when nobody understands.. at least you does..
i want someone like that..

or maybe.. i'm just being plain childish and insensitive...

Alright. this is a bit late.. but..

Last monday 23rd Jan 2006.. i finally passed my motorbike TP..!! yeahhhh.. tried 2 times den pass.. although that was the most case for my friends.. hehe.. heng i pass. no money to do the 3rd try already..

anyway.. i did my photocard license and go it on this last sat! (CNY eve.. hehe. some kinda angbao..)




Nothing much here.. just that i went to the sci club room last wed for some scamp seniors interview and i saw this 2 bears.. they're so big and so cute..!!! and i love "me to you" bears!!! so here's the photo of me with them.. hehehehehehe..

Stacy, you're looking for a Frisky Fling

You're ready for an adventurous, free-spirited affair to remember. And if it comes in the form of someone who shakes up your world a bit, helps you expand your horizons, then decides to stay for awhile — all the better.

It's not that you don't want a serious relationship. It's just that you might rather get there with someone who's equally committed to having fun for now. Ever wanted to drive up the coast or across your town in a red convertible? Interested in staying at a restaurant so late the chef himself joins you at the table for a late night cappuccino? Or are you really more into a no-strings-attached companion?
For some people, a good fling starts with someone you can spend the whole day in bed with — whether you're under the covers or playing cards in your PJs. But for others a fling is just a light-hearted approach to finding a different way to spend quality time with someone new.

Damn.. am i really such a flirt?

got some pictures to upload.. but forgot to bring my blue tooth or memorysticks back home..
so just gotta wait..

i haven been updating ppl not in my hall regrading most things.. i guess its time i bring him here into the virtual world of my life.

3 weeks into school start. most things have stablised. with the increasing amount of work for school and for hall.. it seem like a real bad timing to be getting attached.. and yet i did..

been recently wondering why did i decided to give up my lovely singlehood for endless frustrating thoughts and worries.. i hasn't got the reason yet.. but been wondering bout this r/s..

for a start.. we're too alike in someways. although i know he'll react this way. yet i'm expecting something more. and i know maybe i should have mention some stuff to him. but putting myself in his situation.. i'll be pissed too..

i'm complaining over here. and it'll be boring.. u can click the escapesss on top and leave this page now.. hehe.. i'm just bored at home and dun wanna type my reports.. hehe.. moreover.. i haven been updating and i should just type something. to record my own feelings also mah..

anyways.. somethings are hard to say.
sometimes i'll think of him frequently. sometimes i wun think of him at all.. even joyful things i'll choose not to tell him first.. this make me feel very weird. nothing like that has ever happened before leh..

he went to bintan with his parents this morning. he told me he'll be setting off at 8am. as his gf.. i should have wake up at 7:30 or something to wish he "yi lu shun feng".. as my bf i expect him to at least sent me another msg before he board the boat.. isn't that the right way?? well.. i didnt wake up that early. and neither did he msg me.. that's a very very bad similarity. we're both so damn bo chap!! dunno is good or bad.. we dump ppl for the same reason - over possessive... but that might be the biggest obstruction for our development.. cause none of us really care much bout each other. (not sure bout him.. but i know i dun care much..)

i switch our 1st month dinner to the next day so i can eat dinner with scamp ppl.. (den now they cancel the dinner. den i dunno whether to ask him if he wants to change back.. like very not sincere like that..)
i ask him out for lunch den pang seh so that i can have lunch with my sec school friends.. and when he tell me he's having lunch alone i said: "so pitiful.. but u use to eat alone also mah.." what kinda shitty gf i am arh? i think i forgot how to be a good gf already. i forgot how alike we are and how i'll feel if treated this way.. although this can be said as i dun zhong se qing you.. but its less than 1 month!!!

sometimes i feel as if i'm treating him the way max treats linda sometimes.. over-insensitive.. but situation is not as bad because he's not as sensitive as linda..

had a good talk with him last sunday.. was complaining that i dun feel in love at all. [i talked to zhen bout this and she was like.. "u all are not behaving like couples!! u all are behaving like married for 10 years!!"] i agree with her totally.. we're living lifes so routinely that it felt as if nothing much changed just that he's appearing more often in front of my door and there's an addition of some itimacy..

i dunno if i'm still not used to "he's my bf" or too used to his bo chap-ness.. i feel weird when he become a bit more romantic.. for a instance.. my first reaction to him calling me dear (over msn somemore) is "are u max?" followed by "why u call me dear?!" (yes with the exclaimation mark).. when he answered "for fun lo" i felt better...... *frown* normally i'll smile to myself and feel damn blissful.

we went for our first movie (us only movie) last thurs. dunno if he kept the tickets.. i want it back!! anyway. those who haven watch HOU YUAN JIA go and catch it soon!!! its very nice!!! i'll give 4/5 stars..

Happy CNY to All!!!

i'm finally more back to blogging..

will be uploading pics soon.. hehe..

lesser than 1 month into the year and i've already gotten 2 outta 6 wishes on my wishlist..!! ain't i lucky?? hehe..

panda's surprise visit..

weird feeling today..
but. definately feeling blissful..