Sunday, January 28, 2007

Today is pamper myself day!

okie lah.. it was all a plot to make zhen come out so i can steal her bf's number! hahaha.. and i did it!! right in the early part of the day.. hahahaha

we went to mayim at bb for our brunch.. it seems a bit different from last time.. not as nice le. =( den we went to je to get her contact lense.. (my chance! and i grab it.. stole the number successfully!)

den we went to tiong bahru in hope to get our manicure and pedicure done.. but the shop seems so squeezy and crowded.. we changed our mind and decided to go to the amara branch instead... after travelling and getting lost and walking alot of distance.. and sitting for 2 hours... we finally get it done!! below are my new nails!! hehehe

my pink fingernails and pinker toenails


we're suppose to go suntec for shopping.. and wanted to take a cab.. but.. cause there's no cab... we decided to save money and take MRT instead.. which is good cause i'm very broke.... hahaha.. we safely arrived at suntec.. but that girl is hungry again!! so we went hunting for food and end up at pasta mania.. she treat me dinner.. =) we sat there talking for quite a long time even after we finshed our food.. and den we went shopping.. the first and last shop we went is NOVO! i really like their shoes and they're having this sale now!! so i have 2 victory pieces...
this one is only $9.90 and it goes perfectly well with my new toenails!! its 9cm high

the pair costs only $19.90 and its very comfortable!! and the base is the same colour as my fingernails.. its 7cm high
hahahaa.. i'm just all crazy over pink again!! I LOVE PINK! and i'm damn happy after shopping trips.. lOlx.. spend money = happy!

Saturday, January 27, 2007

I had a very slack day today.. slept a flat 12 hours from 8pm last night to this morning 8am loh.. and i watched one litre of tears till 2+ without realising..!
and i was soooo hungry.. but me and max slack till 3+ before we left hall for lunch or rather DUNCH/LINNER...

crystal jade really look delicious. but my useless boyfriend got no money.. so we end up eating food court.. but it was quite nice so nvm.. den we went to tcc hehee..
and took alot of photo like below..

acting stupid at tcc with our drinks and food

After Holland V. we went to watch XQRJ @ UCC... our team.. hai.. i shall not elaborate... anyways.. i took picture with my soon to publicise-dance-partner-to-be weiliang! hehehe..

i'm lazy and i dun feel like blogging
i'm hungry and i dun feel like blogging..
i'm sleeping and i dun feel like blogging..

i have 101 reasons to why i didn't blog.. hahahaha

Friday, January 26, 2007

max thinks that i'm very careless with my keys (bike key + transponder) and bought a key holder for me.. and it kinda look very key chua.. lOlx. (KEY holder feels like KEY chua.. =P.. cause its a froggy!!!)

anyways it was sweet of him.. =D cause he use the time i took to go toilet to hang up the key holder.. hahaha.. he's finally becoming more romantic... =)

i'm very happy..!


my new cute key holder.. =)

Thursday, January 25, 2007

专属天使
我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
我才看见 它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在 我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在 我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在 我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

i think this song is very the nice loh! its from the ending theme song of hana kimi (花样少年少女)
its by tank if you think of looking for it..
i just realise.. i think this is the month that i've clocked the MOST post in my life.. accounts for almost 20% of all the post i had for like the past 3+ years.......
NO MORE P-PLATE!!!!

i officially enter into qualified rider's club! woohoo~~

my p-plate life finally ended yesterday..
currently have a new fetish of sitting on my pillion seat while riding... i think i would really like to get a sports bike as my next bike.. especially if i can 2A license...

TODAY = TIRED DAY
i had a very busy day today!!
12AM (no you did not see wrongly)
wake up from my 4 hr nap.
12AM - 2AM talk cock sing song blog
2AM - 3:30AM talk cock with key, jialin & max.
3:30AM - 7:30AM type lab report....!!!!
7:30AM - 9:30AM Sleep
9:30AM - 10:00AM wash up + eat breakfast
10:00AM - 12PM BORING lecture..
12PM - 6PM FRUSTRATING lab........
6PM - 7PM travelling to tutee house
7PM - 9:30PM tuition
9:30PM - 10PM travel back to hall
10PM - 10:30PM eat dinner
10:30PM - 11:30PM PAB Briefing.. PAB deadline is 12 FEB!! WTH
11:30PM - 12:30AM Singing lessons with maryanne
12:30AM - now check mail blog..

i'm soooo tired now..................

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

today was a normal day..

but special feelings were felt. contradiction were ironed out.

lab reports are typed and going to be handed in.

friendship are reborn, relationships rebuilt.. things seem to be settling down for the sem..

Monday, January 22, 2007

i suddenly realise alot of my hair are turning gold! that's the first sight of decolouration!!!!

arghhhh.. soon i will have a new batch of white hair!!!!!!! HELPPPPP~~~

i must have been using my brains too much.. *cry*
Its been a while since i found something that describes me sooooo well.. particularly towards the brain wasting problem that i'm experiencing now..


Gemini, the sign of the Twins, is dual-natured, elusive, complex and contradictory. On the one hand it produces the virtue of versatility, and on the other the vices of two-facedness and flightiness. The sign is linked with Mercury, the planet of childhood and youth, and its subjects tend to have the graces and faults of the young. When they are good, they are very attractive; when they are bad they are more the worse for being the charmers they are. Like children they are lively, and happy, if circumstances are right for them, or egocentric, imaginative and restless. They take up new activities enthusiastically but lack application, constantly needing new interests, flitting from project to project as apparently purposelessly as a butterfly dancing from flower to flower. To them life is a game which must always be full of fresh moves and continuous entertainment, free of labor and routine. Changing horses in the middle of the stream is another small quirk in the Gemini personality which makes decision making, and sticking to a decision, particularly hard for them.
Since they lack the quality of conscientiousness, they are apt to fight a losing battle in any attempts they make to be moral (in the widest sense of the word). Their good qualities are attractive and come easily to them. They are affectionate, courteous, kind, generous, and thoughtful towards the poor and suffering - provided none of the activities resulting from expressing these traits interferes too greatly with their own lives and comforts. They quickly learn to use their outward attractiveness to gain their own ends, and when striving for these they will use any weapon in their armory - unscrupulous lying, and cunning evasiveness; escaping blame by contriving to put it on other people, wrapped up in all the charm they can turn on. In their better moments they may strive to be honest and straightforward, but self-interest is almost always the victor. If things go against them, they sulk like children. Also like children, they demand attention, admiration, and the spending on them of time, energy and money, throwing tantrums if they don't get what they want. They reflect every change in their surroundings, like chameleons, and can become pessimistic, sullen, peevish and materialistically self-centered if circumstances force them to struggle in any way. If the conditions of life become really adverse, their strength of will may desert them entirely. They can become uncertain of themselves, either withdrawn, or nervously excitable worriers, sullenly discontented, hard and irritable, with "Self" looming ever larger in their struggles. On the other hand their versatility can make them very adaptable, adjusting themselves to control the world around them by means of their inherent ingenuity and cleverness.

Most Gemini have a keen, intuitive, sometimes brilliant intelligence and they love cerebral challenges. But their concentration, though intense for a while, does not last. Their mental agility and energy give them a voracious appetite for knowledge from youth onward, though they dislike the labor of learning. They easily grasp almost everything requiring intelligence and mental dexterity, and are often able to marry manual skills to their qualities of mind. Their intellect is strongly analytical and sometimes gives them so great an ability to see both sides of a question that they vacillate and find it hard to make decisions. But their intelligence may very well be used to control and unify the duality of their natures into a most efficient unit. If faced with difficulties, they have little determination to worry at a problem until they find a solution - they will pick the brains of others. In their intellectual pursuits, as in other departments of their lives, they risk becoming dilettantes, losing themselves in too many projects which they follow until they become difficult.

In love they are fickle, not intentionally so but because of the basic inconsistency of their emotional nature, which has an amoral aspect to it. Their is a side to Geminians which can become deeply involved emotionally, and another, hostile to sentimentality, which stands back from a romantic situation, laughing at it and the protagonists in it, including themselves while analyzing it intellectually. Gemini subjects take nothing seriously. So, in love, in spite of their temporary depth of feeling, for the intensity of involvement lasts only while it is new, they are superficial, light-hearted, cool, flirtatious and unimaginative in the understanding of the pain they may give others. They like intrigue, the excitement of the chase, but once they have caught the prey, they lose interest and look around for the next creature to pursue. In less serious situations they make witty, entertaining companions, good acquaintances rather than friends. Even at their worst they are never dull - there is usually playfulness below the surface, and they can be brilliant conversationalists - but they can also be quarrelsome, prattlers, boasters, liars and cheats.
Geminians can be successful in many walks of life though their general characteristics tend to make them unreliable. They are often skilled manipulators of language, in speech and writing, and may be: debaters, diplomats (though in politics they are more interested in theory than practice), orators, preachers (brilliant rather than profound), teachers, authors, poets, journalists, or lawyers. In business any work which combines quick-wittedness with a change of surroundings suits them; working as a traveling salesperson, brokerage work, or dealing with the public in any capacity is right up their alley. Because they are dispassionate, logical, rational and analytical they make good scientists, especially in the fields of medicine and astronomy. They can also make excellent members of the Armed Forces, for they take danger no more seriously than anything else and can earn themselves a reputation for devotion to duty and heroic acts. In the arts they may excel in music, painting and sculpture. They make good psychic researchers of a sceptical kind. Negatively they can degenerate into confidence tricksters, thieves and even adepts in the black arts.

SOME COMMON PROBLEMS ASSOCIATED WITH GEMINI

As with all sun signs, we all have unique traits to our personalities. When these traits are suppressed, or unrealized, problems will arise. However, with astrology we can examine the problem and assess the proper solution based on the sun sign characteristics. As a Gemini you may see things below that really strike home. Try the solution, you most likely will be amazed at the results. If you find yourself on the receiving end of the negatives below, it is because you are failing to express the positive.

PROBLEM: Being superficial could be a big problem for you in your overall relationships with others and also in getting ahead on many jobs where you must endeavor to dig deep and learn something thoroughly. This is the worst Gemini trait of all.

SOLUTION: To make a conscious effort to control this trait is the best approach to take to this problem. If you make a commitment to something or someone you should mentally force yourself to keep that commitment where possible. This will be hard but it can, and has been, accomplished by many under this sign.

PROBLEM: Not one who cares for peace and quiet, you create your own problems with loved ones by picking arguments or tale carrying from one to the other then stand back and enjoy the show.
SOLUTION: While this may relieve your boredom, it is something that you should not let happen as it could easily go out of control and cost you the love and companionship that you desire. When you feel like doing this it would be better to take a long walk and let the feelings pass.

PROBLEM: Boredom is one of your biggest problems and you could easily fall into mischief if you do not find ways to alleviate it.
SOLUTION: You have a great many creative talents and if you put these to work for you in some sort of hobby or project you will find you do not have time to be bored, also, other physical activities should be considered: workouts at the gym, racketball, hiking, etc..

PROBLEM: You could have health problems brought on by overindulgence of food, drink, or the night life which only gets worse as you age.
SOLUTION: Tame your urges and save the party times for weekends only and then try not to overdo it. By keeping everything down to a mild roar you may not have to fight off diseases such as obesity or cirrhosis of the liver.

PROBLEM: You may have the problem of not being able to keep a spouse or a lover due to your pursuit of the opposite sex.
SOLUTION: Cultivate the habit of not flirting with every attractive person you see and make up your mind to be a true and loving spouse, or don't commit until you are really ready to do this.
my life is in a mess
my studies is in a mess
my mind is in a mess
and my room is in a ULTRA mess

i'm gonna clear everything up tml.

linda's right. i dun deserve to be sympathized. i deserve to be scolded!

Sunday, January 21, 2007

i was really upset yesterday.
i ate all the things i shouldn't be eating. AS IF food will make me happy.
i ate chocolate ice cream for lunch and doritos for supper.

so i'm not going to get anywhere near better. new symtoms of getting worse are phlem and periodic headaches.. the flu bug just decided to be a parasite on me.. but it could be because my immunisation system's down due to the among of stress and fatigue i'm experiencing.
nothing was good for me this few days. i simply have too much stuff to do.

i requested for a time-out for 1 week, but it seems to have fallen on deaf ears again.

my poor phone. it dropped out of my adidas jacket's pocket while i'm riding on the RIGHT lane on upper bt timah road. it was so dangerous even though i immediately stopped my bike and ran back to find it.. it laid in the middle of the left and centre lane.. (near lane lines) and just as i was about to retrieve it, the traffic light turned green releasing a rush of vehicles.. i was so worried as each vehicle mercilessly drove towards my phone and miss it. *cry* finally. There's a bunch of foreign works at the bus stop, during a short empty interval of 2 seconds, one of them dashed across the road and picked up my phone for me. i am so touched!!! my precious W800i was saved from the wheels of the cars.. i couldn't help thanking them many times and tried on-ing my poor phone. IT'S A MIRACLE! it seems to be prefectly fine except for a crack along the cover. the joystick works fine, the camera works fine, everything is prefectly okie! i'm so relief.. cause i dun have the money to change phone now loh.. + there's no phones which i really like available in the market yet..

i'm really BROKE with only 15cents in my wallet. *cry* and the new week is starting! i have yet to do any revisions.. this SUX!

Saturday, January 20, 2007

I AM VERY UNHAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i'm going to bury myself in work the WHOLE weekend.

i hate guys!

Friday, January 19, 2007

when they say "zhi bao bu zhu huo" i guess it always has a good reasoning behind it.
dun ask me why i did that. cause i dunno.
i still want to ask him why pretend he dunno anything?
what work so hard to maintain something that's dead from within.
maybe its good that he knows. i guess. maybe he can make some impt decisions bah.
today sux.
lecture sux.
work and travel sux.
dinner sux.
my voice sux.
everything sux.
SUCK SUCK SUCK!!!

Thursday, January 18, 2007

i'm too free.. that's why i have time to blog. hahaha

anyways. today was a happy day.. cause i run into aini, onnray and beng in engine canteen during lunch!! i'm so happy to be seeing them because its been so long since i last chat with them ( i think it was ginny's bday party in nov 2006)

suddenly i missed chem a bit, cause i would have their company during lecture and tutorials and labs. but i'm glad now i'm in life science, because i am really much more interested in school now! and i still have lionel and felix. so haha its okie. =)

i chatted with them in science (where seow hwee is also) before they (except aini) left for lecture. we den proceed to science lib for a study session. felix came and we discussed our lab report format and stuff.. well school really started, so hope my mugging genes will wake up so that i can work hard this sem too!

i had a small surprise in the afternoon which brightened up my day and i would like to express my gratefulness, cause it seems to make my nose much betterin the afternoon compared to the morning (or it could just be those antibiotics).

i need to type my meeting minutes now and compute the DNA electrophoresis results (so i really did spell wrongly this is the correct one).

and its pouring now so no sun for me =(. i dun like the rain..

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

i'm soooo sick!!
this is getting no where! YIH doctors really sucks sia... eating the medicines they gave have like absolutely no improvement. and i've already been eating all light stuff, like soupy noodles and porridge. still, my conditions doesn't improve!! maybe its due to not enough rest? but i have been sleeping like a pig already!! (well actually, i did not) hahaha

went for the first rehearsal for productions after like damn long lah.. sing till my throat feels worse (maybe that's part of the reason why i didn't get better)

everybody! save ur 24th FEB 2007 (Saturday) 7:30pm onwards free for me!!!! and first and probably the last time you see me on stage performing.. hahahaha.. yeah! must come and support!!

lab today was quite alright, but i can't really imagine next time, because we were all so tired when we came back from lunch.. almost sleeping through my TA's discussion session. we did the same old DNA gel electrophorosis (i think there's spelling errors, but heck!). and it's the same old headache, but amplified, we must do a plasmid map!! aiyo.. (slaps forehead) somebody give me a break.. i just hate doing lab stuff and lab reports. hahaha. + my nose is dying..~~ (that's really not much link though)

haven get kj and yw's presents for their bday party this sunday. going to get with hup tml evening. argh. school just started and i'm all so occupied, i can't believe what will happen next week when all the tutorials sets in!

its so sunny today, i can't believe i'm not enjoying all this sun in a tanning session at sentosa or something. *sobs*

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

my throat is screaming at me the whole day!!

WHY?
i've been a good girl. i ate my lozenges, i ate my antibiotics. so can the germies all just die and go away? (what a thing to say from a life sciences student..) the sore throat virus just went to my nose too!! arghh.. i'm falling sick!

every tuesday and friday is killing me. lessons from 8am all the way to 6pm with only 1 break from 10am-12pm. (i haven tried the real wednesday but i guess it will kill me too.. 10am - 6pm NON stop!) + tuition straight after that.

and did i say i hate the 2102 lecturer.. hai. she sux to the core lah....~~~~~ i wanna complain!!!

Monday, January 15, 2007

its sunny and its raining. how ironic? it feels just like what i'm feeling now..

Friday, January 12, 2007


i wanted to show you all my newly decorated room for the sem~ =)
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Thursday, January 11, 2007

there's a lot of decisions to be made in life.
sometimes cruel as it may seem, you have to go against your will and make the right decisions.
good and bad are just a line apart. and you never know if you're being good or bad.

not making decision will only show the selfish side of urself and hurt others.

but once a decision is made, you will have to be responsible for it. even if it means breaking promises and hearts.

i shall be responsible for my own decision, because this time no one else make the decision for me. i made it myself.

i guess time will heal all wounds, but who knows bout those ugly scars??

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

i'm always bad at making decisions.
i can't decide where to go. i can't decide what movies to watch. i can't decide what to eat..
this time. i can't even decide who i like more.

and someone else made the decision for me. it might not be what i want. but i couldn't do better than that too. and i accepted it. i think i'm hopeless. i feel so useless.. i can't do anything but to accept his decision for me. because i can't be hurting anyone more by making them wait. its me. my wobbly nature. my unstable mindset. i think i suck as a human. to a point such that i hate myself.

the cold wind blew on my face body and feet as i was making my way back from tuition in braddell. it didn't make me felt clearer. i simply felt left alone in this real world which is so cold. why couldn't i make the decision?! i should have done it much earlier. that would have prevented all the hurting and heartbreaking.

i have a free day to think bout things tml..
i make a LOUSY lier

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

at that moment when i saw his face...

i felt tore apart.

i felt deeply guilty.

i've never felt so stressed in my life.

i'm sorry to those i've hurt. i'm really sorry.

today is the 1st day of school...

time went up very quickly.. before i knew it.. classes ended. i've breeze through 1 day.. thinking about perhaps somethings but not those taught.. hahaha.. sounds kinda funny..

we had a silent dinner. well.. it wasn't exactly silent.. he was talking to luke i was talking to luther. but we didn't converse.. i went back to sleep leaving him alone in the dining hall.
he came back pulling me out of my comfortable bed. he asked me a lot of things. and i finally confessed. so. i'm in love with someone else. and that was it. he did something that shocked me to tears. i was tore apart. i couldn't stop loving both of them. what should i do.....

i'm so unfaithful...

Monday, January 08, 2007

1st day of sem 2 06/07.
checked-in so that i can move back to my room.
its sort of a relief now i'm out of c414.. if not TY will be chasing my back asking me to clean up the room..
hahahaha..

my mind's in a mess.. not really ready to welcome the new sem..
not really ready to do alot of stuff...

hmm... i guess i'm going to sleep now.. 8am class tml!!