Wednesday, October 31, 2007

think this song is damn nice!!!!!
私は大好きです!!
utada hikaru rocks lah!!
so does 花より男子 レテンーズ( hana yori dango II


Flavor of Life by 宇多田 光

ありがとうと 君(きみ)に言われると なんだか切ない
さようならの 後(あと)も解(とう)けぬ魔法(まほう)淡(あわ)くほろ苦(にが)い
The flavor of life...... The flavor of life......

友達でも恋人でも ない中間地点で
収穫の時を夢見てる
青いフルーツ あと一歩が踏み出せない
せいでじれったいの何のってBaby
ありがとうと 君に言われると
なんだか切ない
さようならの 後も解けぬ魔法淡くほろ苦い
The flavor of life...... The flavor of life......

甘いだけの誘い文句 味気のないTalk
そんなものには興味を そそられない
思い通りにいかない時だって
人生捨てたもんじゃないって
「どうしたの?」と 急に聞かれると「ううん、何でもない」
さようならの 後に消える笑顔 私らしくない
信じたいと 願えば願うほど なんだか切ない
「愛してるよ」よりも「大好き」の方が 君らしいんじゃない
The flavor of life…

忘れかけてた人の香りを 突然思い出す頃
降り積もる雪の白さをもっと
素直に喜(よろこ)びたいよ ダイヤモンドより軟らかくて
温かな未来(みらい) 手にしたいよ限りある時間を 君と過ごしたい
ありがとうと 君に言われると なんだか切ない
さようならの(後)あとも解(とう)けぬ魔法淡くほろ苦い
The flavor of life......The flavor of life...

Translation of the song..
When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’tget undone even after the good bye.
the faintly burning pain.
The flavor of life

Neither friends nor lovers,
in uncertain terms
like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
because of being unable to just move one more step forward
It’s just so frustrating

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t get undone even after the good bye.
the faintly burning pain.
The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
i have no interest in them even when things do not go the way I want them
you make me believe that there is still something in life
When asked ‘ whats wrong?’
I answer ‘its nothing’
The smile that disappears after goodbye
I’m not like myself anymore
The more i wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more
‘i like you’ instead of ‘i love you’ is more like the person I knew
the flavor of life

I wish I could cherish the white color of the falling snow like I used to
by the time I would remember the scent of the person I’ve nearly forgotten
A future tender and warmer than a diamond
i want to grasp it,
in this limited time we have,
i want to live it with you
when you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesnt get undone even after the good bye.
the faintly burning pain.
The flavor of life

Friday, October 26, 2007

i dun understand why it hurts sooooo much..
my heart ached every second when i was in main tv lounge.. watching xinyao's performance.. everything seem so familiar.. just that the ppl singing are different.. and my status is different..

it hurts more when all he tells me in that cold voice is that he's damn busy.. yah.. i just want to settle everything faster so that i can forget about it.. forget about all those happy times or sad times.. forget about him.. so that it will stop hurting me so badly..

i know that there's no turning back now that its almost 2 weeks.. but its still a bit too hard for me to accept.. and everyone's telling me.. hey stace that's what you wanted.. you wanted to break up..

well.. now i dunno.. i just wanted to take a break from that relationship.. live my life freely for a while.. so now i'm suppose to "enjoy" singlehood (like forever).. but i aren't enjoying any single second of it.. damn. i'm walk around looking really pathetic and dead and i can't even find the exact reason to it.. i'm so angry with myself.. i'm so angry with that half-fuck no clear explanation breakup.. damn.. really dread life now.. feel like some resident evil zombie walking around on campus..

what's hurting me so badly is that he tried to be good friend with me as if the last 2 years didn't happen.. like it was all a dream.. such a bad dream.. what a bad dream.. so what now.. am i also suppose to act as if the dream is over? and we're back in "reality".. that 2 year didn't exist.. that we did not wasted that 2 years on each other..

i dunno. i'm just damn sore over the whole thing.. maybe its sort of my fault that i didn't exactly handle this breakup in the best way... arghh.. i dunno lah.. just think that life totally sucks..!!!!!!

i want to scream!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

what is done is done..

just accept it.

i hope i'll accept it..

Monday, October 15, 2007

Stacy wants the CAT to come back...

pretty girl.. where did you wonder to??
missing you badly..

Saturday, October 06, 2007



catch up with long time no see buddy.. - jianwen..




didn't request to take a photo with him cause he didn't like to take photos..
but i think i have 1 of his photos somewhere in the posts.. hehehe
anyways.. we went to this jap cuisine shop at marina square.. eeto. i forgot the name..
think its waraku or something.. oPpS!!! memory failing totally..
i had this hokkai nabe (ryoori).. its quite nice~~ and jian wen's katsu curry rice looked damn nice also~

after the filling dinner (well. for him not me.. hahah) we walked to boat quay.. jazz@south bridge road for this performance by some jap trumpetist(?).. its a very nice place and because we were early.. we managed to get quite a good seat.. =) i like sitting at the bar.. so i had a margarita and he had a erdinger white. maybe i was too thirsty or the strawberry margarita taste tooo nice.. i finished my drink in no time! hahaha..






so i order a blue lagoon (i think) and its quite nice too! jian wen recommended this cajun angel (fries with this prawn.. DAMN NICE PRAWN) and hungry stacy finished everything!
hahaha.. we left to catch the last train home and after riding for 1.5 years.. i totally dun remember how to go to raffles MRT station... hahaha. and i ho lan in the MRT station itself.. *faints* i need to take more public transport sia!!