i was sleeping at home when yiting suddenly called me and ask me to arrive 0.5 hour earlier at sentosa. i immediately dress up and went out but by the time i reach vivo it was already 5:30. and i ask the counter staff and she told me my bike can go in! which is WRONG. cause when i tried to go in the gateway staff told me i cannot go in!! *faint* and i realised that i didn't bring my wallet out! so i can forget about wanting to renew my islander card and all.. and i have to trouble the i/c to get me a free ticket.i finally reached sentosa at 6:05pm.. after all the hassle.~~ *phew*first time being at cafe del mar.. it looks quite nice.. and really has a lot of staff.. i carried the new sony k810i and was instantly in love with it! i took quite a number of pictures with the phone.. you can see them at http://www.screammypaper.blogspot.com/.. those with the longer blogger post is i blog one..haha.. there's MTV vj may and choy.. they were sitting in front of the stage before the event started and i was like thinking.. how come there can be such pretty ladies in the world.. haha.. they were really stuning!oh.. and i met jc schoolmate marcus. he really does look different.. and i realise i dun recognise most of my batch SA saints.. just like how i didn't have any impression of marvin from recruit express JE.they have quite a number of celebraties.. like ah hsin from F.I.R and Superman Gary.. they sing pretty nice.. i wanted to catch a photo of ah hsin but when i finally finish my stuff he finish his last song and i only caught his back view running off the stage. but i took photos of gary though. hehehethe day finally ended at 10:30pm.. and we took a cab out of sentosa.
oh P.S. happy 17th monthsary
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
I'm having my first driving lesson today!! excited. but its mostly theory and admin stuff and i only get to drive the car for less than 1 min. but i can see that its hard drving. there's so many buttons and rules!!
after driving i went home to do tutorial.. but it was difficult..! mostly short answers and i spend quite a while doing it. and i have to go hand it in.. plus i have to pass slippers to zhen.. so in the end, i was late for the KTV date with bc.. and he was mad lah! =(
anyways.. we had quite a fun time at k box JEC..
the lighting was BAD BAD BAD.. plus it was taken with my phone.. so bear with the lousy graphics..
hohoho.. he must be singing some kind of love song! ^_^
after singing, i met zhen to go for meijing's bday party.. but.. we're both so tired and sianz.. after entering the MRT station.. we both dun feel like going! hahaha.. *lazy bums* so we decided to paiseh! hahaha.. we're MEAN..
so in the end i went back to find bc to have dinner with me.. lOlx. and dumb my bike at the carpark while he walks me home cause i was suppose to be REALLY tired... (which is true..)
but as tml is a holiday, so kj's out of camp.. and yiwei came back (that fat ass!) and kj ask me if i want to go party.. and i was like.. i want to go zouk!!!!! okies. so we went to zouk.. but boy.. it was a WRONG move.. cause all the party animals and non-party animals are out!! my my... should have taken a photo of the crowd at zouk and dbl O.. i think singaporean's are desperate to party sia!! the zouk queue is at least 200m long!! how scary can that be sia..
in the end we went to some small pub and drink beer.. lOlx. we played 5/10 and that kj keep winning so i kept having to drink lah!! and we play blackjack but everyone keeps getting 21! *faint* anyways all of us were pretty drunk and we went to yiwei's house to rest.
after driving i went home to do tutorial.. but it was difficult..! mostly short answers and i spend quite a while doing it. and i have to go hand it in.. plus i have to pass slippers to zhen.. so in the end, i was late for the KTV date with bc.. and he was mad lah! =(
anyways.. we had quite a fun time at k box JEC..
the lighting was BAD BAD BAD.. plus it was taken with my phone.. so bear with the lousy graphics..
hohoho.. he must be singing some kind of love song! ^_^
after singing, i met zhen to go for meijing's bday party.. but.. we're both so tired and sianz.. after entering the MRT station.. we both dun feel like going! hahaha.. *lazy bums* so we decided to paiseh! hahaha.. we're MEAN..
so in the end i went back to find bc to have dinner with me.. lOlx. and dumb my bike at the carpark while he walks me home cause i was suppose to be REALLY tired... (which is true..)
but as tml is a holiday, so kj's out of camp.. and yiwei came back (that fat ass!) and kj ask me if i want to go party.. and i was like.. i want to go zouk!!!!! okies. so we went to zouk.. but boy.. it was a WRONG move.. cause all the party animals and non-party animals are out!! my my... should have taken a photo of the crowd at zouk and dbl O.. i think singaporean's are desperate to party sia!! the zouk queue is at least 200m long!! how scary can that be sia..
in the end we went to some small pub and drink beer.. lOlx. we played 5/10 and that kj keep winning so i kept having to drink lah!! and we play blackjack but everyone keeps getting 21! *faint* anyways all of us were pretty drunk and we went to yiwei's house to rest.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
almost late for my practical. heng arh. well. the instructor saw that i only failed pylon so i was allowed to get my bike and start practising pylon the moment i arrived while the others have to under go the briefing. it was lucky because no one else is using pylon, so i get to practise as much as i want.. =D i think i did like at least 25 times of pylon. finally the instructor came and time me. yeah! i passed.. =D.. but seeing those 2B L-plates really make me misses the times when i was there. Went to get my PDL done after that and saw stef, she just passed her FTT. and mine's like on the 23rd of JULY... *faint* hope to get better dates.well.. nothing much besides going for work again.. yawnz.
Disclaimer: (all those from 21st may to 26th may is blogged on 26th may itself..)
Disclaimer: (all those from 21st may to 26th may is blogged on 26th may itself..)
Friday, May 25, 2007
started on my first 2A practical. woo.. it was HARD. the bike is SOOO heavy and the engine is so hot.. and the pylon had so little time practise and still need to clear in 5 secs. and i kept hitting the neutral gear like nobody's business.. and i turn the throttle a bit the bike shoots of.. TOUGH. so in the end. i fail 1.01.. sobz.. i tot it'll be easy..but anyways, i passed my BTT.. yah! =D happy sia.. i quite nervous cause very scared i'll fail and i'll be so damn embrass..immediately book the next practical for 1.01 - Saturday 8am. YAWNS.. but the timing's good cause i can do my PDL after i finish with the prac.oh.. after i'm back home i sold my O2 atom to some guy @430.. it was really cheap sale lah.. all because anyone else is also selling the phone.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
So it turns out that the job was for AIG south east asia - IT department. time passed quickly as there's stuff to do. met up with bc after work.. wanted to go watch movie but there's no show that interest him (cause i promised DEXI to watch pirates with him...) so we went to eat and walked around instead. obviously we ordered too much food at NYDC.. (we wanted to ciao cause there's nothing interesting in the menu but i say the waiter that lead us to the seat is too cute to resist so we must stay.. hahaha!) anyways.. i looked through the photos from taiwan and there's this really hilarious photo! bc (height 1.81) sitting on a smaller scooter (think less than 50cm taller and probably only 50cc) its really a funny scene and i couldn't stop laughing.. totally mei you xin xiang. we strolled to far east after dinner cause we are both sooo full.. but we forgot bout my bike which is at martin road.. so in the end.. we have to go back to get the bike, i was sooo tired when walking towards the MRT station and almost fall asleep while walking lah.. finally, we gave up and took the train to clarke quay where i walked all the way to mohammed sultan road to get my bike. *phew* i was tiring.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KWANG HUP.. (my dearest "son")
almost late for tutorial.. well well, i was late, but i didn't know the tutorial was postponed to 9:30am haha. so end up being early.. =D.. our group totally forgotten about the presentation and cough one up right before our turn and sort of impressed the lecturer.. hahaha so funny.rushed to work after that *not late* time passes as slowly as always. dad called regarding doing a favour for his friend this a one day temp job for $60 on wed and i decided to go for it.
almost late for tutorial.. well well, i was late, but i didn't know the tutorial was postponed to 9:30am haha. so end up being early.. =D.. our group totally forgotten about the presentation and cough one up right before our turn and sort of impressed the lecturer.. hahaha so funny.rushed to work after that *not late* time passes as slowly as always. dad called regarding doing a favour for his friend this a one day temp job for $60 on wed and i decided to go for it.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Happy Birthday To ME
anyways.. i'm officially 21.
max played my old trick on me. appearing in my room right pass midnight with a cake and lighted candles.. but the only difference is that i'm half asleep when he appear.. (hahaha). My bday seem exceptionally plain.. went for lecture in the morning at science.. den went SDE for my other lecture. accidentally left my phone on the bench i think before i went into the lecture theatre. and went to search for it halfway through the lecture. guess it's my bday so lucky star shining on me.. and kind soul which pick up my phone returned it to the SDE Dean's Office. I'm so relieved to have my precious W800i back. This must be the BEST phone i've ever gotten.. better than any other phones in the market now loh.. (though i really wanted to get my hands on the N95) me and yue jer (project mate for SS module) escaped during the break in the middle of the lecture and went to library to work on our project all the way till 6pm.. I went home to change before heading off to my bday celebrations.. no fancy parties. just me zhen max mum and dad at AKASHI jap restaurant at paragon basement. (i really wanted to eat korean BBQ.. but mummy says no!!). Zhen bought me a sunflower.. ^^ Mum bought a GIANTATIC cake for me.. it reads 21 but in a REALLY HUGE manner. slightly before we cut the cake, my precious bimbos appeared (linda Seek Jas and Elaine!!! =D thanks to my dearest max for inviting them to give me a surprise. the 9 of us could barely finish half of the number 1. and we bought the whole no. 2 back.. and i had cake for 3 meals till thursday. well.. the cake tasted really nice.. so i'm not sick of it though i eat it everyday.. but the direct opposite goes for the cake that max bought. (i haven touch it and i think i wun be touching it.. its in the fridge since sun night!! and it's really big (500g) and he didn't help me eat one bit and its a four leaves cake.. (i really hate those 4 leaves display cake cause mum used to bring those cakes back every other day when she worked for 4 leaves..) Ironically, the HUGE 21 is also from 4 leaves.
We left the restaurant after taking lots of photos and with a very full tummy. what's really funny is that when we walked out of the paragon there's this batch of ppl sitting on the stairs and they suddenly start singing happy birthday.. -_- obviously it was directed at me.. *shake head* mum and dad took MRT back while me max and zhen took a cab back cause we can't all squeeze into the cab and there's the cake.
max played my old trick on me. appearing in my room right pass midnight with a cake and lighted candles.. but the only difference is that i'm half asleep when he appear.. (hahaha). My bday seem exceptionally plain.. went for lecture in the morning at science.. den went SDE for my other lecture. accidentally left my phone on the bench i think before i went into the lecture theatre. and went to search for it halfway through the lecture. guess it's my bday so lucky star shining on me.. and kind soul which pick up my phone returned it to the SDE Dean's Office. I'm so relieved to have my precious W800i back. This must be the BEST phone i've ever gotten.. better than any other phones in the market now loh.. (though i really wanted to get my hands on the N95) me and yue jer (project mate for SS module) escaped during the break in the middle of the lecture and went to library to work on our project all the way till 6pm.. I went home to change before heading off to my bday celebrations.. no fancy parties. just me zhen max mum and dad at AKASHI jap restaurant at paragon basement. (i really wanted to eat korean BBQ.. but mummy says no!!). Zhen bought me a sunflower.. ^^ Mum bought a GIANTATIC cake for me.. it reads 21 but in a REALLY HUGE manner. slightly before we cut the cake, my precious bimbos appeared (linda Seek Jas and Elaine!!! =D thanks to my dearest max for inviting them to give me a surprise. the 9 of us could barely finish half of the number 1. and we bought the whole no. 2 back.. and i had cake for 3 meals till thursday. well.. the cake tasted really nice.. so i'm not sick of it though i eat it everyday.. but the direct opposite goes for the cake that max bought. (i haven touch it and i think i wun be touching it.. its in the fridge since sun night!! and it's really big (500g) and he didn't help me eat one bit and its a four leaves cake.. (i really hate those 4 leaves display cake cause mum used to bring those cakes back every other day when she worked for 4 leaves..) Ironically, the HUGE 21 is also from 4 leaves.We left the restaurant after taking lots of photos and with a very full tummy. what's really funny is that when we walked out of the paragon there's this batch of ppl sitting on the stairs and they suddenly start singing happy birthday.. -_- obviously it was directed at me.. *shake head* mum and dad took MRT back while me max and zhen took a cab back cause we can't all squeeze into the cab and there's the cake.
i opened thew pressie that max bought. and it was a wireless keyboard and mouse set from microsoft (which i'm using now.. haha) after we squeeze the cake into the fridge after a lot of effort i left to meet bc at cck.
he's trying to be mysterious and used the phone to guide me to where he is.. and this is what he prepared!
Sunday, May 13, 2007
In view of the upcoming GST credits i will be posted to Jurong Green CC to answer enquires..
the shifts are not as per advice by the agency lahhhh~~ a bit cheated.. but i dun think they will extend to 15 june.. so doesn't matter.. i just work till 27 may den chao~~~~ have better stuff to do loh.. like my special sem projects and term papers...
yawn.. but come to think of it.. i totally HATES group work.. but both modules have group project, fortunately for SSD we write our own separate reports..
well.. actually i really dun feel like blogging.. hahaha.. chao!!
the shifts are not as per advice by the agency lahhhh~~ a bit cheated.. but i dun think they will extend to 15 june.. so doesn't matter.. i just work till 27 may den chao~~~~ have better stuff to do loh.. like my special sem projects and term papers...
yawn.. but come to think of it.. i totally HATES group work.. but both modules have group project, fortunately for SSD we write our own separate reports..
well.. actually i really dun feel like blogging.. hahaha.. chao!!
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Newest updates..
i'm doing special sem.. for sure..!
found a job as CPF ambassor for the upcoming project that works on rotating shifts from 12 - 9 or 2-9 6 days a week with one weekday off..
if i can get fixed off on mondays and 2-9 slots on tuesdays and thursday then i will be able to attend ALL my lectures and tutorials.. hooray!! but the pay's just market rate.. but the good thing about it is that it ends on 15 JUnE! with my SSD2210 module exam on 16 June which means i can find another normal working hour job immediately.. hehehe.. sounds good! =D but i calculated that the pay from this job would JUST be enough to cover my special sem.. means i will have no nett earnings.. sian.. so much for trying to pull up grades arh... -_-
i'm doing special sem.. for sure..!
found a job as CPF ambassor for the upcoming project that works on rotating shifts from 12 - 9 or 2-9 6 days a week with one weekday off..
if i can get fixed off on mondays and 2-9 slots on tuesdays and thursday then i will be able to attend ALL my lectures and tutorials.. hooray!! but the pay's just market rate.. but the good thing about it is that it ends on 15 JUnE! with my SSD2210 module exam on 16 June which means i can find another normal working hour job immediately.. hehehe.. sounds good! =D but i calculated that the pay from this job would JUST be enough to cover my special sem.. means i will have no nett earnings.. sian.. so much for trying to pull up grades arh... -_-
Monday, April 30, 2007
I feel kinda of hopeless now..
only at times like this i will start to blog..
cause i want to do every single possible thing besides studying..
2101 and 2102 coming up in less than 3 and 4 days.. i'm dead meat now.. cause i'm quite sure i wun be able to finish studying because i didn't study a bit during the weekends and instead wasted my time watching tv and playing games.
hols is coming in less than 5 days.. *yeah* and i have to move back to my dreaded home.. but heng i will be getting some help to clean up my house! yeah! and i secretly bought a new bed for mum and dad.. cause the old bed is not doing them good and dad complaint about back pain the other time he was back in sg.. dad's coming back on the 6th! i'm sure he will be happy to see our house CLEAN~~ =D
sidetrack a bit..
things appears to be good with him.. but deep inside i dun think we'll be able to withstand this long vacation.. with his absence for 1 month.. maybe i would have forgotten about him by the time he is back.. seriously.. i dun think i would mind if i can forget about him.. haha.. forget how he takes me for granted now that i'm back by his side.. forget about how i take him for granted cause of my plain laziness.. forget about how he never seem to keep his promises.. forget about how he always forgets the things i mentioned to him.. forget why nowadays i feel so empty, lonely and neglected. forget about him..
i need a long vacation from studying.. but i still haven decided on the special term modules... i need a long vacation from working.. but that's not possible cause i need money!! i need a long vacation from him.. but somehow i grow to be very attached to him and i can't seem to break free from this bond.. i need a long vacation from life.. so i can just float around in space.. haha.. and think of nothing for the whole day.. and everyday..
only at times like this i will start to blog..
cause i want to do every single possible thing besides studying..
2101 and 2102 coming up in less than 3 and 4 days.. i'm dead meat now.. cause i'm quite sure i wun be able to finish studying because i didn't study a bit during the weekends and instead wasted my time watching tv and playing games.
hols is coming in less than 5 days.. *yeah* and i have to move back to my dreaded home.. but heng i will be getting some help to clean up my house! yeah! and i secretly bought a new bed for mum and dad.. cause the old bed is not doing them good and dad complaint about back pain the other time he was back in sg.. dad's coming back on the 6th! i'm sure he will be happy to see our house CLEAN~~ =D
sidetrack a bit..
things appears to be good with him.. but deep inside i dun think we'll be able to withstand this long vacation.. with his absence for 1 month.. maybe i would have forgotten about him by the time he is back.. seriously.. i dun think i would mind if i can forget about him.. haha.. forget how he takes me for granted now that i'm back by his side.. forget about how i take him for granted cause of my plain laziness.. forget about how he never seem to keep his promises.. forget about how he always forgets the things i mentioned to him.. forget why nowadays i feel so empty, lonely and neglected. forget about him..
i need a long vacation from studying.. but i still haven decided on the special term modules... i need a long vacation from working.. but that's not possible cause i need money!! i need a long vacation from him.. but somehow i grow to be very attached to him and i can't seem to break free from this bond.. i need a long vacation from life.. so i can just float around in space.. haha.. and think of nothing for the whole day.. and everyday..
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Upset about my first paper yesterday..
more upset about my cell bio paper tml..
i just HATE exams.. but i hate doing projects too.. maybe i just hate studying.. (but i dun leh...)
anyways.. it sucks for stats cause the lecturer decided to change to bell curve grading during the LAST lecture where there's only damn 20 students in the class.. means only the top 4 will get A related grades.. the rest will all get something like B or B+.. its SUPER off to bell curve 20 ppl lah!! now i'm getting paranoid because i didn't went for the last 2 tutorials and did not hand in my 5% assignment.. neither did i had wonderful grades for my 25% CA and for the 50% final exam yesterday everyone's answers were about the same (so now it depends on the CA results i guess).. and half the paper was on theory which i suck at cause i skipped all the lectures after midsem.. what could be worse.. he LIFTED one of the exam qns from the TEXTBOOK!! *faint* some kind of lecturer......
and i can't finish studying for my 1pm cell bio papers tml.. (not cause i have no time.. but because i dun feel like it.. especially when my CA results is only the 25th percentile..)
DIE....
and surprisingly... i'm quite a genius.. so why am i struggling so hard at cell bio!?
faint.. (coped from linda's bloggie..)
back to mugging.
more upset about my cell bio paper tml..
i just HATE exams.. but i hate doing projects too.. maybe i just hate studying.. (but i dun leh...)
anyways.. it sucks for stats cause the lecturer decided to change to bell curve grading during the LAST lecture where there's only damn 20 students in the class.. means only the top 4 will get A related grades.. the rest will all get something like B or B+.. its SUPER off to bell curve 20 ppl lah!! now i'm getting paranoid because i didn't went for the last 2 tutorials and did not hand in my 5% assignment.. neither did i had wonderful grades for my 25% CA and for the 50% final exam yesterday everyone's answers were about the same (so now it depends on the CA results i guess).. and half the paper was on theory which i suck at cause i skipped all the lectures after midsem.. what could be worse.. he LIFTED one of the exam qns from the TEXTBOOK!! *faint* some kind of lecturer......
and i can't finish studying for my 1pm cell bio papers tml.. (not cause i have no time.. but because i dun feel like it.. especially when my CA results is only the 25th percentile..)
DIE....
and surprisingly... i'm quite a genius.. so why am i struggling so hard at cell bio!?
faint.. (coped from linda's bloggie..)
back to mugging.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Its funny what exams can do to us..
exam period is often the period where we have not enough time for every single thing in the world.. yet i always seem to have time for computer games where i will be stationed right in front of the comp and just kept playing away..
i have tonnes of stuff to study yet i can't seem to make myself do that.. hai.. what to do sia.. plus my CA are not wonderful results.. i might just get a terrible average this sem and that's it.. i wun be able to do my honors.. somebody HELPppppp...
exam period is often the period where we have not enough time for every single thing in the world.. yet i always seem to have time for computer games where i will be stationed right in front of the comp and just kept playing away..
i have tonnes of stuff to study yet i can't seem to make myself do that.. hai.. what to do sia.. plus my CA are not wonderful results.. i might just get a terrible average this sem and that's it.. i wun be able to do my honors.. somebody HELPppppp...
Thursday, April 19, 2007
We went to watch phantom of the opera yesterday.. i have only a word for it..
EXCELLENT!!
i think its a great show.. having done small scaled production for 2 years now i'm soooo amazed at their sets and how miraculous their sets change, especially the river scene with all the candles.. it was a pity cause we sat too far from the stage and had to use a binoculars to see the stage and the faces clearly.
it was so good that it cleared up my soggy mood immediately!
but today was a disaster.. i was so gross out when the bird shit fall on my FACE when i was walking to eusoff for lunch was max.. and our mr max just laugh at me mercilessly.. =(
and i couldn't go sing KTV with bc tml cause i have to buck up and finish studying for the upcoming exams..
EXCELLENT!!
i think its a great show.. having done small scaled production for 2 years now i'm soooo amazed at their sets and how miraculous their sets change, especially the river scene with all the candles.. it was a pity cause we sat too far from the stage and had to use a binoculars to see the stage and the faces clearly.
it was so good that it cleared up my soggy mood immediately!
but today was a disaster.. i was so gross out when the bird shit fall on my FACE when i was walking to eusoff for lunch was max.. and our mr max just laugh at me mercilessly.. =(
and i couldn't go sing KTV with bc tml cause i have to buck up and finish studying for the upcoming exams..
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I've got a new hair cut on sunday! and i highlighted my hair RED.. hehe.. its been a while since i dyed my hair (about 2 years!) and i love my new hair colour.. but i wun say that bout the hair styles.. its just acceptable.. but it makes me look like a different person.. but the best thing is that mummy paid for all my expenses!! =D
Friday, April 13, 2007
Exit: the world outside fairyland.
warning: blogpost is random and might not make any sense.
will i be able to do it.. i silently ask myself.. will i be able to stop living in my own world and face the real world. frankly, i'm scared. i'm scared of leaving my own dreamyland.. but i guess i have to do it now so that i will stop depressing.. its when you really found that you've lost everything you once had den you start to realise how important they were to you..
bc says that its when love fades den you realise how everything else besides your lover are impt to you.. its actually because you're over dependent on someone and when he wouldn't be there for you anymore, you will eventually snap out of it.
i love my dreamland. but recently.. i've begin to hate it. my style of life irritates even myself. how can i live like this i tot many times. that someone which i depends on all the time. that someone that i hurt all the time.. does he even exist outside the dreamland?
this is gonna be hard.. how can i step out without losing something. maybe i will lose him.. because that always happened when i tried to step out of my dreamland as he exist only in my dreamland.. and if i dun need my dreamland.. i dun need him..
it was weird hating myself. i've never once hate myself so much. i hate it when i'm in this kind of weakling state.. so pathetically hoping to get strength and help from ppl around.. trying so hard to be independent but actually totally not at all and getting hurt over having nothing to lean on. crying my eyes swollen every now and den without thinking. what exactly is wrong with me??
i dun even remember ever being like this.. what made me become this way.. dun even have the strength or energy to pick myself up from this mess and open that gate to the outside of my dreamland.. so shall i stay here or shall i challenge myself and get out..?
is it really good to leave him for good? for my own good? cause i can't leave him for a day now.. it drives me nuts.. and i wun have my meals properly without him.. because i only eat with him.. i totally dun understand myself.. why dun i make more friends.. why dun i eat with someone else.. i constantly tries to forget the fact that he's no longer going to be in hall with me since this may.. why am i living in self denial?
i've become distrustful of myself recently.. i dun really believe that i will be able to keep him in my heart if i want to.. and even with him in it.. i can give my heart to anyone.. and that when he said he's going to china for 1 month.. i'm scared.. why am i scared? i felt terrible.. like he is not going to come back or he wun be there for me anymore.. and that i wun be able to keep my heart with me.. i'm upset.. why aren't you worried.. why dun you want to guard me.. why it is that nobody wants to protect me? i'm no child.. i will be 21 in no time.. but will i be able to overcome all this by myself.. will i really grow up and be mature.. will i???
i really want to escape.. to some other places.. and build maybe another fairyland.. i had an ridiculous thought.. i felt like challenging myself.. will i be able to do that? will i not phone him or answer his calls.. will i not talk to him on MSN.. will i not miss him.. and forget him in the 1 month he has given to me..?
why can't i grow up. even if i were to act grown up.. i had not grow any more matured than i was before. i want to grow up too isn't it.. if only i can stop this disgusting weakling's feelings in me..
why can't i just lose all my memories for the past 2 years. if i can i think i will be stronger.
warning: blogpost is random and might not make any sense.
will i be able to do it.. i silently ask myself.. will i be able to stop living in my own world and face the real world. frankly, i'm scared. i'm scared of leaving my own dreamyland.. but i guess i have to do it now so that i will stop depressing.. its when you really found that you've lost everything you once had den you start to realise how important they were to you..
bc says that its when love fades den you realise how everything else besides your lover are impt to you.. its actually because you're over dependent on someone and when he wouldn't be there for you anymore, you will eventually snap out of it.
i love my dreamland. but recently.. i've begin to hate it. my style of life irritates even myself. how can i live like this i tot many times. that someone which i depends on all the time. that someone that i hurt all the time.. does he even exist outside the dreamland?
this is gonna be hard.. how can i step out without losing something. maybe i will lose him.. because that always happened when i tried to step out of my dreamland as he exist only in my dreamland.. and if i dun need my dreamland.. i dun need him..
it was weird hating myself. i've never once hate myself so much. i hate it when i'm in this kind of weakling state.. so pathetically hoping to get strength and help from ppl around.. trying so hard to be independent but actually totally not at all and getting hurt over having nothing to lean on. crying my eyes swollen every now and den without thinking. what exactly is wrong with me??
i dun even remember ever being like this.. what made me become this way.. dun even have the strength or energy to pick myself up from this mess and open that gate to the outside of my dreamland.. so shall i stay here or shall i challenge myself and get out..?
is it really good to leave him for good? for my own good? cause i can't leave him for a day now.. it drives me nuts.. and i wun have my meals properly without him.. because i only eat with him.. i totally dun understand myself.. why dun i make more friends.. why dun i eat with someone else.. i constantly tries to forget the fact that he's no longer going to be in hall with me since this may.. why am i living in self denial?
i've become distrustful of myself recently.. i dun really believe that i will be able to keep him in my heart if i want to.. and even with him in it.. i can give my heart to anyone.. and that when he said he's going to china for 1 month.. i'm scared.. why am i scared? i felt terrible.. like he is not going to come back or he wun be there for me anymore.. and that i wun be able to keep my heart with me.. i'm upset.. why aren't you worried.. why dun you want to guard me.. why it is that nobody wants to protect me? i'm no child.. i will be 21 in no time.. but will i be able to overcome all this by myself.. will i really grow up and be mature.. will i???
i really want to escape.. to some other places.. and build maybe another fairyland.. i had an ridiculous thought.. i felt like challenging myself.. will i be able to do that? will i not phone him or answer his calls.. will i not talk to him on MSN.. will i not miss him.. and forget him in the 1 month he has given to me..?
why can't i grow up. even if i were to act grown up.. i had not grow any more matured than i was before. i want to grow up too isn't it.. if only i can stop this disgusting weakling's feelings in me..
why can't i just lose all my memories for the past 2 years. if i can i think i will be stronger.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Test Test Test.. why is Life sciences all about test??
they should just make all life sciences modules open book.. its impossible for us to remember so much loh.....
and why do we even need to remember them when we'll just forget everything in no time...
i'm troubled now.. i dunno whether to do special term or not.. its like wasted the first 6 weeks of my holidays taking 2 hours of lesson everyday and no working.. but since its near the exam period and i compensate with more tuition.. but................ hmm.....
and this will result in me being too free for year 3 sem II... hmm.. maybe i really shouldn't take and only take those modules in year 3 sem II and year 4 sem I... arghh.. what should i do?? glad daddy is coming back soon so we can all discuss about this..
recently i've been very poor.. all those birthdays.. pressies had drained me.. i'm sooo poor now.. broke and living off max.. he is so going to kill me.. cause i kept using up his money.. hahaa.. how i wish i can marry a rich man NOW and live like a tai tai for the rest of my life.. sob..
they should just make all life sciences modules open book.. its impossible for us to remember so much loh.....
and why do we even need to remember them when we'll just forget everything in no time...
i'm troubled now.. i dunno whether to do special term or not.. its like wasted the first 6 weeks of my holidays taking 2 hours of lesson everyday and no working.. but since its near the exam period and i compensate with more tuition.. but................ hmm.....
and this will result in me being too free for year 3 sem II... hmm.. maybe i really shouldn't take and only take those modules in year 3 sem II and year 4 sem I... arghh.. what should i do?? glad daddy is coming back soon so we can all discuss about this..
recently i've been very poor.. all those birthdays.. pressies had drained me.. i'm sooo poor now.. broke and living off max.. he is so going to kill me.. cause i kept using up his money.. hahaa.. how i wish i can marry a rich man NOW and live like a tai tai for the rest of my life.. sob..
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Have you met MS BLUR?
i can't believe myself..
i can't believe i'm SO BLUR!!
today is the worse day of my life.. below are the stupid and horrible things that i did or happened to me..
1. suppose to meet kj at clementi mrt.. so obviously i'm suppose to board the train that he's on.. BUT.. he's phone must go flat at that moment and i happen to be at the last cabin while he's on the first cabin..
2. we queue at the counter to get CHEAP portable harddisk.. and we were really kinda of blur about the queue. so there's actually TWO counters and the other counter is going at a 5x faster speed than ours..
3. while paying for the speakers we bought at the creative counter, i told kj that the cashier's kinda cute.. and he happily announced it to the whole world (to the cashier actually) and ask him whether he mind jie-di-lian *faint*
4. right after i paid for the speakers, i saw mircosoft selling this wireless keyboard and mouse set which i so wanted.. but because it comes with a free speaker.. i felt kinda cheated and didn't buy it in the end..
5. while tryin to fake a kick at kwang hup's butt.. i kicked him right in the asshole..
6. left my jacket at my tutee's place and forget all about it until i walked into the mrt station and felt cold. and when back to get it when the below idiotic thing happened
7. when going up the lift to the 8th floor.. i followed the aunty out at the 6th. and the aunty had reminded me that its 6th floor.. while going down the same lift which stopped at the 5th floor first before the ground floor. i forgot to alight(even though the couple who was with me in the lift walked out) and the uncle who is coming into the lift ask me "you dun want to go out arh?"
8. i mixed up the timing i was suppose to catch music and lyrics with bc.. cause he's sms wrote 11:55 at jp and 9:20 at westmall and i tot it was 9:55.. billiant! almost missed the whole show.
9. while eating supper with bc after the show.. i went to buy drinks and when i came back.. i put my drink in his tray.. and only realise when he ask me what drink is this arh (cause he wanted carrot juice and i place barley in front of him).
10. when on the train back (could have avoided this if i caught the last 189). i almost board the train to boon lay at je.. i was 1 step away from the doors!
11. when coming back on my bike i made a fool of myself.. and kept stalling the engine..
arghh.. i want to die..
i can't believe myself..
i can't believe i'm SO BLUR!!
today is the worse day of my life.. below are the stupid and horrible things that i did or happened to me..
1. suppose to meet kj at clementi mrt.. so obviously i'm suppose to board the train that he's on.. BUT.. he's phone must go flat at that moment and i happen to be at the last cabin while he's on the first cabin..
2. we queue at the counter to get CHEAP portable harddisk.. and we were really kinda of blur about the queue. so there's actually TWO counters and the other counter is going at a 5x faster speed than ours..
3. while paying for the speakers we bought at the creative counter, i told kj that the cashier's kinda cute.. and he happily announced it to the whole world (to the cashier actually) and ask him whether he mind jie-di-lian *faint*
4. right after i paid for the speakers, i saw mircosoft selling this wireless keyboard and mouse set which i so wanted.. but because it comes with a free speaker.. i felt kinda cheated and didn't buy it in the end..
5. while tryin to fake a kick at kwang hup's butt.. i kicked him right in the asshole..
6. left my jacket at my tutee's place and forget all about it until i walked into the mrt station and felt cold. and when back to get it when the below idiotic thing happened
7. when going up the lift to the 8th floor.. i followed the aunty out at the 6th. and the aunty had reminded me that its 6th floor.. while going down the same lift which stopped at the 5th floor first before the ground floor. i forgot to alight(even though the couple who was with me in the lift walked out) and the uncle who is coming into the lift ask me "you dun want to go out arh?"
8. i mixed up the timing i was suppose to catch music and lyrics with bc.. cause he's sms wrote 11:55 at jp and 9:20 at westmall and i tot it was 9:55.. billiant! almost missed the whole show.
9. while eating supper with bc after the show.. i went to buy drinks and when i came back.. i put my drink in his tray.. and only realise when he ask me what drink is this arh (cause he wanted carrot juice and i place barley in front of him).
10. when on the train back (could have avoided this if i caught the last 189). i almost board the train to boon lay at je.. i was 1 step away from the doors!
11. when coming back on my bike i made a fool of myself.. and kept stalling the engine..
arghh.. i want to die..
Thursday, March 08, 2007
i spend every free minute today mugging..
went for lab at 12pm and it was only 3 hrs today!! spend the next 4 hours mugging nonstop.. glad i did so.. cause today's test surely felt more fulfilling den yesterday's test. it had 30 MCQ and quite a lot of what i studied came out.. it felt better.. not as if i had studied in vain and fails the test just because i didn't guess the correct question. hahaha..
satisfied.. =D
went for lab at 12pm and it was only 3 hrs today!! spend the next 4 hours mugging nonstop.. glad i did so.. cause today's test surely felt more fulfilling den yesterday's test. it had 30 MCQ and quite a lot of what i studied came out.. it felt better.. not as if i had studied in vain and fails the test just because i didn't guess the correct question. hahaha..
satisfied.. =D
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
24th Feb 2007 Productions 06/07
clockwise: me and key and toryuan. me and key. me in hostess costume. sunflowers that max gave me..
the 6 sexy hostess
this marks the end of our months of hardwork.. one time only to dance the best that we can.. thanks mummy max kj yiwei kwanghup jianwen zhen and pang for coming to support me!! and thanks bc for buying the tickets but never show up.. heard we got 90% ticket sales (but its hear say)
25 Feb 2007 the day after productions
i went lunch with mummy at IMM and shopping!! she bought one jacket and one blouse for me from samuel and kevin.. but i completely forgotten about the NUSrides meeting at 3pm at Uni Hall.. hahaha. so paiseh when weiquan called me and ask me where i am..
i bought the furry ball for myself and a voodoo doll for max at minitoons at IMM..
completely never study.. *DIE* suppose to have 2 test on tuesday but i took MC to skip it.. =P
1 March 2007 Formal dinner cum CNY celebration
had a happy time eating one of the better food that hall caterer cooked!!
caught jialin when we're leaving.. she's serving as she's from block comm..
4 March 2007 Benkyo-ing at yiwei's house
me and kaijie trying to compare whose face is smaller.. i was smiling with my teeth so i my face looked bigger.. but we uses ruler to measure and he's head is 1cm longer then mine!! wahahaha..
i was photowhorgging with kaijie and yiwei.. i especially like the one the lower right hand corner one because kaijie was smiling!! (finally!!) all the rest he look funny..
6 March 2007 THE DAY I HAVE LSM2101 RETEST..
i'm screwed.. i dunno i study so much for what.. he just anyhow boom one qns and i'm crushed.. hahaha.. he just have to ask that qn that i dunno how to answer and it came right from the guidelines that he had given to us.. i want to CRY!!
i went to clementi to get my favorite egg tart to cheer myself up.. and on the way back i saw this (photo below) risk my life taking it cause i off my throttle only and my bike is still rowing.. but its really funny!! that P-plate is bigger than mine!! *faint*
this is classic..
now i'm off to more benkyoo-ing for tml's LSM2103 test...
3 more tests to go!!! gambatte for myself!!
this marks the end of our months of hardwork.. one time only to dance the best that we can.. thanks mummy max kj yiwei kwanghup jianwen zhen and pang for coming to support me!! and thanks bc for buying the tickets but never show up.. heard we got 90% ticket sales (but its hear say)
25 Feb 2007 the day after productions
i went lunch with mummy at IMM and shopping!! she bought one jacket and one blouse for me from samuel and kevin.. but i completely forgotten about the NUSrides meeting at 3pm at Uni Hall.. hahaha. so paiseh when weiquan called me and ask me where i am..
i bought the furry ball for myself and a voodoo doll for max at minitoons at IMM..
completely never study.. *DIE* suppose to have 2 test on tuesday but i took MC to skip it.. =P
1 March 2007 Formal dinner cum CNY celebration
4 March 2007 Benkyo-ing at yiwei's house
me and kaijie trying to compare whose face is smaller.. i was smiling with my teeth so i my face looked bigger.. but we uses ruler to measure and he's head is 1cm longer then mine!! wahahaha..
i was photowhorgging with kaijie and yiwei.. i especially like the one the lower right hand corner one because kaijie was smiling!! (finally!!) all the rest he look funny..
6 March 2007 THE DAY I HAVE LSM2101 RETEST..
i'm screwed.. i dunno i study so much for what.. he just anyhow boom one qns and i'm crushed.. hahaha.. he just have to ask that qn that i dunno how to answer and it came right from the guidelines that he had given to us.. i want to CRY!!
i went to clementi to get my favorite egg tart to cheer myself up.. and on the way back i saw this (photo below) risk my life taking it cause i off my throttle only and my bike is still rowing.. but its really funny!! that P-plate is bigger than mine!! *faint*
now i'm off to more benkyoo-ing for tml's LSM2103 test...
3 more tests to go!!! gambatte for myself!!
Monday, February 19, 2007
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Monday, February 12, 2007
The Best Friendship Day Present...
Its really nice and personalise to my name!! and my favorite sunflowers....
rocher and yakult!!! and more sunflowers!!
It was a cloudy sunday afternoon but the sun still managed to creep somewhere onto a fridge and surprise me.. wanna thank my bc kor kor for the nicey surprise! it was so sweet of him.. now i feel so mean cause i dun have anything prepared for vday! *sorry*
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Friday, February 02, 2007
i'm tired...
and i'm upset
WHY productions is on chu qi~???
everyone go lao yu zheng no one want to support me liao!!!
*complain mood*
but after kwan aik explained to us.. i guess we just have to understand that poor aprilyn and weizhen is living under misunderstandings... now we can only do our best to show whoever is willing to forgo their yu sheng dinner.. lOlx...
we shall lao yu sheng in UCC! wahahaha
and i'm upset
WHY productions is on chu qi~???
everyone go lao yu zheng no one want to support me liao!!!
*complain mood*
but after kwan aik explained to us.. i guess we just have to understand that poor aprilyn and weizhen is living under misunderstandings... now we can only do our best to show whoever is willing to forgo their yu sheng dinner.. lOlx...
we shall lao yu sheng in UCC! wahahaha
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Today is pamper myself day!
okie lah.. it was all a plot to make zhen come out so i can steal her bf's number! hahaha.. and i did it!! right in the early part of the day.. hahahaha
we went to mayim at bb for our brunch.. it seems a bit different from last time.. not as nice le. =( den we went to je to get her contact lense.. (my chance! and i grab it.. stole the number successfully!)
den we went to tiong bahru in hope to get our manicure and pedicure done.. but the shop seems so squeezy and crowded.. we changed our mind and decided to go to the amara branch instead... after travelling and getting lost and walking alot of distance.. and sitting for 2 hours... we finally get it done!! below are my new nails!! hehehe
we're suppose to go suntec for shopping.. and wanted to take a cab.. but.. cause there's no cab... we decided to save money and take MRT instead.. which is good cause i'm very broke.... hahaha.. we safely arrived at suntec.. but that girl is hungry again!! so we went hunting for food and end up at pasta mania.. she treat me dinner.. =) we sat there talking for quite a long time even after we finshed our food.. and den we went shopping.. the first and last shop we went is NOVO! i really like their shoes and they're having this sale now!! so i have 2 victory pieces...
okie lah.. it was all a plot to make zhen come out so i can steal her bf's number! hahaha.. and i did it!! right in the early part of the day.. hahahaha
we went to mayim at bb for our brunch.. it seems a bit different from last time.. not as nice le. =( den we went to je to get her contact lense.. (my chance! and i grab it.. stole the number successfully!)
den we went to tiong bahru in hope to get our manicure and pedicure done.. but the shop seems so squeezy and crowded.. we changed our mind and decided to go to the amara branch instead... after travelling and getting lost and walking alot of distance.. and sitting for 2 hours... we finally get it done!! below are my new nails!! hehehe
my pink fingernails and pinker toenails
we're suppose to go suntec for shopping.. and wanted to take a cab.. but.. cause there's no cab... we decided to save money and take MRT instead.. which is good cause i'm very broke.... hahaha.. we safely arrived at suntec.. but that girl is hungry again!! so we went hunting for food and end up at pasta mania.. she treat me dinner.. =) we sat there talking for quite a long time even after we finshed our food.. and den we went shopping.. the first and last shop we went is NOVO! i really like their shoes and they're having this sale now!! so i have 2 victory pieces...
this one is only $9.90 and it goes perfectly well with my new toenails!! its 9cm high
the pair costs only $19.90 and its very comfortable!! and the base is the same colour as my fingernails.. its 7cm high
hahahaa.. i'm just all crazy over pink again!! I LOVE PINK! and i'm damn happy after shopping trips.. lOlx.. spend money = happy!
Saturday, January 27, 2007
I had a very slack day today.. slept a flat 12 hours from 8pm last night to this morning 8am loh.. and i watched one litre of tears till 2+ without realising..!
and i was soooo hungry.. but me and max slack till 3+ before we left hall for lunch or rather DUNCH/LINNER...
crystal jade really look delicious. but my useless boyfriend got no money.. so we end up eating food court.. but it was quite nice so nvm.. den we went to tcc hehee..
and took alot of photo like below..
acting stupid at tcc with our drinks and food
After Holland V. we went to watch XQRJ @ UCC... our team.. hai.. i shall not elaborate... anyways.. i took picture with my soon to publicise-dance-partner-to-be weiliang! hehehe..
and i was soooo hungry.. but me and max slack till 3+ before we left hall for lunch or rather DUNCH/LINNER...
crystal jade really look delicious. but my useless boyfriend got no money.. so we end up eating food court.. but it was quite nice so nvm.. den we went to tcc hehee..
and took alot of photo like below..
acting stupid at tcc with our drinks and food
After Holland V. we went to watch XQRJ @ UCC... our team.. hai.. i shall not elaborate... anyways.. i took picture with my soon to publicise-dance-partner-to-be weiliang! hehehe..
Friday, January 26, 2007
max thinks that i'm very careless with my keys (bike key + transponder) and bought a key holder for me.. and it kinda look very key chua.. lOlx. (KEY holder feels like KEY chua.. =P.. cause its a froggy!!!)
anyways it was sweet of him.. =D cause he use the time i took to go toilet to hang up the key holder.. hahaha.. he's finally becoming more romantic... =)
i'm very happy..!
my new cute key holder.. =)
anyways it was sweet of him.. =D cause he use the time i took to go toilet to hang up the key holder.. hahaha.. he's finally becoming more romantic... =)
i'm very happy..!
my new cute key holder.. =)
Thursday, January 25, 2007
专属天使
我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
我才看见 它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在 我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在 我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在 我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
i think this song is very the nice loh! its from the ending theme song of hana kimi (花样少年少女)
its by tank if you think of looking for it..
我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
我才看见 它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在 我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在 我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在 我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
i think this song is very the nice loh! its from the ending theme song of hana kimi (花样少年少女)
its by tank if you think of looking for it..
NO MORE P-PLATE!!!!
i officially enter into qualified rider's club! woohoo~~
my p-plate life finally ended yesterday..
currently have a new fetish of sitting on my pillion seat while riding... i think i would really like to get a sports bike as my next bike.. especially if i can 2A license...
TODAY = TIRED DAY
i had a very busy day today!!
12AM (no you did not see wrongly)
wake up from my 4 hr nap.
12AM - 2AM talk cock sing song blog
2AM - 3:30AM talk cock with key, jialin & max.
3:30AM - 7:30AM type lab report....!!!!
7:30AM - 9:30AM Sleep
9:30AM - 10:00AM wash up + eat breakfast
10:00AM - 12PM BORING lecture..
12PM - 6PM FRUSTRATING lab........
6PM - 7PM travelling to tutee house
7PM - 9:30PM tuition
9:30PM - 10PM travel back to hall
10PM - 10:30PM eat dinner
10:30PM - 11:30PM PAB Briefing.. PAB deadline is 12 FEB!! WTH
11:30PM - 12:30AM Singing lessons with maryanne
12:30AM - now check mail blog..
i'm soooo tired now..................
i officially enter into qualified rider's club! woohoo~~
my p-plate life finally ended yesterday..
currently have a new fetish of sitting on my pillion seat while riding... i think i would really like to get a sports bike as my next bike.. especially if i can 2A license...
TODAY = TIRED DAY
i had a very busy day today!!
12AM (no you did not see wrongly)
wake up from my 4 hr nap.
12AM - 2AM talk cock sing song blog
2AM - 3:30AM talk cock with key, jialin & max.
3:30AM - 7:30AM type lab report....!!!!
7:30AM - 9:30AM Sleep
9:30AM - 10:00AM wash up + eat breakfast
10:00AM - 12PM BORING lecture..
12PM - 6PM FRUSTRATING lab........
6PM - 7PM travelling to tutee house
7PM - 9:30PM tuition
9:30PM - 10PM travel back to hall
10PM - 10:30PM eat dinner
10:30PM - 11:30PM PAB Briefing.. PAB deadline is 12 FEB!! WTH
11:30PM - 12:30AM Singing lessons with maryanne
12:30AM - now check mail blog..
i'm soooo tired now..................
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Monday, January 22, 2007
Its been a while since i found something that describes me sooooo well.. particularly towards the brain wasting problem that i'm experiencing now..
Gemini, the sign of the Twins, is dual-natured, elusive, complex and contradictory. On the one hand it produces the virtue of versatility, and on the other the vices of two-facedness and flightiness. The sign is linked with Mercury, the planet of childhood and youth, and its subjects tend to have the graces and faults of the young. When they are good, they are very attractive; when they are bad they are more the worse for being the charmers they are. Like children they are lively, and happy, if circumstances are right for them, or egocentric, imaginative and restless. They take up new activities enthusiastically but lack application, constantly needing new interests, flitting from project to project as apparently purposelessly as a butterfly dancing from flower to flower. To them life is a game which must always be full of fresh moves and continuous entertainment, free of labor and routine. Changing horses in the middle of the stream is another small quirk in the Gemini personality which makes decision making, and sticking to a decision, particularly hard for them.
Since they lack the quality of conscientiousness, they are apt to fight a losing battle in any attempts they make to be moral (in the widest sense of the word). Their good qualities are attractive and come easily to them. They are affectionate, courteous, kind, generous, and thoughtful towards the poor and suffering - provided none of the activities resulting from expressing these traits interferes too greatly with their own lives and comforts. They quickly learn to use their outward attractiveness to gain their own ends, and when striving for these they will use any weapon in their armory - unscrupulous lying, and cunning evasiveness; escaping blame by contriving to put it on other people, wrapped up in all the charm they can turn on. In their better moments they may strive to be honest and straightforward, but self-interest is almost always the victor. If things go against them, they sulk like children. Also like children, they demand attention, admiration, and the spending on them of time, energy and money, throwing tantrums if they don't get what they want. They reflect every change in their surroundings, like chameleons, and can become pessimistic, sullen, peevish and materialistically self-centered if circumstances force them to struggle in any way. If the conditions of life become really adverse, their strength of will may desert them entirely. They can become uncertain of themselves, either withdrawn, or nervously excitable worriers, sullenly discontented, hard and irritable, with "Self" looming ever larger in their struggles. On the other hand their versatility can make them very adaptable, adjusting themselves to control the world around them by means of their inherent ingenuity and cleverness.
Most Gemini have a keen, intuitive, sometimes brilliant intelligence and they love cerebral challenges. But their concentration, though intense for a while, does not last. Their mental agility and energy give them a voracious appetite for knowledge from youth onward, though they dislike the labor of learning. They easily grasp almost everything requiring intelligence and mental dexterity, and are often able to marry manual skills to their qualities of mind. Their intellect is strongly analytical and sometimes gives them so great an ability to see both sides of a question that they vacillate and find it hard to make decisions. But their intelligence may very well be used to control and unify the duality of their natures into a most efficient unit. If faced with difficulties, they have little determination to worry at a problem until they find a solution - they will pick the brains of others. In their intellectual pursuits, as in other departments of their lives, they risk becoming dilettantes, losing themselves in too many projects which they follow until they become difficult.
In love they are fickle, not intentionally so but because of the basic inconsistency of their emotional nature, which has an amoral aspect to it. Their is a side to Geminians which can become deeply involved emotionally, and another, hostile to sentimentality, which stands back from a romantic situation, laughing at it and the protagonists in it, including themselves while analyzing it intellectually. Gemini subjects take nothing seriously. So, in love, in spite of their temporary depth of feeling, for the intensity of involvement lasts only while it is new, they are superficial, light-hearted, cool, flirtatious and unimaginative in the understanding of the pain they may give others. They like intrigue, the excitement of the chase, but once they have caught the prey, they lose interest and look around for the next creature to pursue. In less serious situations they make witty, entertaining companions, good acquaintances rather than friends. Even at their worst they are never dull - there is usually playfulness below the surface, and they can be brilliant conversationalists - but they can also be quarrelsome, prattlers, boasters, liars and cheats.
Geminians can be successful in many walks of life though their general characteristics tend to make them unreliable. They are often skilled manipulators of language, in speech and writing, and may be: debaters, diplomats (though in politics they are more interested in theory than practice), orators, preachers (brilliant rather than profound), teachers, authors, poets, journalists, or lawyers. In business any work which combines quick-wittedness with a change of surroundings suits them; working as a traveling salesperson, brokerage work, or dealing with the public in any capacity is right up their alley. Because they are dispassionate, logical, rational and analytical they make good scientists, especially in the fields of medicine and astronomy. They can also make excellent members of the Armed Forces, for they take danger no more seriously than anything else and can earn themselves a reputation for devotion to duty and heroic acts. In the arts they may excel in music, painting and sculpture. They make good psychic researchers of a sceptical kind. Negatively they can degenerate into confidence tricksters, thieves and even adepts in the black arts.
SOME COMMON PROBLEMS ASSOCIATED WITH GEMINI
As with all sun signs, we all have unique traits to our personalities. When these traits are suppressed, or unrealized, problems will arise. However, with astrology we can examine the problem and assess the proper solution based on the sun sign characteristics. As a Gemini you may see things below that really strike home. Try the solution, you most likely will be amazed at the results. If you find yourself on the receiving end of the negatives below, it is because you are failing to express the positive.
PROBLEM: Being superficial could be a big problem for you in your overall relationships with others and also in getting ahead on many jobs where you must endeavor to dig deep and learn something thoroughly. This is the worst Gemini trait of all.
SOLUTION: To make a conscious effort to control this trait is the best approach to take to this problem. If you make a commitment to something or someone you should mentally force yourself to keep that commitment where possible. This will be hard but it can, and has been, accomplished by many under this sign.
PROBLEM: Not one who cares for peace and quiet, you create your own problems with loved ones by picking arguments or tale carrying from one to the other then stand back and enjoy the show.
SOLUTION: While this may relieve your boredom, it is something that you should not let happen as it could easily go out of control and cost you the love and companionship that you desire. When you feel like doing this it would be better to take a long walk and let the feelings pass.
PROBLEM: Boredom is one of your biggest problems and you could easily fall into mischief if you do not find ways to alleviate it.
SOLUTION: You have a great many creative talents and if you put these to work for you in some sort of hobby or project you will find you do not have time to be bored, also, other physical activities should be considered: workouts at the gym, racketball, hiking, etc..
PROBLEM: You could have health problems brought on by overindulgence of food, drink, or the night life which only gets worse as you age.
SOLUTION: Tame your urges and save the party times for weekends only and then try not to overdo it. By keeping everything down to a mild roar you may not have to fight off diseases such as obesity or cirrhosis of the liver.
PROBLEM: You may have the problem of not being able to keep a spouse or a lover due to your pursuit of the opposite sex.
SOLUTION: Cultivate the habit of not flirting with every attractive person you see and make up your mind to be a true and loving spouse, or don't commit until you are really ready to do this.
Gemini, the sign of the Twins, is dual-natured, elusive, complex and contradictory. On the one hand it produces the virtue of versatility, and on the other the vices of two-facedness and flightiness. The sign is linked with Mercury, the planet of childhood and youth, and its subjects tend to have the graces and faults of the young. When they are good, they are very attractive; when they are bad they are more the worse for being the charmers they are. Like children they are lively, and happy, if circumstances are right for them, or egocentric, imaginative and restless. They take up new activities enthusiastically but lack application, constantly needing new interests, flitting from project to project as apparently purposelessly as a butterfly dancing from flower to flower. To them life is a game which must always be full of fresh moves and continuous entertainment, free of labor and routine. Changing horses in the middle of the stream is another small quirk in the Gemini personality which makes decision making, and sticking to a decision, particularly hard for them.
Since they lack the quality of conscientiousness, they are apt to fight a losing battle in any attempts they make to be moral (in the widest sense of the word). Their good qualities are attractive and come easily to them. They are affectionate, courteous, kind, generous, and thoughtful towards the poor and suffering - provided none of the activities resulting from expressing these traits interferes too greatly with their own lives and comforts. They quickly learn to use their outward attractiveness to gain their own ends, and when striving for these they will use any weapon in their armory - unscrupulous lying, and cunning evasiveness; escaping blame by contriving to put it on other people, wrapped up in all the charm they can turn on. In their better moments they may strive to be honest and straightforward, but self-interest is almost always the victor. If things go against them, they sulk like children. Also like children, they demand attention, admiration, and the spending on them of time, energy and money, throwing tantrums if they don't get what they want. They reflect every change in their surroundings, like chameleons, and can become pessimistic, sullen, peevish and materialistically self-centered if circumstances force them to struggle in any way. If the conditions of life become really adverse, their strength of will may desert them entirely. They can become uncertain of themselves, either withdrawn, or nervously excitable worriers, sullenly discontented, hard and irritable, with "Self" looming ever larger in their struggles. On the other hand their versatility can make them very adaptable, adjusting themselves to control the world around them by means of their inherent ingenuity and cleverness.
Most Gemini have a keen, intuitive, sometimes brilliant intelligence and they love cerebral challenges. But their concentration, though intense for a while, does not last. Their mental agility and energy give them a voracious appetite for knowledge from youth onward, though they dislike the labor of learning. They easily grasp almost everything requiring intelligence and mental dexterity, and are often able to marry manual skills to their qualities of mind. Their intellect is strongly analytical and sometimes gives them so great an ability to see both sides of a question that they vacillate and find it hard to make decisions. But their intelligence may very well be used to control and unify the duality of their natures into a most efficient unit. If faced with difficulties, they have little determination to worry at a problem until they find a solution - they will pick the brains of others. In their intellectual pursuits, as in other departments of their lives, they risk becoming dilettantes, losing themselves in too many projects which they follow until they become difficult.
In love they are fickle, not intentionally so but because of the basic inconsistency of their emotional nature, which has an amoral aspect to it. Their is a side to Geminians which can become deeply involved emotionally, and another, hostile to sentimentality, which stands back from a romantic situation, laughing at it and the protagonists in it, including themselves while analyzing it intellectually. Gemini subjects take nothing seriously. So, in love, in spite of their temporary depth of feeling, for the intensity of involvement lasts only while it is new, they are superficial, light-hearted, cool, flirtatious and unimaginative in the understanding of the pain they may give others. They like intrigue, the excitement of the chase, but once they have caught the prey, they lose interest and look around for the next creature to pursue. In less serious situations they make witty, entertaining companions, good acquaintances rather than friends. Even at their worst they are never dull - there is usually playfulness below the surface, and they can be brilliant conversationalists - but they can also be quarrelsome, prattlers, boasters, liars and cheats.
Geminians can be successful in many walks of life though their general characteristics tend to make them unreliable. They are often skilled manipulators of language, in speech and writing, and may be: debaters, diplomats (though in politics they are more interested in theory than practice), orators, preachers (brilliant rather than profound), teachers, authors, poets, journalists, or lawyers. In business any work which combines quick-wittedness with a change of surroundings suits them; working as a traveling salesperson, brokerage work, or dealing with the public in any capacity is right up their alley. Because they are dispassionate, logical, rational and analytical they make good scientists, especially in the fields of medicine and astronomy. They can also make excellent members of the Armed Forces, for they take danger no more seriously than anything else and can earn themselves a reputation for devotion to duty and heroic acts. In the arts they may excel in music, painting and sculpture. They make good psychic researchers of a sceptical kind. Negatively they can degenerate into confidence tricksters, thieves and even adepts in the black arts.
SOME COMMON PROBLEMS ASSOCIATED WITH GEMINI
As with all sun signs, we all have unique traits to our personalities. When these traits are suppressed, or unrealized, problems will arise. However, with astrology we can examine the problem and assess the proper solution based on the sun sign characteristics. As a Gemini you may see things below that really strike home. Try the solution, you most likely will be amazed at the results. If you find yourself on the receiving end of the negatives below, it is because you are failing to express the positive.
PROBLEM: Being superficial could be a big problem for you in your overall relationships with others and also in getting ahead on many jobs where you must endeavor to dig deep and learn something thoroughly. This is the worst Gemini trait of all.
SOLUTION: To make a conscious effort to control this trait is the best approach to take to this problem. If you make a commitment to something or someone you should mentally force yourself to keep that commitment where possible. This will be hard but it can, and has been, accomplished by many under this sign.
PROBLEM: Not one who cares for peace and quiet, you create your own problems with loved ones by picking arguments or tale carrying from one to the other then stand back and enjoy the show.
SOLUTION: While this may relieve your boredom, it is something that you should not let happen as it could easily go out of control and cost you the love and companionship that you desire. When you feel like doing this it would be better to take a long walk and let the feelings pass.
PROBLEM: Boredom is one of your biggest problems and you could easily fall into mischief if you do not find ways to alleviate it.
SOLUTION: You have a great many creative talents and if you put these to work for you in some sort of hobby or project you will find you do not have time to be bored, also, other physical activities should be considered: workouts at the gym, racketball, hiking, etc..
PROBLEM: You could have health problems brought on by overindulgence of food, drink, or the night life which only gets worse as you age.
SOLUTION: Tame your urges and save the party times for weekends only and then try not to overdo it. By keeping everything down to a mild roar you may not have to fight off diseases such as obesity or cirrhosis of the liver.
PROBLEM: You may have the problem of not being able to keep a spouse or a lover due to your pursuit of the opposite sex.
SOLUTION: Cultivate the habit of not flirting with every attractive person you see and make up your mind to be a true and loving spouse, or don't commit until you are really ready to do this.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
i was really upset yesterday.
i ate all the things i shouldn't be eating. AS IF food will make me happy.
i ate chocolate ice cream for lunch and doritos for supper.
so i'm not going to get anywhere near better. new symtoms of getting worse are phlem and periodic headaches.. the flu bug just decided to be a parasite on me.. but it could be because my immunisation system's down due to the among of stress and fatigue i'm experiencing.
nothing was good for me this few days. i simply have too much stuff to do.
i requested for a time-out for 1 week, but it seems to have fallen on deaf ears again.
my poor phone. it dropped out of my adidas jacket's pocket while i'm riding on the RIGHT lane on upper bt timah road. it was so dangerous even though i immediately stopped my bike and ran back to find it.. it laid in the middle of the left and centre lane.. (near lane lines) and just as i was about to retrieve it, the traffic light turned green releasing a rush of vehicles.. i was so worried as each vehicle mercilessly drove towards my phone and miss it. *cry* finally. There's a bunch of foreign works at the bus stop, during a short empty interval of 2 seconds, one of them dashed across the road and picked up my phone for me. i am so touched!!! my precious W800i was saved from the wheels of the cars.. i couldn't help thanking them many times and tried on-ing my poor phone. IT'S A MIRACLE! it seems to be prefectly fine except for a crack along the cover. the joystick works fine, the camera works fine, everything is prefectly okie! i'm so relief.. cause i dun have the money to change phone now loh.. + there's no phones which i really like available in the market yet..
i'm really BROKE with only 15cents in my wallet. *cry* and the new week is starting! i have yet to do any revisions.. this SUX!
i ate all the things i shouldn't be eating. AS IF food will make me happy.
i ate chocolate ice cream for lunch and doritos for supper.
so i'm not going to get anywhere near better. new symtoms of getting worse are phlem and periodic headaches.. the flu bug just decided to be a parasite on me.. but it could be because my immunisation system's down due to the among of stress and fatigue i'm experiencing.
nothing was good for me this few days. i simply have too much stuff to do.
i requested for a time-out for 1 week, but it seems to have fallen on deaf ears again.
my poor phone. it dropped out of my adidas jacket's pocket while i'm riding on the RIGHT lane on upper bt timah road. it was so dangerous even though i immediately stopped my bike and ran back to find it.. it laid in the middle of the left and centre lane.. (near lane lines) and just as i was about to retrieve it, the traffic light turned green releasing a rush of vehicles.. i was so worried as each vehicle mercilessly drove towards my phone and miss it. *cry* finally. There's a bunch of foreign works at the bus stop, during a short empty interval of 2 seconds, one of them dashed across the road and picked up my phone for me. i am so touched!!! my precious W800i was saved from the wheels of the cars.. i couldn't help thanking them many times and tried on-ing my poor phone. IT'S A MIRACLE! it seems to be prefectly fine except for a crack along the cover. the joystick works fine, the camera works fine, everything is prefectly okie! i'm so relief.. cause i dun have the money to change phone now loh.. + there's no phones which i really like available in the market yet..
i'm really BROKE with only 15cents in my wallet. *cry* and the new week is starting! i have yet to do any revisions.. this SUX!
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Friday, January 19, 2007
when they say "zhi bao bu zhu huo" i guess it always has a good reasoning behind it.
dun ask me why i did that. cause i dunno.
i still want to ask him why pretend he dunno anything?
what work so hard to maintain something that's dead from within.
maybe its good that he knows. i guess. maybe he can make some impt decisions bah.
dun ask me why i did that. cause i dunno.
i still want to ask him why pretend he dunno anything?
what work so hard to maintain something that's dead from within.
maybe its good that he knows. i guess. maybe he can make some impt decisions bah.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
i'm too free.. that's why i have time to blog. hahaha
anyways. today was a happy day.. cause i run into aini, onnray and beng in engine canteen during lunch!! i'm so happy to be seeing them because its been so long since i last chat with them ( i think it was ginny's bday party in nov 2006)
suddenly i missed chem a bit, cause i would have their company during lecture and tutorials and labs. but i'm glad now i'm in life science, because i am really much more interested in school now! and i still have lionel and felix. so haha its okie. =)
i chatted with them in science (where seow hwee is also) before they (except aini) left for lecture. we den proceed to science lib for a study session. felix came and we discussed our lab report format and stuff.. well school really started, so hope my mugging genes will wake up so that i can work hard this sem too!
i had a small surprise in the afternoon which brightened up my day and i would like to express my gratefulness, cause it seems to make my nose much betterin the afternoon compared to the morning (or it could just be those antibiotics).
i need to type my meeting minutes now and compute the DNA electrophoresis results (so i really did spell wrongly this is the correct one).
and its pouring now so no sun for me =(. i dun like the rain..
anyways. today was a happy day.. cause i run into aini, onnray and beng in engine canteen during lunch!! i'm so happy to be seeing them because its been so long since i last chat with them ( i think it was ginny's bday party in nov 2006)
suddenly i missed chem a bit, cause i would have their company during lecture and tutorials and labs. but i'm glad now i'm in life science, because i am really much more interested in school now! and i still have lionel and felix. so haha its okie. =)
i chatted with them in science (where seow hwee is also) before they (except aini) left for lecture. we den proceed to science lib for a study session. felix came and we discussed our lab report format and stuff.. well school really started, so hope my mugging genes will wake up so that i can work hard this sem too!
i had a small surprise in the afternoon which brightened up my day and i would like to express my gratefulness, cause it seems to make my nose much betterin the afternoon compared to the morning (or it could just be those antibiotics).
i need to type my meeting minutes now and compute the DNA electrophoresis results (so i really did spell wrongly this is the correct one).
and its pouring now so no sun for me =(. i dun like the rain..
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
i'm soooo sick!!
this is getting no where! YIH doctors really sucks sia... eating the medicines they gave have like absolutely no improvement. and i've already been eating all light stuff, like soupy noodles and porridge. still, my conditions doesn't improve!! maybe its due to not enough rest? but i have been sleeping like a pig already!! (well actually, i did not) hahaha
went for the first rehearsal for productions after like damn long lah.. sing till my throat feels worse (maybe that's part of the reason why i didn't get better)
everybody! save ur 24th FEB 2007 (Saturday) 7:30pm onwards free for me!!!! and first and probably the last time you see me on stage performing.. hahahaha.. yeah! must come and support!!
lab today was quite alright, but i can't really imagine next time, because we were all so tired when we came back from lunch.. almost sleeping through my TA's discussion session. we did the same old DNA gel electrophorosis (i think there's spelling errors, but heck!). and it's the same old headache, but amplified, we must do a plasmid map!! aiyo.. (slaps forehead) somebody give me a break.. i just hate doing lab stuff and lab reports. hahaha. + my nose is dying..~~ (that's really not much link though)
haven get kj and yw's presents for their bday party this sunday. going to get with hup tml evening. argh. school just started and i'm all so occupied, i can't believe what will happen next week when all the tutorials sets in!
its so sunny today, i can't believe i'm not enjoying all this sun in a tanning session at sentosa or something. *sobs*
this is getting no where! YIH doctors really sucks sia... eating the medicines they gave have like absolutely no improvement. and i've already been eating all light stuff, like soupy noodles and porridge. still, my conditions doesn't improve!! maybe its due to not enough rest? but i have been sleeping like a pig already!! (well actually, i did not) hahaha
went for the first rehearsal for productions after like damn long lah.. sing till my throat feels worse (maybe that's part of the reason why i didn't get better)
everybody! save ur 24th FEB 2007 (Saturday) 7:30pm onwards free for me!!!! and first and probably the last time you see me on stage performing.. hahahaha.. yeah! must come and support!!
lab today was quite alright, but i can't really imagine next time, because we were all so tired when we came back from lunch.. almost sleeping through my TA's discussion session. we did the same old DNA gel electrophorosis (i think there's spelling errors, but heck!). and it's the same old headache, but amplified, we must do a plasmid map!! aiyo.. (slaps forehead) somebody give me a break.. i just hate doing lab stuff and lab reports. hahaha. + my nose is dying..~~ (that's really not much link though)
haven get kj and yw's presents for their bday party this sunday. going to get with hup tml evening. argh. school just started and i'm all so occupied, i can't believe what will happen next week when all the tutorials sets in!
its so sunny today, i can't believe i'm not enjoying all this sun in a tanning session at sentosa or something. *sobs*
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
my throat is screaming at me the whole day!!
WHY?
i've been a good girl. i ate my lozenges, i ate my antibiotics. so can the germies all just die and go away? (what a thing to say from a life sciences student..) the sore throat virus just went to my nose too!! arghh.. i'm falling sick!
every tuesday and friday is killing me. lessons from 8am all the way to 6pm with only 1 break from 10am-12pm. (i haven tried the real wednesday but i guess it will kill me too.. 10am - 6pm NON stop!) + tuition straight after that.
and did i say i hate the 2102 lecturer.. hai. she sux to the core lah....~~~~~ i wanna complain!!!
WHY?
i've been a good girl. i ate my lozenges, i ate my antibiotics. so can the germies all just die and go away? (what a thing to say from a life sciences student..) the sore throat virus just went to my nose too!! arghh.. i'm falling sick!
every tuesday and friday is killing me. lessons from 8am all the way to 6pm with only 1 break from 10am-12pm. (i haven tried the real wednesday but i guess it will kill me too.. 10am - 6pm NON stop!) + tuition straight after that.
and did i say i hate the 2102 lecturer.. hai. she sux to the core lah....~~~~~ i wanna complain!!!
Monday, January 15, 2007
Thursday, January 11, 2007
there's a lot of decisions to be made in life.
sometimes cruel as it may seem, you have to go against your will and make the right decisions.
good and bad are just a line apart. and you never know if you're being good or bad.
not making decision will only show the selfish side of urself and hurt others.
but once a decision is made, you will have to be responsible for it. even if it means breaking promises and hearts.
i shall be responsible for my own decision, because this time no one else make the decision for me. i made it myself.
i guess time will heal all wounds, but who knows bout those ugly scars??
sometimes cruel as it may seem, you have to go against your will and make the right decisions.
good and bad are just a line apart. and you never know if you're being good or bad.
not making decision will only show the selfish side of urself and hurt others.
but once a decision is made, you will have to be responsible for it. even if it means breaking promises and hearts.
i shall be responsible for my own decision, because this time no one else make the decision for me. i made it myself.
i guess time will heal all wounds, but who knows bout those ugly scars??
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
i'm always bad at making decisions.
i can't decide where to go. i can't decide what movies to watch. i can't decide what to eat..
this time. i can't even decide who i like more.
and someone else made the decision for me. it might not be what i want. but i couldn't do better than that too. and i accepted it. i think i'm hopeless. i feel so useless.. i can't do anything but to accept his decision for me. because i can't be hurting anyone more by making them wait. its me. my wobbly nature. my unstable mindset. i think i suck as a human. to a point such that i hate myself.
the cold wind blew on my face body and feet as i was making my way back from tuition in braddell. it didn't make me felt clearer. i simply felt left alone in this real world which is so cold. why couldn't i make the decision?! i should have done it much earlier. that would have prevented all the hurting and heartbreaking.
i have a free day to think bout things tml..
i can't decide where to go. i can't decide what movies to watch. i can't decide what to eat..
this time. i can't even decide who i like more.
and someone else made the decision for me. it might not be what i want. but i couldn't do better than that too. and i accepted it. i think i'm hopeless. i feel so useless.. i can't do anything but to accept his decision for me. because i can't be hurting anyone more by making them wait. its me. my wobbly nature. my unstable mindset. i think i suck as a human. to a point such that i hate myself.
the cold wind blew on my face body and feet as i was making my way back from tuition in braddell. it didn't make me felt clearer. i simply felt left alone in this real world which is so cold. why couldn't i make the decision?! i should have done it much earlier. that would have prevented all the hurting and heartbreaking.
i have a free day to think bout things tml..
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
at that moment when i saw his face...
i felt tore apart.
i felt deeply guilty.
i've never felt so stressed in my life.
i'm sorry to those i've hurt. i'm really sorry.
today is the 1st day of school...
time went up very quickly.. before i knew it.. classes ended. i've breeze through 1 day.. thinking about perhaps somethings but not those taught.. hahaha.. sounds kinda funny..
we had a silent dinner. well.. it wasn't exactly silent.. he was talking to luke i was talking to luther. but we didn't converse.. i went back to sleep leaving him alone in the dining hall.
he came back pulling me out of my comfortable bed. he asked me a lot of things. and i finally confessed. so. i'm in love with someone else. and that was it. he did something that shocked me to tears. i was tore apart. i couldn't stop loving both of them. what should i do.....
i'm so unfaithful...
i felt tore apart.
i felt deeply guilty.
i've never felt so stressed in my life.
i'm sorry to those i've hurt. i'm really sorry.
today is the 1st day of school...
time went up very quickly.. before i knew it.. classes ended. i've breeze through 1 day.. thinking about perhaps somethings but not those taught.. hahaha.. sounds kinda funny..
we had a silent dinner. well.. it wasn't exactly silent.. he was talking to luke i was talking to luther. but we didn't converse.. i went back to sleep leaving him alone in the dining hall.
he came back pulling me out of my comfortable bed. he asked me a lot of things. and i finally confessed. so. i'm in love with someone else. and that was it. he did something that shocked me to tears. i was tore apart. i couldn't stop loving both of them. what should i do.....
i'm so unfaithful...
Monday, January 08, 2007
1st day of sem 2 06/07.
checked-in so that i can move back to my room.
its sort of a relief now i'm out of c414.. if not TY will be chasing my back asking me to clean up the room..
hahahaha..
my mind's in a mess.. not really ready to welcome the new sem..
not really ready to do alot of stuff...
hmm... i guess i'm going to sleep now.. 8am class tml!!
checked-in so that i can move back to my room.
its sort of a relief now i'm out of c414.. if not TY will be chasing my back asking me to clean up the room..
hahahaha..
my mind's in a mess.. not really ready to welcome the new sem..
not really ready to do alot of stuff...
hmm... i guess i'm going to sleep now.. 8am class tml!!
Friday, September 29, 2006
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
i'm angry angry angry angry!!!
with no one but myself..
just had my first CA of the sem for my new major core..LSM1102 Molecular Genetics.. and i totally screwed it!!
the worse thing is the second question. its such a give away..asking if the pair of genetic markers are linked.. and its already obvious its link..and now i can't remember if i wrote linked or not linked.. and just to be sure.. i used the formula..Non-parental ditypes + 1/2xtetratypes then wholething divide by total number of asci.. and i know!! its NPD.. and i dunno why the hell i add the parental ditypes to the tetratype!! and in the end.. i got 66% and i concluded it not linked!! what is wrong with me!!!
arghhhh.. frustrated...
with no one but myself..
just had my first CA of the sem for my new major core..LSM1102 Molecular Genetics.. and i totally screwed it!!
the worse thing is the second question. its such a give away..asking if the pair of genetic markers are linked.. and its already obvious its link..and now i can't remember if i wrote linked or not linked.. and just to be sure.. i used the formula..Non-parental ditypes + 1/2xtetratypes then wholething divide by total number of asci.. and i know!! its NPD.. and i dunno why the hell i add the parental ditypes to the tetratype!! and in the end.. i got 66% and i concluded it not linked!! what is wrong with me!!!
arghhhh.. frustrated...
Sunday, September 03, 2006
23 August 2006, Wednesday..
one crazyday night in hall..
me trying to act cute as always..
24th August 2006, Thursday..
coped from whosgoing.sg.. Block A ppl at Hall bash!
1st September 2006, Friday..
Happy 8th Monthsary..
here's mervin (our 8th month old monkey son) smiling happily..
his prezzie for me...
i'm the fierce girlfriend? =(
and he is the pitiful one!? =S
3rd September 2006, Sunday..
one crazy
me trying to act cute as always..
24th August 2006, Thursday..
coped from whosgoing.sg.. Block A ppl at Hall bash!
1st September 2006, Friday..
Happy 8th Monthsary..
here's mervin (our 8th month old monkey son) smiling happily..
his prezzie for me...
i'm the fierce girlfriend? =(
and he is the pitiful one!? =S
3rd September 2006, Sunday..
slacked the whole day in hall. eat and sleep and eat and sleep only..!!
caught doing nothing at 7pm and was dragged to run for X-campus... after not been running for sooooooo long... (months and months!) i'm happy with my timing.. block A got 3rd for girls overall! =D
me and my timing..
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
i'm very sian..!!!
haiz. feeling weird when he first say that he's not going states.. maybe if his going den i have more reasons to move back to hall bah.. i tot i would be really excited to know that he decided not to go. but.. perhaps i was all prepared for him to leave and when he say he's going to stay.. it doesn't sound so nice anymore. (anyways his reason for staying also have nothing to do with me..)
now super sian!!!! he's at studio again.. =(
and i just can't stop comparing studio and myself.. i mean. i know clearly that studio is work, its unavoidable, its graded, its important to him, its its its... and why.. why must i be jealous at the models that he does?!
*faints* stacy is mad.. pouring vinegar over some cardboards and think they gets more dedication from her bf...
haiz. feeling weird when he first say that he's not going states.. maybe if his going den i have more reasons to move back to hall bah.. i tot i would be really excited to know that he decided not to go. but.. perhaps i was all prepared for him to leave and when he say he's going to stay.. it doesn't sound so nice anymore. (anyways his reason for staying also have nothing to do with me..)
now super sian!!!! he's at studio again.. =(
and i just can't stop comparing studio and myself.. i mean. i know clearly that studio is work, its unavoidable, its graded, its important to him, its its its... and why.. why must i be jealous at the models that he does?!
*faints* stacy is mad.. pouring vinegar over some cardboards and think they gets more dedication from her bf...
Sunday, August 13, 2006
school's starting for me tml..
appealling for ppl that's taking the same module with me...
LSM1101 Biochemistry
LSM1102 Molecular Genetics
LSM1103 Biodiversity
ST1232 Statistics for Life Science
GEM2900 Understanding Uncertainty
SSA2215 Biophysical Environment of Singapore
labs are mostly in group 2.. hehe.. more ppl to go lecture with me pleasE!!!!
appealling for ppl that's taking the same module with me...
LSM1101 Biochemistry
LSM1102 Molecular Genetics
LSM1103 Biodiversity
ST1232 Statistics for Life Science
GEM2900 Understanding Uncertainty
SSA2215 Biophysical Environment of Singapore
labs are mostly in group 2.. hehe.. more ppl to go lecture with me pleasE!!!!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Day 1 at the airport.. and my dinner!!
Day 1 and Day 2
Day 3.. we went to danshui yuren pier and shihlin night market.. hehehe.. its chinese vdae so they bought us flowers.. =D so sweet!!
Day 4.. we're out a bit late.. lotsa food and shopping!
Day 5.. we sorta run out of money.. hahah.. so we went sightseeing.. the beach is really nice..!! =)
Monday, July 24, 2006
this few days passed soooo slowly... everything seem to be moving in slow motion.. including time..
but i'm happy! i hope september never comes. never ever come... can we just stop the time now!? i dun mind not going taiwan. as long as i have him..
i have a 5% chance. haha.. if his visa dun get approved (means he wants to go..) but i was actually giving him tips on how to make the chance of getting the visa higher.. how contridicting can i get? so hard to be hiding all the feelings. so hard to shallow that "can you dun go" everytime i sees him..
but iconically i rejected that long-dist suggestion. did i just did something wrong?? although i thought i was pretty sure about that decision.. somehow i wished that he had stopped me.. i wish that he insist on staying together.. because i couldn't imagine not having him around.. i dun wanna hearing news of him with another girl.. i wish.. i wish he dun have to go....
7 is my fave number.. 7 is the number of perfection.. 7 is the person i love. 7 is the person i want to marry. 7 is the person leaving. i am upset...
but i'm happy! i hope september never comes. never ever come... can we just stop the time now!? i dun mind not going taiwan. as long as i have him..
i have a 5% chance. haha.. if his visa dun get approved (means he wants to go..) but i was actually giving him tips on how to make the chance of getting the visa higher.. how contridicting can i get? so hard to be hiding all the feelings. so hard to shallow that "can you dun go" everytime i sees him..
but iconically i rejected that long-dist suggestion. did i just did something wrong?? although i thought i was pretty sure about that decision.. somehow i wished that he had stopped me.. i wish that he insist on staying together.. because i couldn't imagine not having him around.. i dun wanna hearing news of him with another girl.. i wish.. i wish he dun have to go....
7 is my fave number.. 7 is the number of perfection.. 7 is the person i love. 7 is the person i want to marry. 7 is the person leaving. i am upset...
Sunday, July 23, 2006
21 july. maybe i shouldn't have asked. that fateful call. that devastating news.
i'm what you call the great depression. hahaha.. i dunno what i'm doing. too much to bear. too much time to be thinking.
how i wish school starts now. and i can just throw my thoughts into studying.. its like another freshman year. its like this year didn't happened. the last 7mths are all fake. i must have been living in a dream.
the dream will wake up this september.. and i will be singing wake me up when september ends..
i BADLY needs a hug...........
i'm what you call the great depression. hahaha.. i dunno what i'm doing. too much to bear. too much time to be thinking.
how i wish school starts now. and i can just throw my thoughts into studying.. its like another freshman year. its like this year didn't happened. the last 7mths are all fake. i must have been living in a dream.
the dream will wake up this september.. and i will be singing wake me up when september ends..
i BADLY needs a hug...........
Thursday, July 20, 2006
after one crazy night at zouk.. i seem to be having an hangover and i can't sleep!!!
(although i concussed straight away when i reached home....)
crazy nightout at ZOUK! with kendrick, yix, engene.. new found friend cendrid (dunno how to spell..) an long lost friend juxuan~
just wanna thank my dearie max for being soooo sweet the whole week.. thanks darling for waiting for me for my tuition to end so that we can watch pirates of the carribean together. thanks for keeping your promise and pei me one whole night.. thanks for coming down from home to pick me up from work just to pei me take mrt to braddell for my tuition.. thanks for waiting up for me when i went to chiong even though i was home only at 4am.. (and doing that continously for 2 weeks...) all just to ensure that i'm safe and sound... i feel sooo blessed out of a suddenly..
Thanks dearieee... (This is actually 2 different days... i think my dinner was delicious!!!)
(although i concussed straight away when i reached home....)
crazy nightout at ZOUK! with kendrick, yix, engene.. new found friend cendrid (dunno how to spell..) an long lost friend juxuan~
just wanna thank my dearie max for being soooo sweet the whole week.. thanks darling for waiting for me for my tuition to end so that we can watch pirates of the carribean together. thanks for keeping your promise and pei me one whole night.. thanks for coming down from home to pick me up from work just to pei me take mrt to braddell for my tuition.. thanks for waiting up for me when i went to chiong even though i was home only at 4am.. (and doing that continously for 2 weeks...) all just to ensure that i'm safe and sound... i feel sooo blessed out of a suddenly..
Thanks dearieee... (This is actually 2 different days... i think my dinner was delicious!!!)
Monday, July 17, 2006
Friday, July 14, 2006
15 minutes late for work!!
all the rain's fault!!!!
the weather has been at its worse time! pouring right before i wanna step my foot out!! this cause me.. who has been calculating time based on a motorcycle ride.. to be late!!
hai.. was watching taiwan tyhoon news before it pours... could it be that taiwan tyhoon blow till singapore? (okie. stop laughing at me!!!)
Anyways.. back to the happy things... hehe
Monday..
That pig says that he wun wake up at 1pm.. but at 12 i called him and he's still sleeping!! we met up in town to catch superman returns.. actually wanted to watch at The Cathay.. but their earlier show is full.. in the end we walked to PS to catch the show.. he was very nice to send me to clementi for my tuition.. we even walked from the mrt station to my tutee's house.. (sounds romantic for no reasons...)
and the best thing is he volunteered to wait for my tuition to end!!! hehe.. cause both of us ain't feeling hungry yet.. we decided to go to my house.. we played with the hardgay toy which he bought back from japan.. it's soooo cute..!!
all the rain's fault!!!!
the weather has been at its worse time! pouring right before i wanna step my foot out!! this cause me.. who has been calculating time based on a motorcycle ride.. to be late!!
hai.. was watching taiwan tyhoon news before it pours... could it be that taiwan tyhoon blow till singapore? (okie. stop laughing at me!!!)
Anyways.. back to the happy things... hehe
Monday..
That pig says that he wun wake up at 1pm.. but at 12 i called him and he's still sleeping!! we met up in town to catch superman returns.. actually wanted to watch at The Cathay.. but their earlier show is full.. in the end we walked to PS to catch the show.. he was very nice to send me to clementi for my tuition.. we even walked from the mrt station to my tutee's house.. (sounds romantic for no reasons...)
and the best thing is he volunteered to wait for my tuition to end!!! hehe.. cause both of us ain't feeling hungry yet.. we decided to go to my house.. we played with the hardgay toy which he bought back from japan.. it's soooo cute..!!
Thursday, July 13, 2006
there seem to be some happy things in my life..
wednesday
i was dying for this day to come.. didn't think that the 6 days from break camp to now passed by sooooo slowly.. the whole day i was in a excited mood and was very chirpy at work.. i keep counting down to the hours before i will see my beloved max.. hehe
i went home after work to kill sometime.. left a bit late for the flight.. i endured the long mrt ride from jurong all the way to changi airport.. but i was a bit late.. before i reach. he already touched down.. i ran all the way from the mrt (T2) to the skytrain and to his belt.. (t2!!) i was so breathless when i finally reached belt 20.
i was waiting for him at the other end while he didn't came out from there.. it was so drama loh..
he bought the hardgay toy back from japan!! hehehe.. soooo cool.. i can't wait to play with it!
my new toy from japan... soooo cute! *squeeze*
we took a cab to his house where he unpacked and we had delicious supper made by his parents. after bathing and all, he showed me the photos he took during the trip.. very little ppl.. alot of buildings..
i was really tired and fall asleep to his lullabye.. (actually i fall asleep before he start singing..)
i woke up at 7:45 to prepare for work.. he was sleeping happily.. (i think he was watching world cup..). abit weird as i ate the breakfast prepared by his mom and try to make small talks.. i finally left for work and even arrived early...
sunday
this is supposely the big day that we're preparing for.. youth xtravaganza 2006..
there is 1) dance competition 2) 4-a-side street soccer tournment 3) 3-on-3 basketball competition (which i am the organiser..) 4) a bazzar..
this is the day which our whole yec was actively planning and the so called big blast! of the year..
i wake up at 7am in the morning.. actually i have to report at 8am but i was almost half an hour late.. i have to admit i was quite at a lost at this year's 3-on-3.. the one that we did 2 years ago was so much better.. maybe due to some lack of sleep, early in the morning and i was damn high..
the under 18 prelims started without much hassle.. although we were almost 1 hour behind time. but due to 2 groups never turn up, we have almost 1.5 hours of unnecessary time too.. so the 2 of them cancel out and we were pretty on time. half way through the prelims, it started raining.. what seem like a passing shower turned out to be a storm! likely, it stopped after a while of pouring.. we spend another half an hour drying the court.
soon it was 12:30pm and the open category teams came in. open only have 7 teams, so yec formed another team to make up the groupings. me dean and bernard and a volunteer formed the team called garfield.. (quite cute right? hehe)
but open category was a big hassle.. one of the teams was kicked out of the top 4 and complained that the other team was very rough.. it was indeed stated in our rules that every player only have 4 personal foul before they are fouled out.. but.. i didn't read that rules and regulations.. (okie. that's my fault..) so in the beginning we say no foul out.. and obviously some teams become vicious and do things that are despitable..
i was really quite lost at what to do.. lucky dean bernard and whye wan was around to come to a decision.. we managed to solve the problem peacefully... however.. there come another problem..
for the under18 category, there's a team representing NeeSoon East CSC.. i did not know that their fees are supposed to be paid by the CSC and therefore asked the captain to clear the registration fees when he came. later in the day there has been refund and repaying going on.. because our CSO dun allow them to play without playing.. anyways.. their in charge and danny was totally logged headed and everything..
the next irritation thing is that during the semis, it started drizzling and it wun stop!! the open cat decided to use penalty shot to rank the 1st 2nd and 3rd 4th.. the under 18s being more young and adventurous decided to play in the rain..
we had our prize giving ceremony in the hall..
the most interesting that happened that day is that one of the 18 year old basketball compeitiors was actually interested in me and want to woo me if i'm not attach.. haha.. talking about youngsters nowadays..........
i was too tired and decided to give world cup finals a miss... they all pang sei one loh.. what go clarke quay.. *sian..
wednesday
i was dying for this day to come.. didn't think that the 6 days from break camp to now passed by sooooo slowly.. the whole day i was in a excited mood and was very chirpy at work.. i keep counting down to the hours before i will see my beloved max.. hehe
i went home after work to kill sometime.. left a bit late for the flight.. i endured the long mrt ride from jurong all the way to changi airport.. but i was a bit late.. before i reach. he already touched down.. i ran all the way from the mrt (T2) to the skytrain and to his belt.. (t2!!) i was so breathless when i finally reached belt 20.
i was waiting for him at the other end while he didn't came out from there.. it was so drama loh..
he bought the hardgay toy back from japan!! hehehe.. soooo cool.. i can't wait to play with it!
my new toy from japan... soooo cute! *squeeze*
we took a cab to his house where he unpacked and we had delicious supper made by his parents. after bathing and all, he showed me the photos he took during the trip.. very little ppl.. alot of buildings..
i was really tired and fall asleep to his lullabye.. (actually i fall asleep before he start singing..)
i woke up at 7:45 to prepare for work.. he was sleeping happily.. (i think he was watching world cup..). abit weird as i ate the breakfast prepared by his mom and try to make small talks.. i finally left for work and even arrived early...
sunday
this is supposely the big day that we're preparing for.. youth xtravaganza 2006..
there is 1) dance competition 2) 4-a-side street soccer tournment 3) 3-on-3 basketball competition (which i am the organiser..) 4) a bazzar..
this is the day which our whole yec was actively planning and the so called big blast! of the year..
i wake up at 7am in the morning.. actually i have to report at 8am but i was almost half an hour late.. i have to admit i was quite at a lost at this year's 3-on-3.. the one that we did 2 years ago was so much better.. maybe due to some lack of sleep, early in the morning and i was damn high..
the under 18 prelims started without much hassle.. although we were almost 1 hour behind time. but due to 2 groups never turn up, we have almost 1.5 hours of unnecessary time too.. so the 2 of them cancel out and we were pretty on time. half way through the prelims, it started raining.. what seem like a passing shower turned out to be a storm! likely, it stopped after a while of pouring.. we spend another half an hour drying the court.
soon it was 12:30pm and the open category teams came in. open only have 7 teams, so yec formed another team to make up the groupings. me dean and bernard and a volunteer formed the team called garfield.. (quite cute right? hehe)
but open category was a big hassle.. one of the teams was kicked out of the top 4 and complained that the other team was very rough.. it was indeed stated in our rules that every player only have 4 personal foul before they are fouled out.. but.. i didn't read that rules and regulations.. (okie. that's my fault..) so in the beginning we say no foul out.. and obviously some teams become vicious and do things that are despitable..
i was really quite lost at what to do.. lucky dean bernard and whye wan was around to come to a decision.. we managed to solve the problem peacefully... however.. there come another problem..
for the under18 category, there's a team representing NeeSoon East CSC.. i did not know that their fees are supposed to be paid by the CSC and therefore asked the captain to clear the registration fees when he came. later in the day there has been refund and repaying going on.. because our CSO dun allow them to play without playing.. anyways.. their in charge and danny was totally logged headed and everything..
the next irritation thing is that during the semis, it started drizzling and it wun stop!! the open cat decided to use penalty shot to rank the 1st 2nd and 3rd 4th.. the under 18s being more young and adventurous decided to play in the rain..
we had our prize giving ceremony in the hall..
the most interesting that happened that day is that one of the 18 year old basketball compeitiors was actually interested in me and want to woo me if i'm not attach.. haha.. talking about youngsters nowadays..........
i was too tired and decided to give world cup finals a miss... they all pang sei one loh.. what go clarke quay.. *sian..
Thursday, July 06, 2006
27th June 2006, Tuesday, 07:00am
i dragged myself outta bed.. (was a bit shocked to find myself IN beng and felix's room) i washed up like a snail.. our OG gathered and make our way to lt27 for breakfast..
i had 3 pieces of bread with peanut butter.. isis seem a bit dead in the morning.. all no energy.. next on is the sponser talk.. our sponser is emitasia.. basically promoting times magazine.. actually i'm rather interested but not by the magazine but their free gift.. seem like kendrick and jiesheng subscript to it..
after the sponser talk, we have to wait for dispatchment to the battle games. so before that, all scamp seniors decided to teach the freshies the kill duck cheer (ipoh eh tai tai hey~ ya).. haha.. its quite funny lah.. the actions are...1. slap the duck2. struggle the duck3. shot the duck in the head4. swing the duck in the neck5. put the duck in the soup
anyways it was quite fun lah.. our house was the last house to go to the fields.. so we formed a formation with the 4 flags in front and all of us walking in line with the flags.. seem kinda grand.. when we reached the track. the seniors formed the bridge for freshies to go under.. its really very fun lah!!but our behaviour was later (quoted from those that knows knows..) "taking your own sweet time"
next on we had battle games.. firstly man, toilet bowl, poo poo.. something like hai dai lah.. den water droplets.. where we have to fill up a 1.5l bottle using a 0.5l bottle with holes in the bottom and have to run about 20 metres to the 1.5l bottle..
i dragged myself outta bed.. (was a bit shocked to find myself IN beng and felix's room) i washed up like a snail.. our OG gathered and make our way to lt27 for breakfast..
i had 3 pieces of bread with peanut butter.. isis seem a bit dead in the morning.. all no energy.. next on is the sponser talk.. our sponser is emitasia.. basically promoting times magazine.. actually i'm rather interested but not by the magazine but their free gift.. seem like kendrick and jiesheng subscript to it..
after the sponser talk, we have to wait for dispatchment to the battle games. so before that, all scamp seniors decided to teach the freshies the kill duck cheer (ipoh eh tai tai hey~ ya).. haha.. its quite funny lah.. the actions are...1. slap the duck2. struggle the duck3. shot the duck in the head4. swing the duck in the neck5. put the duck in the soup
anyways it was quite fun lah.. our house was the last house to go to the fields.. so we formed a formation with the 4 flags in front and all of us walking in line with the flags.. seem kinda grand.. when we reached the track. the seniors formed the bridge for freshies to go under.. its really very fun lah!!but our behaviour was later (quoted from those that knows knows..) "taking your own sweet time"
next on we had battle games.. firstly man, toilet bowl, poo poo.. something like hai dai lah.. den water droplets.. where we have to fill up a 1.5l bottle using a 0.5l bottle with holes in the bottom and have to run about 20 metres to the 1.5l bottle..
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
26th July 2006, Monday, 7:00am
we (me mich and pam) were practically dragged out of our dreams... the freshies only coming at 9am.. why we have to wake up SO early?!?!?!?!
with unopened eyes we proceed to the toilets to wash up....
we changed to the bright orange SENIORS tee.. feels weird because just about a year ago i was in some tee shirt and coming to LT23 to register as a freshie..i bought waffles for breakfast.. our famous dilys green waffle.. hahaha... just as i was happily eating (the time was like just pass 8am..) someone came and.. "isis..? your freshie is here.."
i'm like.. WHAT!? so early?! the rest are still carrying goodie bags to lt29.. i proceed to view the early bird... she is SI EN... her reasons for coming so early is because she wanted to take the shun fong che from her daddy... fair enough..
me and aini decided to stay in the lecture theatre and awaits the rest of the freshies...
i can't remember who came next.. because for the next hour the lecture theatre was buzzling with life and full of bags all over the place... haha.. there was a short introduction and scamp comm and sci club introduced themselves... after all this one ear in one ear out stuffs.. we all went out to play ice breakers.. scamp level fire hunter earthquake.. and some OG level games... next on is lunch! lunch is okie lah... (compared to last yr which was worse i think...).
right after lunch we were to check-in into raffles hall.. same old old and dirty raffles hall!! with very few and dirty toilets...!!!! we split into 4 person per room.. i'm with huiting, si en and fiona.. we went back to lt29 immediately after settling down.. (oh.. how i just wish to lie on that bed.. although it looks super dirty.........)
it's my fave part of any camp.. mass dance!! yooohoo!! the cheorography was the same as some steps repeats.. the whole thing have alot of repeat steps so quite easy to learn i guess... so we were doing a quick recap when the freshies are having a briefing on the next game, ni yao qu na li, i didn't learn it during prep camp so was practically struggling to catch up with all the steps.. the seniors will have to preform once for the freshies... but it was decided that we're too lousy and have to learn again.. so all of us try to catch the steps.. after we finished the 1st and 2nd part.. we're requested to preform for the freshies... me and felix (my old time dance partner) pair and we were standing at the front.. halfway through the dance we sort of lost track of the orientation and i even forget the steps.. so i just anyhow fa hui.. and shake about.. (soooo embarassing!!!)
after the mass dance we proceed to the game.. [Ni Yao Qu Na Li].. i dun feel like introducing the game because i dun even quite understand.. but coming to think of it.. i think this game is badly planned.. the station masters are all sooo unhelpful and the rules programme comm set is soo unclear.. most of the clues they give is unclear.. and many of my freshies are not enjoying.. i would say its quite a flop.. however.. we managed to complete the stations with some help from programmes head suanhui and even got some not bad placing in the 12 OGs..
after the game we have our annual round of cheering!!! its also the parts i hate most in any camps.. but this year it feels different.. because i am the one teaching it instead of the one learning it.. i would say this change of stand have indeed added new favours to cheering!! to think i'm actually enjoying this time round..! =)
This year we have another fun element.. ---> lionel!! he's gonna fake as a freshie!! haha.. he arrived around 6 when we came back from the toopid game.. it was quite fun acting as a senior to him!! haha.. and it is even more fun seeing him acting as a freshie!! its also good as he didn't come for 2 days of the prep camp!!
We played somemore icebreakers after dinner.. we played 'ouch obi obi' (the slap thigh game..) and i was slapped blue black by lina and felix... me and felix thought we have someone who made 3 mistakes to do forfeit.. but in the end its actually 2 times only!! and there's 3 of them.. (AND I AM ONE OF THEM!!!) so its me lionel and zongming.. we couldn't think of any forfeit pole dancing was proposed.. firstly.. i acted as the pole and the 2 of them twist and turn around me.. den i have to dance around them as they posed as 2 poles..!!
we had night games after all the rah rah-ing.. played the watergun shot ping pong ball, 123 stop, eat apple in a pill and step balloons.. i would say i still enjoys 123 stop! the most!! i love to take pictures when they have to stop!! hahaha.. nothing much during night games.. but we learn a few new cheers from pamster..
after all the fun and excitment.. its SP time!! haha.. i would love to play SP but.. there's an obvious shortage of GUYS... sooo.. no choice.. me aini pam and mich blindfolded all of the guys and freshies before taking them in rounds to their destination.. because we're one of the later groups to leave.. so the other group is already waiting for us at the destination. our pairing group is KING AUTHUR.. we had some fun disturbing most of them.. hehehe.. but the freshies are very sensitive.. the moment we're near they stop talking..! aiyo.. no fun at all!!! =(however.. i would say that SP session is really a meet and talk open blindfold bye bye thing.. i dun even contact my SP anymore.. althought i still clearing remembers his scary face during fright night..
After SP.. our OG went to NUH 7-11 for supper.. the 7-11 was so lousy!! the whole shop like only have 3 cup of cup noodles!!! -_- the stupid thing is that when we're at 7-11 king authur came too!!!! and the blindfolded freshies could recognise their voices!! so stupid.. we finally made our way back to raffles hall.. i bathed at the creepy toilet with NO hot water! *pissed*.. i was suppose to be sleeping with val huiting and sien.. in the end.. i concussed in the room of the senior boys.. sharing the same bed as pamster..
we (me mich and pam) were practically dragged out of our dreams... the freshies only coming at 9am.. why we have to wake up SO early?!?!?!?!
with unopened eyes we proceed to the toilets to wash up....
we changed to the bright orange SENIORS tee.. feels weird because just about a year ago i was in some tee shirt and coming to LT23 to register as a freshie..i bought waffles for breakfast.. our famous dilys green waffle.. hahaha... just as i was happily eating (the time was like just pass 8am..) someone came and.. "isis..? your freshie is here.."
i'm like.. WHAT!? so early?! the rest are still carrying goodie bags to lt29.. i proceed to view the early bird... she is SI EN... her reasons for coming so early is because she wanted to take the shun fong che from her daddy... fair enough..
me and aini decided to stay in the lecture theatre and awaits the rest of the freshies...
i can't remember who came next.. because for the next hour the lecture theatre was buzzling with life and full of bags all over the place... haha.. there was a short introduction and scamp comm and sci club introduced themselves... after all this one ear in one ear out stuffs.. we all went out to play ice breakers.. scamp level fire hunter earthquake.. and some OG level games... next on is lunch! lunch is okie lah... (compared to last yr which was worse i think...).
right after lunch we were to check-in into raffles hall.. same old old and dirty raffles hall!! with very few and dirty toilets...!!!! we split into 4 person per room.. i'm with huiting, si en and fiona.. we went back to lt29 immediately after settling down.. (oh.. how i just wish to lie on that bed.. although it looks super dirty.........)
it's my fave part of any camp.. mass dance!! yooohoo!! the cheorography was the same as some steps repeats.. the whole thing have alot of repeat steps so quite easy to learn i guess... so we were doing a quick recap when the freshies are having a briefing on the next game, ni yao qu na li, i didn't learn it during prep camp so was practically struggling to catch up with all the steps.. the seniors will have to preform once for the freshies... but it was decided that we're too lousy and have to learn again.. so all of us try to catch the steps.. after we finished the 1st and 2nd part.. we're requested to preform for the freshies... me and felix (my old time dance partner) pair and we were standing at the front.. halfway through the dance we sort of lost track of the orientation and i even forget the steps.. so i just anyhow fa hui.. and shake about.. (soooo embarassing!!!)
after the mass dance we proceed to the game.. [Ni Yao Qu Na Li].. i dun feel like introducing the game because i dun even quite understand.. but coming to think of it.. i think this game is badly planned.. the station masters are all sooo unhelpful and the rules programme comm set is soo unclear.. most of the clues they give is unclear.. and many of my freshies are not enjoying.. i would say its quite a flop.. however.. we managed to complete the stations with some help from programmes head suanhui and even got some not bad placing in the 12 OGs..
after the game we have our annual round of cheering!!! its also the parts i hate most in any camps.. but this year it feels different.. because i am the one teaching it instead of the one learning it.. i would say this change of stand have indeed added new favours to cheering!! to think i'm actually enjoying this time round..! =)
This year we have another fun element.. ---> lionel!! he's gonna fake as a freshie!! haha.. he arrived around 6 when we came back from the toopid game.. it was quite fun acting as a senior to him!! haha.. and it is even more fun seeing him acting as a freshie!! its also good as he didn't come for 2 days of the prep camp!!
We played somemore icebreakers after dinner.. we played 'ouch obi obi' (the slap thigh game..) and i was slapped blue black by lina and felix... me and felix thought we have someone who made 3 mistakes to do forfeit.. but in the end its actually 2 times only!! and there's 3 of them.. (AND I AM ONE OF THEM!!!) so its me lionel and zongming.. we couldn't think of any forfeit pole dancing was proposed.. firstly.. i acted as the pole and the 2 of them twist and turn around me.. den i have to dance around them as they posed as 2 poles..!!
we had night games after all the rah rah-ing.. played the watergun shot ping pong ball, 123 stop, eat apple in a pill and step balloons.. i would say i still enjoys 123 stop! the most!! i love to take pictures when they have to stop!! hahaha.. nothing much during night games.. but we learn a few new cheers from pamster..
after all the fun and excitment.. its SP time!! haha.. i would love to play SP but.. there's an obvious shortage of GUYS... sooo.. no choice.. me aini pam and mich blindfolded all of the guys and freshies before taking them in rounds to their destination.. because we're one of the later groups to leave.. so the other group is already waiting for us at the destination. our pairing group is KING AUTHUR.. we had some fun disturbing most of them.. hehehe.. but the freshies are very sensitive.. the moment we're near they stop talking..! aiyo.. no fun at all!!! =(however.. i would say that SP session is really a meet and talk open blindfold bye bye thing.. i dun even contact my SP anymore.. althought i still clearing remembers his scary face during fright night..
After SP.. our OG went to NUH 7-11 for supper.. the 7-11 was so lousy!! the whole shop like only have 3 cup of cup noodles!!! -_- the stupid thing is that when we're at 7-11 king authur came too!!!! and the blindfolded freshies could recognise their voices!! so stupid.. we finally made our way back to raffles hall.. i bathed at the creepy toilet with NO hot water! *pissed*.. i was suppose to be sleeping with val huiting and sien.. in the end.. i concussed in the room of the senior boys.. sharing the same bed as pamster..
25th July 2005, Sunday 8:30pm
a few of us gathered in LT25... really quite few considering that no all seniors are around..
after dawnie's final briefing.. which finally ended at about 10+, all 8 of us proceed out to call our freshies.. i called huixuan and jiesheng.. (a bit awkward because i have to sound like a SENIOR!!) wahahaha...
we shifted our stuff to lt22 and started writing the freshies' name on the ID tag.. i was really hungry after awhile and lionel was going home.. so we all took a lift to fong seng to get supper..
(he drove us there and back..) after dinner we all cleared up and decided to sleep.. but we ended up playing asshole daidee at the back of the lecture theatre when the rest of the seniors are already meeting zhou gong.. finally around 2:30am.. we decided to tuck in to our sleeping bags.. we found this cosy and not so cold corridor in lt 22 and gossip for awhile before we dozed off....
a few of us gathered in LT25... really quite few considering that no all seniors are around..
after dawnie's final briefing.. which finally ended at about 10+, all 8 of us proceed out to call our freshies.. i called huixuan and jiesheng.. (a bit awkward because i have to sound like a SENIOR!!) wahahaha...
we shifted our stuff to lt22 and started writing the freshies' name on the ID tag.. i was really hungry after awhile and lionel was going home.. so we all took a lift to fong seng to get supper..
(he drove us there and back..) after dinner we all cleared up and decided to sleep.. but we ended up playing asshole daidee at the back of the lecture theatre when the rest of the seniors are already meeting zhou gong.. finally around 2:30am.. we decided to tuck in to our sleeping bags.. we found this cosy and not so cold corridor in lt 22 and gossip for awhile before we dozed off....
Sunday, June 25, 2006
last update..
he called.. finally!! but the whole japan is using 3G network.. so he can't autoroam there........ -_- moreover. the guesthouse he's staying at have no internet access at all.. so he can't msn too!! what is this siazz!!!
He says that the place he's staying at is call Kawazaki.. (i ask him if can ship one motorcycle back or not... preferably kawa KRR!! lOlx.. *dream bike*)
anyways.. can order my birkies already!! linda found another person.. i'm so happy!!
he called.. finally!! but the whole japan is using 3G network.. so he can't autoroam there........ -_- moreover. the guesthouse he's staying at have no internet access at all.. so he can't msn too!! what is this siazz!!!
He says that the place he's staying at is call Kawazaki.. (i ask him if can ship one motorcycle back or not... preferably kawa KRR!! lOlx.. *dream bike*)
anyways.. can order my birkies already!! linda found another person.. i'm so happy!!
i'm blogging at work again..
wanted to upload the photos from redang but max doesn't seem to be able to find the time to transfer the photos to me..
had a gathering with seekee and linda on friday.. i miss them SOOOOO much!!!
wanted to visit max cause he's been sick for 1 whole week.. but was rejected.. (i was quite upset over that actually..)
but now he's in japan already and i can't complaint also... but he didn't call me back like he promised.. *sprout*
blog without picture is soooooo boring....
anyways.. i'm suppose to be ordering birkies today... BUT!! hai.. the website increased the free delivery from $249 to $279.. and we were 4 dollar less!!!! arghhh... now i cannot order.. =( UPSET!!!!
but the happy thing is that a few days ago i reserved tickets to taipei.. me zhen hanwei and yixiang is going taipei on 29 july!! (isn't that exciting!!?!?!) den cause when i reserved the tickets i didn't put the correct particulars for zhen (cause i couldn't get her on the phone.. she was already meeting zhou gong...) The last time i enquiry about changes.. i was told i have to pay a change charge and top up the balance for the new tickets.. (i brought the last promotional tickets at 74 per trip.. den the going trip increased to 148..) i was like.. &^&*@^#^@&%@^$% ... fine...
den we have already decided to share the cost.. but today when i call up jetstar and changed her passport details.. and person says change passport details dun have to pay extra..!! i'm sooooo happy lahz.. lOlx.. so our plane tix is only 250.. quite cheap isn't it?? hehehehe...
other happy things are ITS SCAMP TML!!! although this year my group almost 10 girls and only 2 guys.. but i hope it will be fun!! really looking forward to scamp.. although i know i will be wore out at the end of the camp...
update again when i come back from SCAMP 06!!!
wanted to upload the photos from redang but max doesn't seem to be able to find the time to transfer the photos to me..
had a gathering with seekee and linda on friday.. i miss them SOOOOO much!!!
wanted to visit max cause he's been sick for 1 whole week.. but was rejected.. (i was quite upset over that actually..)
but now he's in japan already and i can't complaint also... but he didn't call me back like he promised.. *sprout*
blog without picture is soooooo boring....
anyways.. i'm suppose to be ordering birkies today... BUT!! hai.. the website increased the free delivery from $249 to $279.. and we were 4 dollar less!!!! arghhh... now i cannot order.. =( UPSET!!!!
but the happy thing is that a few days ago i reserved tickets to taipei.. me zhen hanwei and yixiang is going taipei on 29 july!! (isn't that exciting!!?!?!) den cause when i reserved the tickets i didn't put the correct particulars for zhen (cause i couldn't get her on the phone.. she was already meeting zhou gong...) The last time i enquiry about changes.. i was told i have to pay a change charge and top up the balance for the new tickets.. (i brought the last promotional tickets at 74 per trip.. den the going trip increased to 148..) i was like.. &^&*@^#^@&%@^$% ... fine...
den we have already decided to share the cost.. but today when i call up jetstar and changed her passport details.. and person says change passport details dun have to pay extra..!! i'm sooooo happy lahz.. lOlx.. so our plane tix is only 250.. quite cheap isn't it?? hehehehe...
other happy things are ITS SCAMP TML!!! although this year my group almost 10 girls and only 2 guys.. but i hope it will be fun!! really looking forward to scamp.. although i know i will be wore out at the end of the camp...
update again when i come back from SCAMP 06!!!
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Monday, June 12, 2006
i'm back!!!!
HoorayS!!!!
been away for more than 2 months.. finally back with a new outlook!! like my new blogskin??
i've been searching for something like this 2 months back.. but couldn't find any.. and den was too busily caught up with exams and all.. and finally.. yeah!!! its back to beachy feel!!! some as my feeling now.. still wanna relax...
wanted to load up photos when i revamp.. but the photos are not ready.. its okie.. i will put them up some other days den..
i still wun be posting much cause internet connection has been really slow.. for unknown reasons... hmm.. so yup!! see you guys around!!
HoorayS!!!!
been away for more than 2 months.. finally back with a new outlook!! like my new blogskin??
i've been searching for something like this 2 months back.. but couldn't find any.. and den was too busily caught up with exams and all.. and finally.. yeah!!! its back to beachy feel!!! some as my feeling now.. still wanna relax...
wanted to load up photos when i revamp.. but the photos are not ready.. its okie.. i will put them up some other days den..
i still wun be posting much cause internet connection has been really slow.. for unknown reasons... hmm.. so yup!! see you guys around!!
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