I want something to occupy my brains....
the >(korean drama series) i'm watching has 80 episopes.
i only watched 20.. but its really a nice show! not boring at all..!

hmm.. i really turning into a hua chi soon le lah!
i want to fall in love..~ badly...
why arh???? i always saying the same thing over and over again..
bored with myself..

bought the newspapers for today.. want to do a gd job screening de..
but.. haiz.. BLACKOUT for my block today!
the electricity was cut off since dunno when..
and only came back at 5pm...~ wah.....
haiz.. buy newspapers also quite useless..
i'm really growing plump leh.. =(..
never do anything just sit there and eat is definately a good way to gain weight..!

last sunday.. karine suddenly called me! was so shock.. i was lying down on my sofa.. when i receive her call.. i immediately sat up.. haha.. so funny.. really surprise to receive her call.. didn't contact her ever since me and zhen left church.. that's like more den one yr ago........she asked me and zhen out...! she became very slim! haha.. remains me of my sad slim times..! hahahahaha.. i think we had quite a enjoyable time together bah..

never do anything today!
jars say my interview failed.. -_-
those ppl very niao loh!
say they think that we're too young..
den wad for ask us to go for the interview!?
damn sickening lah~~
den weixian there also no news..
wad am i going to do on new yr's eve??!?!?
but the least thing that i'm happy about is that we finally get to rent our room out! after making so many calls to those agencys.. finally there's a couple from china.. wanting to rent the rooms! damn happy loh!!
wanted to rent to them at 500.. but they tot its abit ex.. so i was thinking 480.. they very clever also.. after the person brought them to our place.. they came back themselves and said that they dun wanna go thru agency.. this way.. both parties can save a huge amount of money.. so the rent is settled at 470.. finally i'm gonna get some allowance!! i'm soooo happy!!! gonna ask for 500 from mummy..! my pathetic allowance for december.. lOlx..! yeah...~~~ but they are moving in 2 days later..! haha.. so fast... needa clean up the place.. everywhere is sooo messy...

but still i need to find a job..
JOB JOB JOB....

watched about 14 hours of tv today loh...~
gonna grow fat for sure.......................

i think i like you..
but i dun think you do..
and i'm not going to do anymore silly things..
i promise myself..

here's how i spend my christmas eve and christmas day...

hmm..
6+pm.. waiting alone outside fish and co for jars and elaine..
7+pm.. they finally came and we wait together for the seats..
8+pm.. linda's also here and we digged in..
10+pm.. at esplanade playing cards..(daidee)
11+pm.. walked to boat quey to count down..

MeRRy ChRiStMaS!

12+am.. spraying ppl and get sprayed at..
1am.. at ps watching meet the fockers.. and toking to the stranger that was sitting beside me.. he's alone! so sad.. all because elaine lah.. have to leave the single seat there..
2+am.. the show ended.. and i seat on nacho box with cheese ambushed on my chair by jasmine!
3am.. busily scrubbin my skirt.. my WHITE skirt.. and they came and we start taking photos in the toilet! haha so funny! cause no one's there to take for us.. so we end up taking our reflections in the mirror!
3+am.. walking to paradiz centre and wanted to play pool.. discovered that snookerim (or wadeva it's suppose to be spelt as..) is CLOSED! wanted to take a cab back.. but 5 of us.. no cab driver wants to take.. finally.. after we've decided to walk back.. (but actually is bu si xing and kept asking..) a kind taxi driver took us in! elaine was hiding really well in the back seats.. she's so small..~
4+am..waiting for pool table at cineleisure..
6+am.. walking over to lido for mac breakfast.. so boring.. played cards again.. yes.. daidee.. till 7:10..
7+am.. on the bus home.. fall asleep and almost missed my stop.. but just almost lah.. i jumped up and alighted.. lOlx..
8+am.. bathed and zZzZzz..
4pm.. woke up by my alarm clock.. (suppose to have a date with yuzhen and her bf and her bf's friend shihong.. <-- as describe as tall and not bad looking.. but wad cancelled.. *disappointed*)
4+pm.. got out of the call and received the personally sent xmas card at my doorstep from keith! so sweet~
5+pm.. reached crown prince hotel.. still got security.. and pay slip.. and must punch card.. so troublesome! my first and last time here ever~
6+pm.. in the ballroom getting brief.. and being blur..
7+pm.. still being blur..
8+pm.. finally not so blur.. but still blur..
10+pm... still BLUR..
11pm.. blur-ly.. work ended..
11+pm.. on my way home..
12+am.. reached home..
2+am... ZZzzZzz

dun worry weili.. haha..
its not ur comp's fault..
i'm allowing only one day's entries on shown..
so that was my only entry for the day..
ppl.. if u all wanna see other entries..
go search for my archives.. hehe.. =P
today was mad at mummy again..
sob.. went to cry to daddy..
not that there's any help..
anyways.. went out after watching my now favorite korean drama xing niang 18 sui
(18 yr old bride.. aka little bride)
very pissed at mummy! and my eyes swollen..
saw this very cute piggy with linda and seekee..
me and seek wan to buy it for linda as her xmas prezzie!
we saw it at 3+.. and went back for it at 6+..
just 3 hrs..! and ta-ta.. its gone! super disappointed..
went shopping with seekee at lot 1..
she bought a pair of sneakers..
(after much troubles.. heheee)
and a pair of socks so she can try the sneakers with..!
den we went to popular to get those photo albums that she claim she hid yesterday... haha.. after searching up and down.. we found 1 of the 2 album.. but the other one really gone.. finally.. after much messing up of the place.. seekee found another one that pleases her..
Home Time! (actually i'm not excited AT ALL..)
took 188 home.. was really fast..
(cause not many ppl taking it anyway..)
tried to read but felt that puking halfway..
reached home and saw mum watching tv..
damn pissed... went straight to my room..
jars call and we discuss those thingy tml..
yq im me in msn..
asking me wad's wrong and everything..
after me trying hard to show some attitude..
he gave up.. and let me be..
but i suddenly felt so upset..
called him.. just kept crying after i said hello...
i think i read too much romance story le loh!
i told him.. (sTACe! u think u're wad???!)
"i also dunno wad to say.. just be with me for awhile.."
-_- wad a thing to say?! then i just kept crying..
finally i also dunno why after quite awhile..
den i told him everything.. really everything..
i'm so surprise at myself..
why is it that those things i could never bring myself to tell others.. i can easily tell him..?
wad's so special bout him?
is it just because he's my "daddy"...??? or is it because...?
nonononononoono... cannot be..
*ahem ahem* fullstop..!
i think i'm just too closed up..
because last time wadeva it is..
i can tell alf... now i dunno who to tell..
also dunno why i never tell zhen.. because she's too busy with her own life? and wilson..? *shrug*...... think we're drifting apart without us knowing.. i dun want! must save my friendship..
haha.. ask her out more often bah..!
my flu has yet to recover.. i think it worsen..
my voice didn't sound anywhere near better..
so is my nose! haiz..
seldom sick for so long.. been 1 wk already..
i hate being sick!!
so tired.. my eyes feels swollen.. (they are..!)
i'm gonna look ugly tml..! (oh well.. never was pretty anyway... -_-)

tml's christmas eve!
(not much xmas mood though..)

Argh~
i also want to fall in love loh! =(

i apologise for sounding like a spoilt brat earlier...
no matter wad.. she's still my mummy..
just now almost say the wrong thing to kj daddy..
wad so wrong with me?
must be watching too many romance dramas..
haha.. he's telling me that his friend yi bin is not bad..
den i tell him.. "u know i'm not the kind to make the first move.. u're an exception.." den he ask why...
and i almost said.. "cause i loved u so much.." -_-
heng i never said that!!! hahaa.. he laugh it off by saying that cause he's too gd.. heng i can use the self praise = no praise to round it up..
such bimbo acts.. must be under the influence of linda! lOlx..
anyways.. i finally sent out the christmas cards today..
dunno whether it'll be late or not leh..



i'm feeling so lonely..................

i'm so upset.. so damn pissed.. and hurt..
she's my mum!! all she toks about is money money money..
how poor everything is now..
i never asked a single cent from her..
so wad's her problem?!
if i know daddy want to divorce her..
i should have encourage him..
but now he has given up that idea..
what my grandma say makes my heartaches..
daddy deserves someone better..
someone more encouraging and mature..
now it seems that i'm her mum and she's my daughter..
had she gone mad?
how can she be so childish and dun realise that?
i've told her that i'm finding a job le..
know wad she said..
"but u're jobless NOW!
wait till u find a job den i'll stop toking bout money.."
i can't stand it...!
i wanna move out of here..
i want daddy to divorce her
and throw her back to her family..
she's too much for me to handle..
i hate her! I hATe Her tO thE coRe~!

i'm leaving tml night..

i have no idea what am i going to do there..
slack around? its gonna be sooo cold..
and NO-ONE is fetching me..! thanks loh..
i'm just going to freeze and die on arrival..
updated my link.. added about hmm.. 6 blogs?
didn't realise that so many ppl have a blog..!
anywayz..

to Ah mAH

(my training tour roommate)

HapPy BIrTHdAy!!!!!!!

we went to lau pa sa for dinner.. expensive and not very nice..!
but ah mah treated us.. den the sting ray drop all over me..! stained my fave denim skirt and polo tee..!!! argh~~ damn upset loh.. dunno whether can wash away or not.. scrub for 20 mins leh.. haiz.. tml's basketball's BBQ.. den i'll go straight to the airport..

btw.. haifeng (my classmate) is on the same plane as me..! so cool..! first time so qiao.. but he wants to go shop the duty free shops.. dunno whether we can sit together.. cause i'll there LATE. haha.. cause i like to check in the last minute mah..

i went to watch the incredibles with yongjia today.. was very tired for no reason.. i was about to fall asleep halfway thru.. but.. the movie quite funny lah..! haha.. especially the baby boy.. soooo cute..!!! but some parts quite spiderman 2 leh.. like stopping the train for a broken railway.. and the destroyer also have those craws like the "octopus" in spiderman 2..

i suddenly realise i have alot of thingy to do loh..! like pack up my room.. and i just got another job interview.. thanks.. why the hell did i accept it????? like if they ask me to go for the interview.. i'll in china already lah! such a blur sotong loh..

yesterday quarrel like mad with my mum.. she finally agreed to help me settle my $200 phone bills and savings plan.. i'm very tight also mah! she scream at me like mad... =(... i'm broke..! and still going out for movies and BBQs.. hope i get a job soon when i'm back..!

somebody please employ me..!!!

too long never update..
almost forgot that i have a blog..
anyways.. yesterday was my PROM..!
haha.. huijie won the prom king..~ glory to bball team..!
the photos are out.. i look very fat!!! haha..
oh no.. should have wore that black one instead sia..
seekee's skirt alot of ppl wear lehx..! haha..
yawnz..
i'm gonna grow FAT.. cause got bbq after bbq waiting for me..!
hmm.. should be in china next week.. so.. u all can email me lah..! cause i'll be soooo bored..!
the plan is to transit Hong Kong..! i wanna go shopping..
(actually is fly to HK den take train to beijing.. hahahahz)
hAhAz..
yesterday the girls finally went to my house!!!
we all sleep with our hair still tied up lohz.. cause too tired to untie it...
i won the pin contest.. got 28 pins were used to style my hair.. seek has 27.. jars 23.. linda we dunno.. but should be quite little.. cause hers use rubber band to tie so not so much pins..!!! i look very fat in all the photos arh..~~ should have turn sideways.. den the face wun look so rounded..~~ wah.. my tummy damn ugly loh..! ARGH~~~!!!
sadded... haha.. i must go diet liao..
wah.. all say no action.. *shake head* sighz..

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!
i'm sooooo happy..!
just yesterday i brokedown and cry at my mechanics..
straight after fm p2.. the exams are over and u-didn't-do-badly feeling wasn't really there.. but its beginning to sank in..
i'm feeling more relief now..
LAST WORRY: prom night.. and my flabby meat.. haha..
how to make full use of this one week and get the most number of KGs off me..!!! especially the tummy fats..!!!
haha.. now on my list..

1. LoSe WeiGHt..!!!
2. GoOd PAying 9-5 Job.. dEn cAn paRt-tiME.. LOlx..
3. Get mE a BoYfRiend..!!!!!!

haha.. my expectation are not too high lah..
just dun be too unpresentable den best if 178cm and above..
dun be too skinny also..! cause i'm plum..
haha.. mad already.. -_-
hee.. to happy now..
go watch tv le..

Exam is ending...
this will mark the end of my "school uniform" life..
kinda unwilling to graduate now..
dun wanna face the grown-up world..
i wanna be a kid forever..!
but obviously that's not very possible..
i'm definately going to US no matter wad..
no money also smuggle myself there..! (just joking lah..)
last paper's on wednesday.. prom's on the 3rd..
i haven diet yet..!!!! haha..
pray for determination to diet siaz..
i dun wanna go prom this plum..!!!
lotsa money to be spend after wed..
gotta highlight my hair..!! hee.. and buy the gown..
and get someone to do my makeup and stuff..
(cause i know nuts about dolling up..!)
so now.. i must get a job..!!! but i lazy to go find leh..
and they wun employ me straight away anywayz..
so if anyone got any lobang can tell me..!
dun wan those go street sell coupon kind k..
cause i very evil to them.. =P..
might be going china for a short while in december..
okie.. is confirm going..
aunt ella is gonna be in beijing from 13th -18th dec.. cause of some meeting.. so its a good chance for me to meet up with her..
since i think she's gonna sponser my studies..
haiz... i'm really leaving arh..? i dun feel like going overseas for studies AT ALL.. but nus lousy.. no dietetics.. no choice.. =( super depressed..
gotta make friends all over again..!! and ppl here will half forget about me.. hahaz.. day-dreaming already.. get into a college there den say lohz..
still must go take TOFEL.. -_-
and retake SAT I and take SAT II..
i hate SAT I...!!!!! den imagine i gotta study chem and maths all over again..! i already wanna throw those stuff away liaoz.. hahaz..Z
now quite in a relax mood..
but i becoming lazier and lazier.. lazy to reply sms also..
thing alot of ppl sms me den i just ignore..
bad attitude..!!! and geometric is driving me MAD..!! really can't understand wad the hell its saying lohz.. haiz..
continue to mug for 2 more days.. den i'm done with this crapz..
jia you jia you jia you..!!!

its been awhile since i update here..
1 week le..!!
had my chem p3 on monday and maths p1 on tuesday..
chem's fine.. so much better than wad i had expected..
some parts i studied for food chem came out..
could have done better if not for my stubborness
cause i know God tell me to study food storage and periodicity..
and despite me knowing that it'll come out.. i didn't study hard for this 2 topics.. -_-..(cause i hate periodicity..!! and food storage too..!) so when it came out i make mistakeSSSS..! haha.. but over all quite optimistic... maths is the best..!!! i know how to do all the questions..!! i even did both either and or.. haha.. cause i can't decide.. in the end i choose Or.. cause the either last part abit unsure.. oppz..
hAo LiaNEd.. haha..! very very happy for my maths... was very worried in the first place.. cause i very over confident.. later something will happen de.. so i very scared.. scarly later blank out.. den die.. heng never happen sia..! wed and thurs very slack loh.. hee.. but today better.. hmm.. was emailing my aunt ella.. go US study like very hard like that.. need lotsa money.. den the visa also quite hard to get.. cause must have financial support lah.. recommandation letter lah.. this and that loh.. -_- sianz.. how??
haiz.. continue studying now loh.. no choice...
*shake head* HOW..??!!

today's GP paper..
i was on the bus..
Bush won the election..
*disappointed... i like Edwards..! =P
the paper is okie.. compared to every single paper i did.. this is consider good...
i actually managed to finish my comprehension.. even the AQ..!!
though i also not sure wad i'm doing.. HaAhA..! but i kept spelling the word differentiate wrongly.. (i spelt it as differencient.. dunno wad i thinking also.. and i cancel and spell again x 10 times lohz.. still wrong..!)
meet yuzhen for lunch...
ate this super spicy bowl of noodles..
den.. in the late afternoon.. the sky started pouring..
and so did my asshole.. i got diarrhoea..!!!!
first time in my life that i'm getting an upset stomach from eating too spicy.. please..!! my dialect is Sze Chuan..!!!
and since i know how to pick at my food..
i've been eating spices.. nothing was TOO spicy..
till that bowl of noodles..
my stomach is still upset...
and so is my mind..
I GOT GROUNDED
cause of juxuan lah.. this few nights keep calling me..
mummy very pissed liao.. actually i also quite pissed..
always call when i'm eating.. den tell him i having exam..
still want me to chat with him.. dun have to study arh..?
den tonight.. i bathing.. den mummy picked his call.. and tell him off.. oppz.. okie.. i feel very bad.. but very happy too..!
dun have to entertain ppl..
for wad.. i'm the one that's having exams lehz..!!
so ppl... shouldn't be looking for me when u're bored.. i'm a complete no life creature now..!! and i would like to be left alone for the next 20 days..
haiz.. den he call my hp.. so my hp confiscated for tonight..
DaMnEd.. nvm... i'm suppose to be lifeless anyway..
tired liaoz.. go slp liaoz..
chem p3 on monday.. pray for me..

FoOD chEm SuX...!!!
just now i was eating dinner..
and wad i saw was not rice and broccoli..
(oh yes.. i decided actually i like broccoli..)
i saw starch and cellulose..!!!
oh mine.. seriously going mad..
i decided to shut down for exams.. haha..
must really be no life for 20 days from now on..
oh.. i mean 22 days.. shrug..!!
who call myself so slack.. den now cannot finish revision le lah..!
gp in 1 day..!! very nervous..
i must go to bed at 10pm tml..!!
if not later i cannot wake up how..
haha.. going mad..~~~~
back to food chem..
now i'm seeing lipids..!!
in me..!!!!!! haha..
my mummy say i'm too fat.. =(
okie.. she didn't say that.. she say i look like a chunk of meat..
fine..!
DiEt lOhz..!!! aRgh.. A lEvEls.. CHioNg ARH..~~!!!!

HApPiE hAllOwEen..!!!
now i wish to dress like a witch and go parade around the estate.. lOlx..!!!
anyway.. 4 days to my GP paper..
8 days to chem p3.. 9 days to maths p1..
argh.. i'm going mad..!

truly frustrated...!!
argh.. i just want to study..!!!
but can't concentrate..
and i can stop myself from binge eating.. -_-||
StrEsSeD..
toked to daddy..
today's their 16mths..
hAppY mONthsARy dAdDy anD mUmMy!!(or wadeva it is spelt as)
hai.. reminded me that.. if we're still together.. it'll be our 15th month in 6 days.. hai.. kept reminded of this thing today.. morning was looking at the A levels time table.. and saw the small red heart thingy i drew at the top left corner of the 26th square.. should have liquided it away long ago.. but i didn't..
its been almost 2 mths since we broke up.. why am i still thinking of this stuff..? not that i love him anyway.. and i'm not regretting.. i'm just thinkin.. wad will happen if we're still together.. oh.. my.. seem quite erm.. disgusting..? or just can't be imagined...? nah..
brainwash me please..
hai.. been staring at the same page since dunno when.. damn it..
i hate myself..

just watch a show called il mare on the tv..
its a korean movie and this is my second time watching it..
it's a really beautiful show..
after watching it.. i begin to think that well..
life is beautiful..
hee.. i kinda like this kind of show..
its bout this girl..
she's living in yr 2000 and she communicates with a guy that lives in yr 1998..
its very romanic..! and i like the ending.. haha.. cause i hate sad endings..
so ppl out there.. if u haven watch it.. go grab the vcd..! its damn nice..~
oppz. i think i'm mad.. supposed to be studying isn't it..
10 days to A levels.. -_-||

finally settling down to study...
still had my that spinning headache till like 9pm..
bathe for bout half an hour..
think cause i use that extra hot water hor..
den shower my head.. den the blood all rush to my head..
so the headache is finally gone..!! =)
did 20 mcq questions today.. haha..~
that's like the only work i've done since dunno when lohz.. hee..
at least i'm doing work isn't it..?
need to finish my physical chem this weekend..
yupz.. that's it..! jia you..!

was kinda stuck with some virus..
got this headache since evening..
maybe its some food poisoning from seek's steamboat..
o.O? lOlx.. cause she say she vomited after that..
or maybe its because i popped into a air-con room sweaty from the glaring sun.. but i changed..!!!
had a nice time K-ge-ing yesterday..
was supposed to meet jeremy to study today..
but i was late.. for one hour..
and i lost my wallet on the way..
only to be found 15 mins later.. haha..
i was in this super sad mood when this RV boy approached me and say.. "hey.. i found ur wallet and handed it over to the control station.."
woAh..~ really lucky lehz..
not alot of kind ppl nowadays..
and somemore i got forty bucks in that purse...!
(okie.. maybe its praise God..)
now.. back to that jeremy.. he arh..
forgot about our study date..!!
called back when i was about to satisfy my empty stomach..
telling me he's still in school.. and just finish playing soccer.. and completely forgotten bout us suppose to be studying.. -_-||
haiz.. heng i meet junhao sia..! at least got ppl accompany me..
we went to mac and TRIED to study..
end up toking cock till 7... haiz..
den finally i asked to go home.. because i was feeling damn weak..
my head is heavy.. my limbs like jelly..
damn sick.. so i went home and slp...
SLP..
(actually i typed this on 14 oct.. but nvm lahz.. =P)