I missed my last TC class.. to think i practice the conversation for 30 mins last night..

damn.. i totally screwed my japanese this sem...

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sometimes ppl dun understand themselves...
so they dun understand what they're doing or feeling or whatsoever..

sometimes i dun understand myself.. so i dun understand what i'm doing or trying to do..

most times.. u dun understand me.. so u dun understand why i'm behaving this way.

Did i mentioned that my laptop is spoilt?!?

anyways.. i'm back to the very small IBM 240x.. its screen is about 7" only.. the rest can use ur imagination..

finally called the person at the service centre today.. obviously the hard-disk is STILL outta stock(after 2 weeks) and no idea when there will be stock...! hai.. i want my lappie BACK!!!

i have no songs except yes933 online.. i wanna die..

anyways.. i beat the rain in coming back to hall today.. hehe.. back in my room when it started raining.. seem like its raining everyday!! i can't wait for 10th April to come.. its max's project submission deadline.. (i'm sure he's hoping that day dun come..) but i can't.. cause i will be receiving alot of tuition fees before that!! hehehe.. and moreover.. his project would have ended and we can finally study together!!!

I'm totally living a healthy lifestyle right now.. sleeping before 2am everynight and waking up at around 8am.. but i hasn't been seeing linda, my beloved neighbour, for very long!! Cai, i miss u..!!!

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some consideration..

after doing gen bio and genes and soci.. i discovered my interest for life sciences is stronger than chemistry.. pondering on whether to change major next yr or not.. but if i switch now i will grad 1 sem later than i am suppose to.. should i...??? moreover.. life sciences is also totally not an easy to score major..

now.. back to my essay.. (i am dreaming of the redang trip in may already.....)

seem like i'm more consistant in blogging for ONCE..

hahaha.. maybe because i'm more abandoned den ever..


anyways.. i had one first real life skidding experience today... (out of the driving centres...)..
okok.. before anyone grabs the phone and try to find out if i'm fine..
i didn't really skid.. i mean yes i skid as in my back wheel was locked and i still went forward resulting in the back of the bike swing to the left.. but my bike didn't drop neither did i fall out.. i managed to stir and keep it upright.. although it was a close one cause one of the NUS internal shuttle bus was just right behind me..

anyways.. as i was really pretty frightened.. i rode slowly for the rest of the journey to my tutee's new house in toa payoh.. (also because i dunno the road and need to constantly look our for where to turn.. i managed to follow most of the directions given by streetdirectory.com.sg... but at the last part.. i used my own cleverness and tried another road.. only to not being able to find the place at all!! the rain stopped and i was 1 hour late...!

took another wrong turn when coming back ending up on PIE towards changi airport (where i wanna go jurong..) but managed to find the way to CTE (towards city) and linked to AYE (jurong) finally.. anyways.. i was much faster in coming back as i travelled at 80kmh almost all the time.. (while i mostly travelled at 50kmh when i was headin there..)

anyways.. i was damn hungry when i came back and swallowed my dinner in 10 mins.. never did eat so fast in my life..

helped max with his model by cutting the wooden strips.. but i dun think i was of much help because he have to spend time toking to me while we cut and its definately slower than cutting it himself.. hehe. anyways.. not sure if we're still taking another same module together.. but if we are i wanna take one with tutorial class.. cause we skipped all the lectures and now there's no more lectures.. i haven enjoyed the feeling of studying together!!!! anyways.. tonnes of stuff to complete

1. my long overdue for damn long lab reports..
2. my essay's deadline is this friday!!!
3. proposal for the youth day 3-on-3 basketball match.. due on saturday!!!
4. my many many webcast that i have yet to watch any!!!!
5. plan my redang trip!
6. OAC overseas trip!!!!
7. time to find a part time now!!!
8. JAP oral test in 2 weeks..!!
9. QET oral pres in 6 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10.
11.
12.
too much to list... just do it... lah!

its seem like years past since i last posted...

but in actual fact only barely 20 days have passed by...

why does time goes by soooo slowly...???

i wish its may now...

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maybe its because i didn't blog for too long.. seem hard to start writing bout my life here again.. ppl dun even understand what the hell i'm trying to say!!

anyways.. exams are in less than 1 mth.. many things are passing thru my mind now..

leave of absence for a year?
application to transfer to some US college?
staying hall for another year?
too much stuff... not forgetting the fact that youth day is coming and ulu pandan YEC have some big event lining up...

SIAN.. somebody save me!!!!!!!!!!

sometimes i wonders..

what are the factors that creat happiness..? is it satisfactory?? is it friends?? is it grades?? or is it finding the right person in life..

sometimes i wonders if i'm satisfied with my life..
sometimes i wonders if i put in enough effort for my friends..
sometimes i wonders how i can make up for the lagging studies..
sometimes i wonders how to make myself stay away more from you..

most of the time i'm trying not to fall more for you..

what am i doing?!

maybe it wasn't the commitments...

maybe it was me all along..

hmm... i think we need more space......