will clock 3 hours of OT. 31.50 leh! den like that one day have like 90bucks. can lah. pasir ris i also go..

going to sleep. shall mug hard when i wake up!! and reward myself with movie with xian! yay!!

didn't sleep the whole night to study for jap.
but in the end. haiz. i completely forgot about the kanji part. and when i realise.. there wasn't enough time to study and i dunno which part to study!!!!

the paper is from 9-11 and i fall asleep at 10am while reading the comprehension part of the paper. wake up 20mins later and quickly finished up the paper. totally screwed. my katakana and kanji is like totally WRONG!!! damn sian.

it was raining when we came out and jerry gave us a lift back to hall. i went to bed immediately but only fall asleep at around 12.

yea..!! can start teaching tuition in dec le!! hehe. my tutee msg me saying that can start tuitioning in dec.. my 2.5 lesson's money trapped there... finally can get it back le.

completely no confidence in CM1111 tml. i have no idea what went on for that module for the pass sem.

woke up at 4 and studied with maxiao's friends, junwei and melvin, at C1. While maxiao happily sleep in his room (we failed to make him wake up). He is A PIG!!!

ate dinner and continue studying. but actually more of like gossiping and chit chating with jun wei and melvin. found out that melvin is a hardcore cat-lover.. haha. can be good friends with key and colin. den can play with tiger and panda. hahaha..

continued slacking in my room until now..! arghhh.. i never study at all....!!!!!! ::sad::

Had my first paper today. CM1101. tot it was pretty alright. But everyone else was telling me that the paper is hard. now i have no confidence at all..!!!! haiz.

Took a photo with amy today. i like the pin she used to pin her scarf..!!
Its PINK..! hahahahaha..

after paper blues.....

Went to meet junhao after the paper. to get my pdl done up at bbdc.
went for dinner before going back to hall..

old time buddy -- junhao!

what ever it is. its mugging time..!! still have alot of vocab to memorise for tml's jap test..! and i want to do my laundry also.. zzZ....

last night..
was really in absolutely NO mood to study.. keith called at 8:30pm and ask me whether wanna go pei him eat dinner. hmm. i certainly dun mind! jap is BORING! went to fong seng and talked cock for quite awhile.. long time since we hanged out together. (since june!!!)

after dinner he came to chill (CHILL.. o.O?) in my room. we browsed thru pictures and friendster. too bored. chat with him for awhile on his car before he left to settle his unfinished businesses.. (hmm..)

The evidence of me invading his car is shown below.

uncle keith came to visit..!!

went back to my room after sending uncle keith away and continue to not study.. luke and max came by before heading to fong seng. asked them to pack hot milo for me. wanted to go to bed after awhile but they are not back yet.

they came back with TY and my drink. now. this is the beginning of the crazy night. we started with taking photos in my room (making so much noise till b2 ppl come and complaint..).. scandaling around. forming gaying 3.


exam stress leads to craziness. taken in my room..

Thereafter proceed to TY's room and continue taking photos. (actually is just TY lah. he keep snapping photos. and max and i keep fighting for the bed. so in the end.. the 3 of us.... hmm...

jianyu the poor victim of toothbrush crazy TY was captured on the way to brush his teeth.. and forced to pose and snap a photo with TY.

more craziness in TY's room..

Finally we ended the ordeal and i went to slp in Max's room. why can't i sleep in my room arh? hmm..

Today..

woke up at 10+. they didn't wake me up for breakfast!! those 2 pigs. wake up to see max playing some stupid game (as stupid as those puzzle games i always play lah..) damn free. no need exams arh??

went back to my room to see linda's note on the door.

hmm. now. that make me sound absolutely like a PIG! but. i wasn't in my room!! how to wake me up..!??!?!?

hahaha. made a new friend -- wee tat, julia's friend. he got small eyes. like seekee's. (opps..wahaha.) went to bbdc to make my pdl. was damn excited. but the traffic police counter's personnel just have to pour cold water down my hot head.

"sorry miss, for motorbike, you got to get approval first from downstair. now the counter is closed we can't do anything for u. come back on monday."
nvm. go downstairs.
"yah, you gotta get approval first, the TP counter going to wait for u? (i shaked my head). hmm. den you have to come back on monday le. can i have ur IC? (she put a chop on my PDL form as shown below). did you bring ur booklet? (i shaked my head again.) alright, den u have to bring ur booklet on monday and they will authorise for you."

stupid chop that make my trip down to bbdc futile..!

sian half..!! why didn't they just say earlier..!!?!?! den i would have got it authorised when i passed my evaluation..!! the bike instructors also never say anything. DAMNED..!! wasted trip.

meet yuzhen for lunch at westmall. going mayim again. yeah. dim sum.. yum yum..!

i find their utensils damn cute (the 2nd time liao) so decided to take a pic.. hehehehe..

nice utensils..!!!!

was chating about our savings plan (prucash lah. 25 yrs bond leh!!). Zhen called up her agent to clarify some doubts. different from what we tot it is. some new things i found out today

1. when u cancel prucash in the 1st 24 mths. u dun get a single cent back.

2. cancel after 2 yrs. u get 500. 3 yrs 1000. and so on (provided you dun collect your cash back.) what's the point..!?!?

3. doing sales will make u become VERY outspoken and aggressive. (when we first know yuzhen's agent, maple, she is a soft-spoken fresh graduate. now she acts with confidence and had become a real chatterbox. all in 7 mths!! haha. but i'm born this way.. hmm. but i HATE sales!!

Hmm. Lets discuss some good things about having a savings plan.. since i already have it for so long..

1. you get really excited when u recieve ur cashback cheque. (i already turned mine into my handphone..)

2. you can afford the downpayment of ur son's new car when he gets an license. you see. the stupid plan is for 25 years. i think by the time it matures. i have a son as old as i am now. so i can buy him a car.. (even if u keep taking the cashback. u should also have like 12K when it matures..)

WAIT. what makes me think i will have a SON?!

3. They used giro deduction so u dun really feel the pain every month. and try not to bother about it. u will feel happier after 2 years. suddenly got 1.5K like that.

Anyways, finally gotten the cheque from adecco. 5 days $383 like that. not bad. 1 day avg 75. the power of OT pays.

went back after depositing the cheque at UOB. think i will close my TX soon. just keep my icampus and POSB account (i really dun like POSB. but still more convenient to keep one. some more it had been with me for so many yrs le..) can't be maintaining 3 accounts. no $$.

took 52 (new bus) cause i saw that it goes to clementi rd. (when on the bus and took a look at the bus route. realise that the bus go to the other side of clementi rd. not the nus side. sian half. alighted at clementi stn and buy bubble tea for linda they all. too lazy and took a cab back. slack until now.

my mum is rumbling in my ears..!! (cause i use ear piece. she also ke lian. ji dao talk to air..) nothing is going into my brain. just left ear in right ear out. and i am still happily blogging.. wahaha..

okie. enough. i must go and study!!!!

hmm.

didn't study the whole day! change blogskin. ate dinner. surf friend's blog. explore friendster. pei uncle keith eat dinner. tok cock with him in his car. a bit pissed. but seriously in no mood to study! would have go to sleep if i had not ask luke and max to get milo for me. damn. am i dumb?

argh. just 2 more days to my chem paper. i feel the stress sinking in. yet i can't get myself fixed up to mug. hmm. its like prelims like that. which i totally gave up. maybe i really did took the wrong major? but maths also doesn't seem like a better job.

people around me mug till the wee hours of the night. while i surf net and msn till the wee hours of the night.

can't stand the competition i'm facing in school. never did felt so terrible in JC. cause i know that everyone else is just as not-sure-what-they-are-studying as i am. completely no confidence and thus lead to even more no mood to study. can't pick up everything just like that.

we tot we conquered the worse period by finishing A levels. we tot we're good when we entered universary. but boy.. we are damn wrong. we just put our feet back into the vicious twice-annually-mugging-cycle for the next 3 years. and everytime its worse than A levels. and u dun even have the so-called prelims to gauge ur standards. DAMN!

meeting mum and maybe zhen tml. very stressed. can't believe i wasted my 1 day!!

i need to scream!! ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

very happy!! just changed a blog skin today!! chicken little is damn cute..!!

studied till 7:30am yesterday and slept till 2pm. like damn not enuff sleep. only ate 2 disgestive biscuits since i wake up. damn hungry now.. i want dinner..!!!

alright. today's suppose to study jap.

hai, benkyooshimasu!

never know that just toking to someone on the msn will also feel so happy.

suddenly in the mood to get attached le. having someone calling me silly. messying up my not very long hair.. also seem very xing fu..

*shake head*. now. i haven been studying isn't it. haiz. got time to blog about such stupid things means i'm too "free" not studying!!!!!!

feel like getting my hair cut. can't stand the yellowish malnutrition colour of my ends. (that's what my mum always says.. yellowish hair makes u look malnutrition..) although i tot i'm over nutritious now...

also feel like doing manicure. hmm.. maybe get it done over the week ends? den i can have a nice pair of hands to stare at when i dunno how to do my chem questions next week. hahahaha..

thinking of the busy schedule of IHG and gombak trainings during december holidays. seem like i wun be able to get my manicure done le.. should i just go for it..???

tony suddenly sms me yesterday. some forwarded msg which i finally decided to reply. (cause i dun reply forward msgs..) haha. ask him out for harry porter since no one wants to watch it with me yet.. maybe meeting up next weekend. pretty excited bout that actually. my ex-crush leh..!! hehehe..

junhao also sms me last night. actually he sms me alot of times before that but i lazy to reply. i was still lazy to reply.. but i called back.. haha..! we will meet up during december.. and i still owe him a pasta meal..!!

slept a bit early last night. but still wake up as late today. at 11am..!! but managed to study 2 chapters for chem. (a bit of improvement lah. as i only managed to do 1 chap per day!) now i'm left with about 25 chaps more..! shit. how to finish studying...!?!?!?!!?!?!?!

STACY YU! u better mug hard NOW!!! u pig. i'm a pig.............................

go for my jog before linda kills me..! she damn angry now..!! hawahaha

hee.
monday: i pass my bike's circuit evaluation in my first attempt..!! and only have 2 demerit points. feel damn proud. but sadly when i finish the evaluation TP office closed le.. so cannot get my PDL done that day.. must go down another day to make den cannot book road lessons yet. ma fan.

tuesday: studied the whole day!! damn proud of myself. but bout 2:30am i left comm hall saying wanna go slp but end up in maxiao's room watching dvd. wahaha. slept at 4:30am instead..

wednesday: hee. feel damn happy today!! dun ask me why. i'm a pigster!!

went to queensway with linda max this afternoon. den went to ikea to get the bigger laundry bag.. and also a new fitted sheet for my bed.. it pink!! my fave.

came back and changed my bedsheet. jasmine came to visit. and tok cock with us. went to holland v's essential brew to meet up with prince charming ppl..
some episodes..


The birthday girl..!!!

me beng pam lionel and my food!!

pam acting pissed with the drink... hahahaha

Finally after much catching up and crapping we left essential brew. me and pam went to cold storage.. bought a few groceries.. i bought nicer butter (than the comm hall's..) for the bread!! hehe.

took a cab back with pam and went to explore her room. KR's room is really much smaller than TH's!!! went to visit Kim-san after that.. must exclaim at the security of KR. they need identification where ever they go..!! kim-san showed me alot of his photos.. he even stayed and studied in sri lanka for a few years!!

finally walked back to TH at 11:45.. before linda slaughters me..!! hahaha.. now going to study liao...... FINALLY!!

was rushing lab report from thursday to friday. i tot the lab report is suppose to be handed in on friday 5pm (had last lab on thursday). so i wake up at 12pm to do. but terri told me jianyu and alvin say its on friday morning and both of them rush the lab report out on thurs night i was like.. WHAT!!?!?!?!

weixian dropped by with my jacket and clothes (that i left over at his house last week, cause it was raining and we were drench..! so i left my clothes there to dry). and bought qoo for me!! so sweet. continue my mad rush for the lab report. i keep typing and typing.. suppose to go home for dinner but cause too hungry ended up eating in hall. amy called me at 3pm asking me some concentration thingy. and she said it is friday 5pm.. now i'm blurred..!! finally. without stopping, i finished the lab report at 8pm. -_-. what a damn long report!!!! finally slot it into the doors of my TAs at 9pm before heading home.

met mum at imm and shopped for socks at daiso. i bought 5 pairs!!! (because all my socks has been missing in action since i move into hall.. from 6 pairs become only 1..!!!)

went home and told mum bout weixian's stuff.. she started to tell me long stories and this time even mentioning stuff like sleeping with the guys and their needs.. WTH..!!!!! aiyo.. (must be influenced my max to be using all the WT WT WT.. -_-)

went home and continue to play diner dash.. wanted to install the demo in the comp at home but my o/s at home is not support. so played the small web version. got my highest score of 330,000+++ for endless. went to sleep after that but mum started talking bout the stuffs again and i couldn't sleep. i tot for once we can tok like grew ups. but she still treats me like a baby..!

wake up at 8:15 for my Riding theory test at 9.. was quite nervous cause i scared fail den must take again den will delay all my practical lessons. but i finished the whole test in 10mins and passed. that's how easy it is.. most of the questions appeared in the practise booklets (which i can finish 4 in 50 mins and there was only 7 in total..)

met hongseng my known-thru-bike-practical friend.. went to eat dim sum at a kopitiam near batok west central.. quite nice. chatted with him till 12+ den went back. what a nice way to start a weekend..!

was suppose to study but end up playing games.. (AGAIN!!) was quite hungry at around 5:30pm and went to sleep instead (later got some deeparaya dinner at upcc.. representing YEC..).. wake up at 7pm.. dominic suppose to come pick me up de..!! but end up he forgotten about the dinner and went to church instead.. so i have to take a bus. damn lazy. senthil and his friend also never come. so only me and poor whye wan ate the dinner. the 2 of us have to stand the speeches and the lousy sound system.. i shook hands with Dr Vivian!! he's quite gentlemanly.. but i was hoping that he will leave earlier because only when he left den i can go home...!!! whye wan's much better den dominic and send me back to hall.. i didn't study in the end but did went for a run..

feel damn shiok now.. go pom pom liao!! yeah!!

counter attack my chocolate binge by running yesterday and today.

nothing feels better den a run..!!

lost the wonderful feeling i used to have after a run or a swim.. must get them back..
den can get my figure back!! hehe..
=P. think now must run everyday!! destress also.

always happier after a run.. hehe.. burn my fats!!

Study Matters

Jap Oral Test: Screwed!!

At first haven warmed up. so when sensei start shooting me questions. i keep hanging and take very long to think of the answers. was better at the end of the personal conversation.

Pair task 1: I asked peifen-san the wrong question. and she gave the wrong answer. and we hang! arghh.. den she doesn't know how to say "a little far" (which i also dunno) den we damn screwed lah..!!

Pair task 2: this one worse. peifen-san suppose to ask me what i want now. den which is the one i wanted most. Den the prompt shows a yr1995 computer - slow and yr 2005 computer fast. den i said this. "yr 2005 hurry!!!" argh..!!!!!! damn screwed!!!!

CM1111 test: SUPER screwed..

i fall asleep at bout 2:30. when terri came to wake me up for the test at 3:30. i was soo sleepy i can't even remember what did i answered her. after that.. pamela called me. and scolded me when i told her i'm not going. haha.. finally managed to wake up at 6pm for dinner. i'm such a PIG!! and damn pissed off with myself also. cause alvin say the test quite easy..

ARGH!! STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!!

Met up with Shu Jun and Li Wei for lunch today at the arts canteen. Hey's a snap shot of Shujun!! she refuses to let me take photo of her!!


Sadako in Town!!!

While we were waiting for Li Wei.. Jerry and his gang appeared.. so happen to be sitting right in front of me. Look at how crazy all of them were. They scare the hell out of me..!!


crazy people smiling at me..

Went to Central Library to study. But FAILED!! terribly.. haha.. when i came back, jessica (my sweet neighbour) was showing off her (finally) neat room..!!


jessica's room finally neat..!!

anyway.. i can't concentrate today.. weird things go through my mind. can't fixed my eyes on the book and laptop to type my lab report. haiz. i tried hard not to think too much. but can't help thinking..!
especially after i saw joann in the lib..!! argh. what a bad time to be involve in something so complicated..!!! No more wasting of time.. my oral test (for jap) is Wednesday!!! and so is the CM1111 test.. of everything..!! how can i allow my mind to wander anywhere else besides in the books now..??!!?!?!

ate a tonne of chocolate while (tried to) studying in central lib today. feels fat and guilty now. argh. result of my bingeing. *sobs*. stop it stace..

i tried blogging the other day but end up didn't blog.

now. here's a chance for me to get attached. one of the things on my wishlist. the problem is my wishlist has not been updated and that wish was out quite sometime ago. wasn't a easy decision to make. but studies and hall come first now.

the word "commitment" sounds too much for me to bear at this stage. lets just get over it soon.