Sentosa DAY!!

it was a relaxing day for me (though i really have to do the term paper for Pc module..)

me and seek met up to support jasmine and michelle at tanjong beach... it was really ulu lah.. but hock was really nice to queue for the bus for us while me and seekee went 7-11 to get some food and drinks..

the place was quite empty but we got alot of free food and drinks.. hahaha..

jasmine our HULA girls.. hahaha it was quite funny.. here's some profile for her and her sis michelle..

and woohoo! they won! =D.. too bad i dun have the photos of jasmine with that big and funny plane tickets for 2 to hawaii..~~












and some pics of me seekee with jasmine..

I left for vivo at around 4:45 to meet up with kj and yiwei at vivo.. we want to eat new zealand's ice cream at harbour front but end up eating shi lin fried chicken chop.. hahaha.. and den after walking around the whole of vivo trying to find a place to eat.. we finally settled down at a thai restaurant called "thai accent" we sat outside and the sun side with damn nice!

Super nice dye for the clouds during the sunset

Left: KJ acting cute while we pose for a pic at thai accent. Below: Yiwei and me








Kaijie trying to act cute again by playing with the super big PSP..
hai. got father got daughter.. no wonder i like to act cute! hahaha

Hup refuses to take picture with me.. haha.. so he's not seen in the above pictures..

anyways the day ended with me walking into the boy's toilet.. -_-

but i met lindaaa in her friend's car while i was exiting the vivo carpark.. super qiao lah!

Blogged on 13 June @ 6pm

i was hurrying my term paper in the morning whereby yiting called to ask me to work at parkway parade sony gallery. well well.. i wouldn't reject money.. so i agreed, but i mentioned that i have to go off at 7 for pc gathering.. and she say okie.. so i'm off to work..

hai.. dunno whether its right to agree or not.. i was promoting the phone and i really likes..!! so during my lunch break i went to get one! (but not from sony gallery... but one of the ah beng shops at marine parade..)

well.. i wun say that the phone was too expensive.. cause it only costs S$680.. but the M2.. super cheated lah.. $100 for 2Gb.. *cry* i wanted to call someone for help.. but there's no one i can turn to! *cry* kj's in army.. hup's probably driving.. max's not in sg.. bc working.. and yiwei kup my call! *sobz* no one to help!! so like that kena cheated i think 20-30 bucks loh..

nvm.. but i was happy to get new handphone! yeah! =D

after work.. i rushed to orchard to meet felix they all.. i wanted to wait for a space to park my bike at the carpark opposite cineleisure but after quite awhile there's still no space.. so i parked nicely beside the lots.. (WRONG MOVE) and went off.. just to realise i forgot to take my cashcard out.. *again!* and there's quite a significant amount in it.. so i run back to get (heng arh).. the cashcard's still there.. =D.. but i looked around and there's still no parking lots available. nvm loh.. i went to eat dinner (cause i was sooo hungry.. i used all my lunch break timing to get the phone!)

and we were at canele.. and they have really NICE cakes for dinner!!

The cakes we ate.. from top left clockwise. mine, lionel, ginny, felix

and after that we went to shop at cine.. felix got himself a pair of havianas for his US trip and i met benedict (nh junior) at the NUM shop at cineleisure. after which.. its home sweet home.. though we saw transformer models at the entrance of cine.

So nice! hehee

this post is posted on 13 June @ 3:38pm

went for 3hrs of tuition in the morning.. yawns.. den to cck to meet bc to go shopping!! hahaa
well.. it was sort of a surprise yet disappointment..

well well.. we went a far journey to the east.. from cck->bishan->tampines road.. really far.. to search of this super warehouse sell at wing tai building.. was in hope to get some g2000 and fox stuff.. but it turns out that this weekends is adidas and nike sale! *faint* of course bc didn't managed to get anything.. ^_^ i'm so sorry!!

but i got myself 2 pairs of shoe! yeah! a pair of adidas sneakers and a pair of track shoe.. at super low prices! wahahaha
the very chio sneakers only S$29!!! and it was the last pair and totally my size lah!!now i think of the pair of sneakers i bought for xmas last year.. S$129 *faint* and i went around searching for my size all over singapore..
and this pair of track shoe for S$49.. also the last pair.. =D





and den we wanted to go back.. so we anyhow took one bus that says hougang stn.. and went there. and here you have 2 westernised sua gu kia that never been to hougang before! hahaha..

Idiot A
Idiot B
A closer look at hougang mall.

but seriously i've never been to hougang before! i went to punggol loh.. but not hougang..
we went home on NEL after that.. and i pon my tuition with grace! hahaha.. i'm an lazy bum!

Disclaimer again: all from 30 May to 3 June is blogged on 12 June

absolute normal day.. cause i have to go work at 11am at westmall.. and i also din't hit target. tried so hard to promote.. =(but dad came to have lunch with me and we ate a huge meal at mayim. got to know 2 very lively promoters from nokia and samsung.. the samsung promoter turns out to be my old colleague from NAB! shirley! we took photos together.. but i can't find it now.. think i left it in the demo k800i =(

i was sleeping at home when yiting suddenly called me and ask me to arrive 0.5 hour earlier at sentosa. i immediately dress up and went out but by the time i reach vivo it was already 5:30. and i ask the counter staff and she told me my bike can go in! which is WRONG. cause when i tried to go in the gateway staff told me i cannot go in!! *faint* and i realised that i didn't bring my wallet out! so i can forget about wanting to renew my islander card and all.. and i have to trouble the i/c to get me a free ticket.i finally reached sentosa at 6:05pm.. after all the hassle.~~ *phew*first time being at cafe del mar.. it looks quite nice.. and really has a lot of staff.. i carried the new sony k810i and was instantly in love with it! i took quite a number of pictures with the phone.. you can see them at http://www.screammypaper.blogspot.com/.. those with the longer blogger post is i blog one..haha.. there's MTV vj may and choy.. they were sitting in front of the stage before the event started and i was like thinking.. how come there can be such pretty ladies in the world.. haha.. they were really stuning!oh.. and i met jc schoolmate marcus. he really does look different.. and i realise i dun recognise most of my batch SA saints.. just like how i didn't have any impression of marvin from recruit express JE.they have quite a number of celebraties.. like ah hsin from F.I.R and Superman Gary.. they sing pretty nice.. i wanted to catch a photo of ah hsin but when i finally finish my stuff he finish his last song and i only caught his back view running off the stage. but i took photos of gary though. hehehethe day finally ended at 10:30pm.. and we took a cab out of sentosa.

oh P.S. happy 17th monthsary

I'm having my first driving lesson today!! excited. but its mostly theory and admin stuff and i only get to drive the car for less than 1 min. but i can see that its hard drving. there's so many buttons and rules!!

after driving i went home to do tutorial.. but it was difficult..! mostly short answers and i spend quite a while doing it. and i have to go hand it in.. plus i have to pass slippers to zhen.. so in the end, i was late for the KTV date with bc.. and he was mad lah! =(

anyways.. we had quite a fun time at k box JEC..

the lighting was BAD BAD BAD.. plus it was taken with my phone.. so bear with the lousy graphics..



hohoho.. he must be singing some kind of love song! ^_^


after singing, i met zhen to go for meijing's bday party.. but.. we're both so tired and sianz.. after entering the MRT station.. we both dun feel like going! hahaha.. *lazy bums* so we decided to paiseh! hahaha.. we're MEAN..

so in the end i went back to find bc to have dinner with me.. lOlx. and dumb my bike at the carpark while he walks me home cause i was suppose to be REALLY tired... (which is true..)

but as tml is a holiday, so kj's out of camp.. and yiwei came back (that fat ass!) and kj ask me if i want to go party.. and i was like.. i want to go zouk!!!!! okies. so we went to zouk.. but boy.. it was a WRONG move.. cause all the party animals and non-party animals are out!! my my... should have taken a photo of the crowd at zouk and dbl O.. i think singaporean's are desperate to party sia!! the zouk queue is at least 200m long!! how scary can that be sia..

in the end we went to some small pub and drink beer.. lOlx. we played 5/10 and that kj keep winning so i kept having to drink lah!! and we play blackjack but everyone keeps getting 21! *faint* anyways all of us were pretty drunk and we went to yiwei's house to rest.

almost late for my practical. heng arh. well. the instructor saw that i only failed pylon so i was allowed to get my bike and start practising pylon the moment i arrived while the others have to under go the briefing. it was lucky because no one else is using pylon, so i get to practise as much as i want.. =D i think i did like at least 25 times of pylon. finally the instructor came and time me. yeah! i passed.. =D.. but seeing those 2B L-plates really make me misses the times when i was there. Went to get my PDL done after that and saw stef, she just passed her FTT. and mine's like on the 23rd of JULY... *faint* hope to get better dates.well.. nothing much besides going for work again.. yawnz.

Disclaimer: (all those from 21st may to 26th may is blogged on 26th may itself..)

started on my first 2A practical. woo.. it was HARD. the bike is SOOO heavy and the engine is so hot.. and the pylon had so little time practise and still need to clear in 5 secs. and i kept hitting the neutral gear like nobody's business.. and i turn the throttle a bit the bike shoots of.. TOUGH. so in the end. i fail 1.01.. sobz.. i tot it'll be easy..but anyways, i passed my BTT.. yah! =D happy sia.. i quite nervous cause very scared i'll fail and i'll be so damn embrass..immediately book the next practical for 1.01 - Saturday 8am. YAWNS.. but the timing's good cause i can do my PDL after i finish with the prac.oh.. after i'm back home i sold my O2 atom to some guy @430.. it was really cheap sale lah.. all because anyone else is also selling the phone.

So it turns out that the job was for AIG south east asia - IT department. time passed quickly as there's stuff to do. met up with bc after work.. wanted to go watch movie but there's no show that interest him (cause i promised DEXI to watch pirates with him...) so we went to eat and walked around instead. obviously we ordered too much food at NYDC.. (we wanted to ciao cause there's nothing interesting in the menu but i say the waiter that lead us to the seat is too cute to resist so we must stay.. hahaha!) anyways.. i looked through the photos from taiwan and there's this really hilarious photo! bc (height 1.81) sitting on a smaller scooter (think less than 50cm taller and probably only 50cc) its really a funny scene and i couldn't stop laughing.. totally mei you xin xiang. we strolled to far east after dinner cause we are both sooo full.. but we forgot bout my bike which is at martin road.. so in the end.. we have to go back to get the bike, i was sooo tired when walking towards the MRT station and almost fall asleep while walking lah.. finally, we gave up and took the train to clarke quay where i walked all the way to mohammed sultan road to get my bike. *phew* i was tiring.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KWANG HUP.. (my dearest "son")

almost late for tutorial.. well well, i was late, but i didn't know the tutorial was postponed to 9:30am haha. so end up being early.. =D.. our group totally forgotten about the presentation and cough one up right before our turn and sort of impressed the lecturer.. hahaha so funny.rushed to work after that *not late* time passes as slowly as always. dad called regarding doing a favour for his friend this a one day temp job for $60 on wed and i decided to go for it.

Happy Birthday To ME

anyways.. i'm officially 21.

max played my old trick on me. appearing in my room right pass midnight with a cake and lighted candles.. but the only difference is that i'm half asleep when he appear.. (hahaha). My bday seem exceptionally plain.. went for lecture in the morning at science.. den went SDE for my other lecture. accidentally left my phone on the bench i think before i went into the lecture theatre. and went to search for it halfway through the lecture. guess it's my bday so lucky star shining on me.. and kind soul which pick up my phone returned it to the SDE Dean's Office. I'm so relieved to have my precious W800i back. This must be the BEST phone i've ever gotten.. better than any other phones in the market now loh.. (though i really wanted to get my hands on the N95) me and yue jer (project mate for SS module) escaped during the break in the middle of the lecture and went to library to work on our project all the way till 6pm.. I went home to change before heading off to my bday celebrations.. no fancy parties. just me zhen max mum and dad at AKASHI jap restaurant at paragon basement. (i really wanted to eat korean BBQ.. but mummy says no!!). Zhen bought me a sunflower.. ^^ Mum bought a GIANTATIC cake for me.. it reads 21 but in a REALLY HUGE manner. slightly before we cut the cake, my precious bimbos appeared (linda Seek Jas and Elaine!!! =D thanks to my dearest max for inviting them to give me a surprise. the 9 of us could barely finish half of the number 1. and we bought the whole no. 2 back.. and i had cake for 3 meals till thursday. well.. the cake tasted really nice.. so i'm not sick of it though i eat it everyday.. but the direct opposite goes for the cake that max bought. (i haven touch it and i think i wun be touching it.. its in the fridge since sun night!! and it's really big (500g) and he didn't help me eat one bit and its a four leaves cake.. (i really hate those 4 leaves display cake cause mum used to bring those cakes back every other day when she worked for 4 leaves..) Ironically, the HUGE 21 is also from 4 leaves.

We left the restaurant after taking lots of photos and with a very full tummy. what's really funny is that when we walked out of the paragon there's this batch of ppl sitting on the stairs and they suddenly start singing happy birthday.. -_- obviously it was directed at me.. *shake head* mum and dad took MRT back while me max and zhen took a cab back cause we can't all squeeze into the cab and there's the cake.

i opened thew pressie that max bought. and it was a wireless keyboard and mouse set from microsoft (which i'm using now.. haha) after we squeeze the cake into the fridge after a lot of effort i left to meet bc at cck.

he's trying to be mysterious and used the phone to guide me to where he is.. and this is what he prepared!

It reads Happy 21 B'Day with sparklers surrounding in a rectangular manner.he still apologises for not having a cake for me.. but boy, i was relieved not to have another cake! =D we chatted about each other becoming fatter and he's experience in taiwan, those top class hotels he stayed in with the tour - grand hyatt, parkview, some golf resort.. really 5 star lahhhh *jealous* caught the last train back to JE and went home to sleep!

In view of the upcoming GST credits i will be posted to Jurong Green CC to answer enquires..

the shifts are not as per advice by the agency lahhhh~~ a bit cheated.. but i dun think they will extend to 15 june.. so doesn't matter.. i just work till 27 may den chao~~~~ have better stuff to do loh.. like my special sem projects and term papers...

yawn.. but come to think of it.. i totally HATES group work.. but both modules have group project, fortunately for SSD we write our own separate reports..

well.. actually i really dun feel like blogging.. hahaha.. chao!!

Newest updates..

i'm doing special sem.. for sure..!
found a job as CPF ambassor for the upcoming project that works on rotating shifts from 12 - 9 or 2-9 6 days a week with one weekday off..

if i can get fixed off on mondays and 2-9 slots on tuesdays and thursday then i will be able to attend ALL my lectures and tutorials.. hooray!! but the pay's just market rate.. but the good thing about it is that it ends on 15 JUnE! with my SSD2210 module exam on 16 June which means i can find another normal working hour job immediately.. hehehe.. sounds good! =D but i calculated that the pay from this job would JUST be enough to cover my special sem.. means i will have no nett earnings.. sian.. so much for trying to pull up grades arh... -_-

I feel kinda of hopeless now..
only at times like this i will start to blog..
cause i want to do every single possible thing besides studying..

2101 and 2102 coming up in less than 3 and 4 days.. i'm dead meat now.. cause i'm quite sure i wun be able to finish studying because i didn't study a bit during the weekends and instead wasted my time watching tv and playing games.

hols is coming in less than 5 days.. *yeah* and i have to move back to my dreaded home.. but heng i will be getting some help to clean up my house! yeah! and i secretly bought a new bed for mum and dad.. cause the old bed is not doing them good and dad complaint about back pain the other time he was back in sg.. dad's coming back on the 6th! i'm sure he will be happy to see our house CLEAN~~ =D

sidetrack a bit..
things appears to be good with him.. but deep inside i dun think we'll be able to withstand this long vacation.. with his absence for 1 month.. maybe i would have forgotten about him by the time he is back.. seriously.. i dun think i would mind if i can forget about him.. haha.. forget how he takes me for granted now that i'm back by his side.. forget about how i take him for granted cause of my plain laziness.. forget about how he never seem to keep his promises.. forget about how he always forgets the things i mentioned to him.. forget why nowadays i feel so empty, lonely and neglected. forget about him..

i need a long vacation from studying.. but i still haven decided on the special term modules... i need a long vacation from working.. but that's not possible cause i need money!! i need a long vacation from him.. but somehow i grow to be very attached to him and i can't seem to break free from this bond.. i need a long vacation from life.. so i can just float around in space.. haha.. and think of nothing for the whole day.. and everyday..

Upset about my first paper yesterday..
more upset about my cell bio paper tml..

i just HATE exams.. but i hate doing projects too.. maybe i just hate studying.. (but i dun leh...)

anyways.. it sucks for stats cause the lecturer decided to change to bell curve grading during the LAST lecture where there's only damn 20 students in the class.. means only the top 4 will get A related grades.. the rest will all get something like B or B+.. its SUPER off to bell curve 20 ppl lah!! now i'm getting paranoid because i didn't went for the last 2 tutorials and did not hand in my 5% assignment.. neither did i had wonderful grades for my 25% CA and for the 50% final exam yesterday everyone's answers were about the same (so now it depends on the CA results i guess).. and half the paper was on theory which i suck at cause i skipped all the lectures after midsem.. what could be worse.. he LIFTED one of the exam qns from the TEXTBOOK!! *faint* some kind of lecturer......

and i can't finish studying for my 1pm cell bio papers tml.. (not cause i have no time.. but because i dun feel like it.. especially when my CA results is only the 25th percentile..)

DIE....

and surprisingly... i'm quite a genius.. so why am i struggling so hard at cell bio!?
faint.. (coped from linda's bloggie..)



back to mugging.

Its funny what exams can do to us..
exam period is often the period where we have not enough time for every single thing in the world.. yet i always seem to have time for computer games where i will be stationed right in front of the comp and just kept playing away..

i have tonnes of stuff to study yet i can't seem to make myself do that.. hai.. what to do sia.. plus my CA are not wonderful results.. i might just get a terrible average this sem and that's it.. i wun be able to do my honors.. somebody HELPppppp...

We went to watch phantom of the opera yesterday.. i have only a word for it..

EXCELLENT!!

i think its a great show.. having done small scaled production for 2 years now i'm soooo amazed at their sets and how miraculous their sets change, especially the river scene with all the candles.. it was a pity cause we sat too far from the stage and had to use a binoculars to see the stage and the faces clearly.

it was so good that it cleared up my soggy mood immediately!

but today was a disaster.. i was so gross out when the bird shit fall on my FACE when i was walking to eusoff for lunch was max.. and our mr max just laugh at me mercilessly.. =(

and i couldn't go sing KTV with bc tml cause i have to buck up and finish studying for the upcoming exams..

I've got a new hair cut on sunday! and i highlighted my hair RED.. hehe.. its been a while since i dyed my hair (about 2 years!) and i love my new hair colour.. but i wun say that bout the hair styles.. its just acceptable.. but it makes me look like a different person.. but the best thing is that mummy paid for all my expenses!! =D

Exit: the world outside fairyland.

warning: blogpost is random and might not make any sense.

will i be able to do it.. i silently ask myself.. will i be able to stop living in my own world and face the real world. frankly, i'm scared. i'm scared of leaving my own dreamyland.. but i guess i have to do it now so that i will stop depressing.. its when you really found that you've lost everything you once had den you start to realise how important they were to you..

bc says that its when love fades den you realise how everything else besides your lover are impt to you.. its actually because you're over dependent on someone and when he wouldn't be there for you anymore, you will eventually snap out of it.

i love my dreamland. but recently.. i've begin to hate it. my style of life irritates even myself. how can i live like this i tot many times. that someone which i depends on all the time. that someone that i hurt all the time.. does he even exist outside the dreamland?

this is gonna be hard.. how can i step out without losing something. maybe i will lose him.. because that always happened when i tried to step out of my dreamland as he exist only in my dreamland.. and if i dun need my dreamland.. i dun need him..

it was weird hating myself. i've never once hate myself so much. i hate it when i'm in this kind of weakling state.. so pathetically hoping to get strength and help from ppl around.. trying so hard to be independent but actually totally not at all and getting hurt over having nothing to lean on. crying my eyes swollen every now and den without thinking. what exactly is wrong with me??

i dun even remember ever being like this.. what made me become this way.. dun even have the strength or energy to pick myself up from this mess and open that gate to the outside of my dreamland.. so shall i stay here or shall i challenge myself and get out..?

is it really good to leave him for good? for my own good? cause i can't leave him for a day now.. it drives me nuts.. and i wun have my meals properly without him.. because i only eat with him.. i totally dun understand myself.. why dun i make more friends.. why dun i eat with someone else.. i constantly tries to forget the fact that he's no longer going to be in hall with me since this may.. why am i living in self denial?

i've become distrustful of myself recently.. i dun really believe that i will be able to keep him in my heart if i want to.. and even with him in it.. i can give my heart to anyone.. and that when he said he's going to china for 1 month.. i'm scared.. why am i scared? i felt terrible.. like he is not going to come back or he wun be there for me anymore.. and that i wun be able to keep my heart with me.. i'm upset.. why aren't you worried.. why dun you want to guard me.. why it is that nobody wants to protect me? i'm no child.. i will be 21 in no time.. but will i be able to overcome all this by myself.. will i really grow up and be mature.. will i???
i really want to escape.. to some other places.. and build maybe another fairyland.. i had an ridiculous thought.. i felt like challenging myself.. will i be able to do that? will i not phone him or answer his calls.. will i not talk to him on MSN.. will i not miss him.. and forget him in the 1 month he has given to me..?

why can't i grow up. even if i were to act grown up.. i had not grow any more matured than i was before. i want to grow up too isn't it.. if only i can stop this disgusting weakling's feelings in me..

why can't i just lose all my memories for the past 2 years. if i can i think i will be stronger.

i'm sick of living.